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2004年12月22日 下午7點21分00秒NOTICE Mary's xanga updates will be...
NOTICE
Mary's xanga updates will be temporarily suspended due to the overwhelming essay assignments. In the mean time please feel free to leave any comment, Christmas' blessings or encouragement for my essay writings (better still messages of love). Merry Christmas and sorry for any inconvenience caused.
2004年12月17日 下午11點09分00秒[IMAGE] Currently Watching Jules and Jim By...
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2004年12月15日 下午2點02分00秒Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic...
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2004年12月14日 下午4點00分00秒Thinking plaintively about David's essay......
Thinking plaintively about David's essay... cannot suffer another blow... 
Called Mother this afternoon, hoping to apologize for my bad temper the other day, instead a strange voice answered the phone - it was Gh, already back from her trip with GhV in Mainland China, now staying at our place Grandpa was there too, just arrived from US. The last time when our place was crowded with relatives was during Grandpa's 80th Birthday when he and Grandma (my forever... ) were still in Hong Kong, I was only 10 then Time flies, I am 22 now... And it was around this time last year when Grandma left... I could not even make it to her funeral...
Talked to Mother, Wan Hang (back from Eugene), Grandpa and Gh, found myself incapable of handling the floods of praise and caring from the relatives 
I wish I had not been separated with Grandpa for such a long time, or else I would be able to listen and talk to him with more ease than I do now... As I do not think (except f and f) any of the Grandchildren could and would communicate with him (being unable to speak Chinese)...
I am thinking too much now - I should not be thinking about anything except for tomorrow's essay consultation... God I am really worried...
2004年12月14日 上午10點25分00秒Today I experienced both Hell and Heaven...
Today I experienced both Hell and Heaven within one day - no, 6 hours in fact...
I went to see Jerry in the morning, and the meeting was disastrous... cannot even bear to think about it I could understand clearly his underlying meanings... The thought that I disappointed Jerry was so unbearable I almost wanted to seek my end right then... just like Lucrece who killed herself for fear of shaming her husband and family, I would myself to release my advisor from his responsibility... I do not want to be only a responsibility, still less a jeopardy... I wish to be a promising student... There has not been a time when I have not thought so, and yet my sincerity was being doubted... It was a deadly blow... and my doom...
Finally I managed to drag my lifeless body back to hall, because he would have me reconsider everything and go back to him after 5pm with a decision. I pined in thought as I browsed through the Internet sources, feeling like a guilty before the death sentence, trying desperately to redeem herself. And then something came to me, an idea long in my mind but never was paid attention, or at least very slant... If that would do, that would save me from taking Jerry's proposal which would require a new research and laying waste my previous labour; in addition to my ready knowledge on the subject, would be wonderful indeed. But I was not sure of its plausibility, either because I thought it was still vague (now I know it is a very negative term for Jerry - every bad idea is associated to it actually... ), or that I thought too much had been written on it that it did not open any new possibility.
But the time came and I must bring an answer to him. So I walked back to his office again, deep in thought all along... To be or not to be? That's the question... I waited outside until I saw Jerry was not occupied by anyone then I knocked his door. He was still pleasant but I felt I could not believe in that anymore... When I pronounced I wanted to work on mirrors in art instead of his proposal of "The Rape of Lucrece", there was a moment's suspension which was so terrifying that my heart frozed, until Jerry exclaimed in the next moment, "That's a good topic!" OH MY GOD... I AM SAVED... And the next second he had already picked out a book from his shelves and suggested me to read it, and then another second he was searching in Googles for the other possible references for me... He said a lot... almost too much for a 4000-word essay... But my confidence came back because I felt I had picked a very potential topic... I was so happy I felt like dancing on my way back hall - like when Eliza Doolittle (Audrey Hepburn) first succeeded to speak correctly in "My Fair Lady": "I would have danced all night... I would have danced all night... And still would beg for more..."
By the end he asked about my plans for X'mas and we wished each other Merry X'mas I will not be able to meet him again until at least January... but still it will be by appointment because he is not leading any course anymore... Now I know my approach to the teaching staff... what Olivia said in our first meeting is true somehow...
Anyway I cannot let pride override me - this lesson would teach me how to deal with David's essay... Just one more day to think about it... Hardwork does not mean everything but lacking it does.