2009年4月25日 下午3點33分09秒dumb.darn.down.

Sat for MUET today. The worse day ever. I never felt that bad after sitting for an examination. But not this time. Speechless, and undescribeable. I wish for getting a better band 5 in my entire life, and now, it gone half away. It will be hardly getting a band 4, i pray hard for it. What to do if band 3? Can't even imagine about it. Rubbed off all the images. Bad.

Difficulties in reading, brain-less in writing, and distractions during listening. Hope for speaking? I did't put much hope on it. Inspiration and aspiration gone in split second. Non-variation writing, and kept on reapeting the same words, not persuasive. Mess out.

Hard, feeling so hard.

 

 

 

 

 

2009年4月17日 下午1點32分33秒Lost for Ages

Just checked out my last post, it's been ages ago. Evidence of my fully-occupied schedule? or my poorest time management?

Blogging seems the be the best way in expressing own feelings. And yet, whenever I was in front of this page, I have short of idea, or some said, lost of senses. Everything is gone! I have lot of things to be poured out, mumbled for the whole day long, but now, they were gone! Frust~ Can't share anything right here.

 

Yesterday...

A half-year long yesterday. Year without New Year Resolution, year of growing older, and getting suffered! Suffered of what? Me too, wondering. I was waiting for aunty to fetch me back yesterday. In that short minute period, two persons asked me.

"Form 6 student? Tough?"

This question had been hovered around my mind for ages. I'm well-prepared with this kind of question, and yet, I stucked.

"It is tough, in the form of activities and dealing with teachers (and I hate this part), but it is not that tough in academic, after all, though, I'm not that pro in studying. But getting yourself a lower standard, you might survive."

 

Yesterday yesterday...

 

Getting stiffness in our class condition. Especially the happiest-ever-after back row girls and guy. Just becuse of that poorest tiny matter. Fade-out.

 

Yesterday yesterday yesterday......

Games Carnivals were overed! Cheers! Read our president's blog. She's in stalemate. I felt sorry, sorry for can't help anything, and sorry, I had chosen you a lame assistant. Sorry for being your helpless ASU. Imbalanced feelings.

 

 

Today.

Saw sir chan early in the morning. My lowest rank of modiness of the day. Felt hardly to speak, or given a smile. Sorry, for not greeting. And thanks, for helping us a lot.

 

Tomorrow

3 exams within one month time.

 

 

 

 

 

Speechless.