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vivyzçš„ä¸»é http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz Wed, 23 Dec 2009 19:46 EST Wed, 23 Dec 2009 19:46 EST Zorpia.com ç¹žæ¨‘ http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1614021 haunted by a song lately the melody is stepwise, flowing, not of a straightforward tonality interesting, not so lively as to be danceable but giving a feeling of a swing sounds like one of those songs in the 8:30 drama "pearl of orient" kind of a 60s 70s style i can even put mandarin lyrics at some point, just 1 or 2 words though imaginary? or just a picked-up from somewhere? Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1614021 Thu, 16 Nov 2006 08:06 EST å¯æ„› http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1612445 èªªè©± æœ‰æ™‚å€™æœƒå¾ˆä¸åŒ è²èª¿ éŸ³é«˜ èªžå¥é•·çŸ èº«é«”èªžè¨€ ç‰ç‰ è·Ÿå°å©åï¼ˆä¹–é‚£ç¨®ï¼‰èªªè©± äººéƒ½æœƒè®Šæ¸©æŸ”ä¸€é»ž ç¬‘å®¹å¤šä¸€é»ž ç”šè‡³åƒå°å©ä¸€èˆ¬è®Šå¯æ„›äº† æœ‰æ™‚å€™ è·Ÿå®¶äººæœ‹å‹èªªè©± æˆ‘å€‘ç”¨ç›¡æ–¹æ³•çµ¦å°æ–¹ä¸€å€‹ ã€Œthe conversation is not desiredã€çš„å°è±¡ ç‚ºä»€éº¼å‘¢ï¼Ÿ æˆ‘å€‘éƒ½èªªã€Œæ‰®å¯æ„›ã€ å¯æ„›åŽŸä¾†è¦æ‰®çš„ å› ç‚ºä¸å†æ˜¯å°å©çš„äººä¸å†å¯æ„› æ‰€ä»¥è¦å‡ºåŠ›çš„æ‰®æ‰è¡Œ è¦å¯æ„› i.e. lovable å°±è¦å…ˆä»˜å‡º thought about why people engage in love affairs after being asked the same question of coz anyone with a bit of decency will say it's becoz the 2 people "love each other" oh well.. but (earthly) love is about more of a state than a cause of an action so what could be such cause, or explanation, for engaging in a relationship? for fun and enjoyment / for feeling good / for satisfying needs / for dialogues of love / for the consequence of some "heat-of-the-moment" decision my intention I am conscious of only i'm not doing enough to follow with it Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1612445 Sun, 12 Nov 2006 12:15 EST popinjay http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1611235 ã€Œä½ æ—¢å°ä»–æ•žé–‹å¿ƒæ‰‰ï¼Œä¾¿ä¸è©²åˆä¸Šä½ çš„å˜´å·´ã€‚ ã€ â”€â”€ ç‹„æ›´æ–¯ Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1611235 Thu, 09 Nov 2006 13:51 EST transcendere http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1605390 Lascia châ€™io pianga, an aria in Handel's Rinaldo ltalian libretto dressing in tension building short figurations Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1605390 Sat, 28 Oct 2006 05:24 EST enough messing around http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1601935 guess i left my brain somewhere in america as i've been in a state of "are-u-outta-ur-mind" lately gotta get back my petty brain soon when u say u r "being spontaneous" or "following the way my heart directs" let's say u do sth out of genuine spontaneity, without any pretense of benevolence that does not gurantee what u do is what u should do we forgot that thing called subconsciousness that sometimes governs our action whenever our consciousness steps aside u may get frustrated when what people do is not quite ur way or some kind of people are just not ur cup of tea ur upset becoz ur presumption that people will act a certain way fails presumption - exactly the thing i hate most out of all human action remember winston has said we should watch our thoughts for they become what we speak our speech in turn becomes our action our action then develops into our habit if u feel frustration when people fail to do ur bidding in a relation, u feel defeated when that other person does not follow ur way of thinking u may have let too much presumption creep in to allow room for the dangerous mistake of manipulation to grow all along i've been looking for verification that says what i want to be true is true everything i do i want it to follow my plan like asking a question with the answer in mind forgot that it's not about working on a project when, according to prof. ko, u should begin with the end in mind it's not in the context where everything's about setting objectives and achieving goals don't ever assume an end when the next thing u encounter could spring from millions of possibilities found this CD at the bottom of a pile of CDs it must have laid there for ages probably since 1 week or 2 after i bought it anyway, it's this song with a long long name again well it happened a few yrs ago i waited for u everyday did u know i'm scared to call u anyway u didn't know ... we met in a rainy day i remember how u dressed that day i forgot what i wanted to say when i saw your face it's just like it happened ytd but now u fall away where're u now? why can't u be urself just like ytd did u ever believe me when i said i dun mean to be free if u could only could only stay with me i dun need to be free if u could stay with me Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1601935 Thu, 19 Oct 2006 06:50 EST ISFP http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1596958 these days people really are obsessed with codes after today's MBTI test, found out i am an ISFP wtf, ^^? no idea what MBTI stands for.. some trademarked widget probably anyway ISFP.. that's me.. may represent an "Introverted, Sensuous Feeling Perceiver" quite an interesting test Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1596958 Thu, 05 Oct 2006 05:42 EST de facto http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1596193 guess it's just in my veins to strive to be fancy as long as it looks good, not to you or him, or her but to myself argh.. aftermath of the 3-month liberty, now i'm in huge debt to Mrs Lam. gotta cut down my expenses... might as well be 'abstinent'... 14 months are the least it'll take to pay back that sum. well by that time hopefully, i mean really HOPEfully... i m gonna earn more that i do now. o gee. painful reality... Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1596193 Tue, 03 Oct 2006 12:21 EST Driving us to say what we are thinking http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1594031 Delighted to find "the poem on the bridge" by John Ashbery Here it goes... And now I cannot remember How I would have had it. It is not a conduit (confluence?) But a place. The place, of movement and an order. The place of old order. But the tail end of the movement is new, Driving us to say what we are thinking. It is so much like a beach after all Where you stand and think of going no further. And it is good when you get to no further. It is like a reason that picks you up And places you where you always wanted To be. This far. It is fair to be crossing, to have crossed. Then there is no promise in the other. Here it is. Steel and air, a mottled presence, Small panacea and lucky for us. And then it got very cool. heard that Ashbery was commissioned to compose this poem specially for the bridge between Walker Art Center and Loring Park lovely memory in minneapolis for the first time there is no remorse when i trust feelings more than thinking unable to rationalize all these feelings sometimes euphoric sometimes miserable all the same it fills me with the fuel to go to whatever ends i can feel that they're not just close but connected by a bond stronger than steel i know that we are bound by solidarity we are one launching towards the future and change where there lies the unspeakable because i fear it being real for this moment and not the next the exact same fear even euphoria seems a fright practically in a dilemma the questions are how am i gonna take it if one day i can no longer be the beloved how am i gonna change a feeling or thought so profound the determination to be one to forfeit being myself but part of us all i want is to be able to the lover and be with you forever Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1594031 Mon, 25 Sep 2006 20:42 EST let's go change the world!! http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1593108 what i thought i overheard in a huma001 (intro to languages) class:     "Human language has the attribute of productivity... infinite number of sentences is possible and so is the possible number of messages they convey." so basically, whatever ideas we have we are supposed to be able to find words adequate enough to convey such ideas. of coz sufficient capability of the language is assumed. oh then i guess i can safely assume i m very much deficient in terms of language command becoz i find myself quite speechless when it comes to expressing a certain thing lately.. like all the words i know are so far inadequate and insufficient. my guess is.. when people fall short of words to describe, they invent symbolism, or its sort. do u read only things that relate to yourself, or things that you can identify with? or do u cruise in the world whoever out there has created? do u find it difficult to understand what people write or do the words they write find it difficult to communicate with you? oh there are symbols to interpret, codes to be decoded how am i supposed to understand all that? but underlying symbols and codes and the alphabets there are thoughts and their creator who wishes to talk to somebody let the symbols bridge the gap between people or make them a tool to disparage and intensify our difference could be your choice Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1593108 Sat, 23 Sep 2006 09:22 EST Voi che sapete http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1592074 Voi che sapete｜You who know Che cosa Ã¨ amor｜what love is, |: Donne vedete｜ladies, see S'io l'ho nel cor｜if I have it in my heart. Quello ch'io provo｜What I experience Vi ri diro｜I shall explain: E per me nuovo｜it is new for me, Capir nol so｜I don't understand it. Sento un affetto｜I feel an emotion. Pien di desir｜full of desire Ch'ora Ã¨ diletto｜that is now pleasure, Ch'ora Ã¨ matir｜now torment. Gelo e poi sento｜I freeze, then I feel L'alma avvampar｜my soul catch fire, E in un momento｜and in a moment Torno a gelar｜I turn to ice. Ricerco un bene｜I seek a happiness Fuori di me｜outside myself, Non sochi il tiene｜I don't know who has it, Non so cos'Ã¨｜I don't know what it is. Sospiro e gemo senza voler｜I sigh and groan without meaning to, Palpito e tremo senza saper｜I shudder and tremble without knowing it, Non trovo pace notte nÃ¨ di｜pace I find no peace by night or day: Ma pur mi piace languir cosi｜but yet I like to languish like this. Voi che sapete｜You who know Che cosa Ã¨ amor｜what love is, |: Donne vedete｜ladies, see S'io l'ho nel cor｜if I have it in my heart. Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1592074 Thu, 21 Sep 2006 02:52 EST why aren't we talking to each other anymore? http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1588889 questions come up, you find an answer as long as you can find answers to most of your questions and not let them overwhelm your capacity to hold question marks you are good; or you're gonna be, otherwise, positively frustrated since when have I been so cautious to choose my words, even scared to speak my mind? I want to say it hurts when times after times conversations turn out so discouraging maybe I have not tried hard enough when I could've done better right, I just could've been a nicer person and never mind what reward I'm gonna get when I have not even given any effort come on maybe you just don't mean so much to deserve this or anything, whatever it is maybe all the answers are right in front only they're ignored for the sake of self deception Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1588889 Tue, 12 Sep 2006 13:09 EST old cake http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1585852 而家做左半個New Hall 人, thanks to SHO. 好在今個sem 最早11 點堂jek. 仲有一生人第一個dayoff, 真令人振奮!! 今日同成班CENG yr 1 一齊上Organic Chem... oh i m a piece of old cake Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1585852 Tue, 05 Sep 2006 11:22 EST twice as much http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1585109 always am a slow person think slow, speak slow, walk slow, eat slow, ... becoz my brain has a capacity the size of a pea and multitasking is just not my thing becoz i can't afford to lose a single more brain cell without a worthy cause whatev.... something interesting's going on now that someone's in the progress of "becoming part of my life" whatever i do or say, the thinking beforehand becomes twice as much becoz there's one more person's feeling to care for haa.. never thought i could be that considerate but that's not true sometimes wished i had not done or said certain things becoz they may hurt or they may render me even less agreeable all i need is someone to pat me on the shoulder and say "it's gonna be fine. dun worry. it's all right" tell me what i've done wrong and say "you're forgiven. it's all right to make mistake but never do that again" after all i m a stupid naughty little piece of shxx who needs to be rebuked thanks for the one who love this person Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1585109 Sun, 03 Sep 2006 15:18 EST Love Conquers All http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1584301 finally back at home no idea what the time of day it is familar voices speaking an indifferent language same old, same old she is a girl who suffered a tragic past he for the first time loves somebody after all these playful years she knows he is the right guy for her but she can never truely have trust in him as she trusts nobody not even herself separated in 2 continents what she asked of him is just too much it's not gonna work just give it up or Love Conquers All it's how much you are willing to give or sacrifice that matters there can never be a problem unsolvable as far as it's still a problem and a matter between me and you as far as somebody still cares but if the time comes when enough is enough when one of us gets sick of the matter there will be no problem needs to be solved that's when you know you did love that person but... but there's a but you'll know it's over q: when do you know enough is enough? a: never Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1584301 Fri, 01 Sep 2006 16:39 EST in a state of turmoil http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1578391 24 - switchfoot Twenty four oceans Twenty four skies Twenty four failures Twenty four tries Twenty four finds me In twenty-fourth place Twenty four drop outs At the end of the day Life is not what I thought it was twenty four hours ago Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You And I'm not who I thought I was twenty four hours ago Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You Twenty four reasons to admit that I'm wrong With all my excuses still twenty four strong And You're raising these twenty four voices With twenty four hearts With all of my symphonies In twenty four parts But I want to be one today Centered and true I want to see miracles, see the world change Wrestled the angel, for more than a name For more than a feeling For more than a cause <hr /> summer's almost over not eactly sad or happy about concluding the whole medora experience at this moment 2.5 months are long enough to make me grown used to this tiny town but not long enough to make me grown sick of it and perhaps just about time to realise how some people are actually like so it's kind of a good thing to see undesirable people to leave but not at all great to have something that became part of your life removed maybe i m thinking of too much thereafter but like the saying goes, "nothing is certain but death and taxes" just dun have the guts to do as i want without worrying what's next Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/vivyz/journal/1578391 Sun, 20 Aug 2006 04:00 EST