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2006年5月12日 下午12點19分39秒dream
blow air out from a stuffy nose
squeeze shit out of the rectum during constipation
stretch and reach high for something above
first jump... miss
second jump... more power, more stretch... miss narrowly
third jump... full power, full stretch...
tired up, as if every jump less powerful, every stretch not as long
but the thing is right above...
so there's more jump, more try... still more misses
every stretch catches air... despair
will you keep jumping and trying, hoping one stretch will make to the top
stay and regain momentum, restore full power and give everything for one go
or take it as it is that you never can reach the top?
***
it's probably becoz of the cold front the came late last week
gave me a running and stuffy nose together with a dream
so it's a physical representation
as i was indeed trying to breathe thru stuffy nose 
??
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3/6 Sat Dep 1315 OZ 722 HK to Seoul
1/9 Fri Arr 1145 OZ 721 Seoul to HK
買 Chicago Bulls 好定 Minneapolis Lakers 好呢 ?
2006年5月6日 下午4點20分13秒wallop
learned some English grammar with a girl
1.5 hour are becoming longer nowadays
should be sorry for myself
i dun understand
if someone knows 1+ 2 = 3
what makes him doesn't know 10 + 20 = 30?
10 hours from now, Lakers-Suns series Game 7,
have faith in kobe and phil but dunno how to predict about the result
Pre-departure Orientation. still no idea about where am gonna depart to
or even there be a departure.
2 incident in 2 evenings
made feel stupid and pissed
enormously disturbed and annoyed
ppl here like yelling and snarling
to show they're pissed
but the yelling and snarling piss me
as i dun yell and snarl
noice swallowed and awkward silence stirred
if situation should not allow yelling and snarling
ppl may simply be silent
so someone treated me as if i didn't exist
i take that to be that someone is pissed
2006年5月5日 下午4點14分56秒傾計
噚晚同 Y 傾左大半個鐘電話
講人講是非講心情 唔講讀書唔講國家大事
以前係習慣 而家係奢侈 (定係無聊?)
如果可以有一次 十分鐘都可以
比我盡情講想講既野
就好lu
2006年5月3日 下午6點01分17秒I AM A LAKERS FAN
many say all lakers fan are bandwagon fans
because the lakers has always been (and will very soon be)
associated with winning and championships
so every person claiming to be a lakers fan, automatically,
is said to be attracted solely because of the team's glamorus history
i believe there are really that kind of fans out there
particularly those "started" loving the Lakers
only after their back-to-back champs in 01-02
but i don't think it's the time when a fan start to love the team that matters
last season tells all the story
remember a guy called Flea (from the band red hot chilli pepper),
a true lakers fan, has said,
"it has made me so happy to see this team this year
there were times where i have been enormously frustrated and
disappointed but i never lost faith
and i see them learning to be a team
it means a lot to me
when i see kwame brown get 15 points and 15 boards the other night
it means a lot to me
when i see kobe bryant regain his rightful unarguable place as the
best player in the nba
it means a lot to me
when i see him get his teamates involved more as they learn the offense
it means a lot to me
when i see lamar really start to find his place lately and score
back to back triple doubles
it means a lot to me"
it's not about trophies and records and rings the team's got
all that matters come down to one simple question
how deep is your love?
2006年5月3日 下午5點00分02秒Helen Keller
a name heard many times
still an infant, an illness left her deaf and blind
she's also a miracle
she could learn like an healthy person, write books,
do great stuff and influence a lot of people
stumbled across her autobio "The Story of My Life" in CP today
"(because of the illness) I live a life that is dark and silent.. "
i was standing in front of the shelves
overplayed pop songs in midi format kept playing until no one could hear them
what's it like - dark and silent - ?
as a healthy person perhaps i will never understand how it is like
now we're hearing and seeing a lot every moment
there's so much to hear and see that you don't want to miss anything
so you hear more and see more until there's not a moment
your ears shut and your eyes close - silent and dark
are you losing anything because you don't hear and see enough?
maybe you lose when you hear and see more than it's enough