網誌
2006年10月28日 上午10點24分11秒transcendere
Lascia ch’io pianga, an aria in Handel's Rinaldo
ltalian libretto dressing in tension building short figurations
2006年10月19日 上午11點50分12秒enough messing around
guess i left my brain somewhere in america
as i've been in a state of "are-u-outta-ur-mind" lately
gotta get back my petty brain soon
when u say u r "being spontaneous" or "following the way my heart directs"
let's say u do sth out of genuine spontaneity, without any pretense of benevolence
that does not gurantee what u do is what u should do
we forgot that thing called subconsciousness that sometimes governs our action
whenever our consciousness steps aside
u may get frustrated when what people do is not quite ur way
or some kind of people are just not ur cup of tea
ur upset becoz ur presumption that people will act a certain way fails
presumption - exactly the thing i hate most out of all human action
remember winston has said
we should watch our thoughts for they become what we speak
our speech in turn becomes our action
our action then develops into our habit
if u feel frustration when people fail to do ur bidding
in a relation, u feel defeated when that other person does not follow ur way of thinking
u may have let too much presumption creep in
to allow room for the dangerous mistake of manipulation to grow
all along i've been looking for verification that says what i want to be true is true
everything i do i want it to follow my plan
like asking a question with the answer in mind
forgot that it's not about working on a project
when, according to prof. ko, u should begin with the end in mind
it's not in the context where everything's about setting objectives and achieving goals
don't ever assume an end when the next thing u encounter could spring from millions of possibilities
found this CD at the bottom of a pile of CDs
it must have laid there for ages
probably since 1 week or 2 after i bought it
anyway, it's this song with a long long name again
well it happened a few yrs ago
i waited for u everyday did u know
i'm scared to call u
anyway u didn't know
... we met in a rainy day
i remember how u dressed that day
i forgot what i wanted to say when i saw your face
it's just like it happened ytd but now u
fall away
where're u now? why can't u be urself just like ytd
did u ever believe me when i said
i dun mean to be free if u could only
could only stay with me
i dun need to be free
if u could stay with me
2006年10月5日 上午10點42分08秒ISFP
these days people really are obsessed with codes
after today's MBTI test, found out i am an ISFP
wtf, ^^? no idea what MBTI stands for.. some trademarked widget probably
anyway ISFP.. that's me.. may represent an "Introverted, Sensuous Feeling Perceiver"
quite an interesting test
2006年10月3日 下午5點21分21秒de facto
guess it's just in my veins to strive to be fancy
as long as it looks good, not to you or him, or her
but to myself
argh..
aftermath of the 3-month liberty, now i'm in huge debt to Mrs Lam. gotta cut down my expenses... might as well be 'abstinent'... 14 months are the least it'll take to pay back that sum. well by that time hopefully, i mean really HOPEfully... i m gonna earn more that i do now.
o gee. painful reality...