2006年6月29日 下午5點33分05秒a month

happy bday minami.. can do anything la now that u are 21 XD

been here for almost a month. 1/3 of my american summer is gone. oh time really flies.

i'm still not uploading any more photoes atm. wireless in the girls' dorm is too reliable lately and maybe i just dun have much interesting pics to let u guys see =P

yesterday first time work with Maria. look like i screwed up when i told her about the skit Michael wrote. the immediate response was... oh my, i should have known. man why can i be so stupid!

monday went to Jess's room. she showed me a whole stack of Christian CDs, some look just like rock CD, but anyway she has a lot of them. and i never listen to any Christian songs besides hymns, yes, just hymns, never anything reli "down to earth". and on tuesday at the coffee house, got one from a bingo game. thanks CCC. and thanks God. XD

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wisdom in the Bible is really incredible..
So the king of Israel went to his house sullen and displeased (1 Kings 20:43)

the key words are "sullen and displeased", instead of repentant. He had the sorrow of being a sinner and knowing the consequences of sin, without having the sorrow for the sin itself.

2006年6月27日 上午7點27分27秒Thank You

day off

woke up late. finally plugged up some courage to read. Matthew and John this time.

date with Jessica. had ice cream @ icp. met Maria. my fav maple.

went swinging but the sun was too hot. stayed in a/c places rest of the time.

fudge depot. choco is in the air. 3 girls got together. so much to talk about.

wal-mart. brought home norah jones. her songs remind me of yanyan : )

gone with 7, back with 6. teodora was left behind. felt strange that this should happen.

"More Than a Summer Survivor" 好正

個時間好奇怪. 明明係 GMT -7.. 1:30am 變左  4:30am...? 錯晒.

2006年6月23日 上午6點24分55秒pissed

guess i get really irksome when not in a mood
once again things are not going the way i want
questioned by a person who believes in himself and himself only about my faith in God
incredibly sucks when i fell short of words to demostrate my faith
felt like a person who practises severe corporal mortification (much exaggerated of coz =P)
that surge to confess and punish myself
it is not "all right" for a believer to be indifferent after all, is it?
my Christian life is at its trough obviously... and that sucks
so while hoping to be unaffected, i was thoroughly pissed about myself

stand strong

another thing got me utterly bewildered
i m thoroughly, utterly aware of my own faults and follies
why the heck should you take the trouble to bother yourself to keep reminding me?
i don't need insincere compliments
but neither do i need to feel myself beneath any body of my equal
indeed i may be an authentic dumb ass
if so, simply say stfu
i'll just piss off

2006年6月21日 下午7點49分42秒OFF work OFF life

2nd day off in 3 days. 本來想去游水, 但今朝沖左個冇熱水既涼之後, 加上成朝都得60幾度, 好凍, 都係唔游.

yesterday night NBA Finals Gm 6. Heat is champs this year. their first and shaq's 4th. good for him. but we have 1 less regular evening activity now that the post season's over.

不知不覺離開HK 19日, 打過返屋企兩次, 發現自己冇乜 homesick.
like ran away from own life, tis my hiding place.
the friendly people, the nice environment, the fresh air, the lack of arguments accompanying each evening, the freedom of living all alone. much of an idyll; too much of it to sustain.

like everything's lame. and that's just a perfect depiction of myself. and this is exactly what oughta be got rid of.

i need an agitation. wanna go wild. be crazy. for once.

"restrain is the mark of good manner" darn it

2006年6月18日 上午4點44分16秒Chuck Chuck Chuck

got first pay check yesterday. accomodation and meals deducted, only $60 left. after all that's only for the first fortnight, worked 3 days.
got sacked after 5 days in housekeeping. so now landed in Chuckwagon buffet, waitress/cashier.有新 uniform, 唔使著 housekeeping 件super oversize.
anyway, 3rd day in Chuck, so much's been going on.
第一日 manager Shauna 教d 野點做, 一黎就用cashier. quarter, dime, nickel and penny, 全部圓形差唔多大既. 計左tax 又要找埋d 仙, omg. 12:30 - 8:30pm plus skip 左dinner break. Yeah 8 個鐘!
尋日今日聽日都返 6:45am - 2pm, 好早. 今日完全冇態, 仲要 super busy. 未開門已經有人黎食breakfast, 之後又有班scouts 黎. 成朝不停企cashier, good morning, how are you today, $18.28 for 2, ... , 不停 stop myself from yawning. d waffle and omelette o係正隔離, 好香, 冇得食. 聽左好多電話, "Chuckwagon. This is Vivian". 唔知頭唔知路扮晒野. Lunch 繼續好多人好多人, 其中有兩個奸仔, 企到第2 個shift人黎終於離開cashier. 唔放lunch break 早走半個鐘. 3日做錯好多野, 成個白痴仔.

點解 rolls 係麵包?? bread or bun 唔得既!?

尋晚Bonfire - Campus Crusade sponsored 營火會. 山上面d星多到unbelievable. 火堆旁邊 stargazing, 十分型. 仲有BBQ - hotdog and smore (roast marshmallow in cracker sandwich with chocolate), 咁食marshmallow, 好American.

how can u break ice between people? need some heat maybe? some thing extraordinary awaits, i believe - or maybe i do not.