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2004年4月16日 下午7點02分00秒^_^ how is everyone tonight ? i feel so cold...
^_^ how is everyone tonight ? i feel so cold tonight since it is quite windy outside. i think i have gained some weight again. * *. that's too bad for me.. i went to school today and saw a girl walking closely with a guy . they seemed to be good friends. what caught my attention was her thin legs. .even when i am 99 lbs, i still have legs that are not thin * *. i guess i can't do much about it. i have short and fat legs **. i miss seeing cute guys too. for this entire semester, i have been hiding on the second floor of the library studying for exams or doing assignments.. it's so quiet upstairs too. usually the people studying or reading upstairs are middle aged **. the young and cute ones are either all downstairs studying with their friends or they are at the cafes eating lunch . i was trying so hard to retain some of the materials in my mind after mentally repeating it about 15 times.. sometimes, i remembered them and other times, i couldn't remember anything. . i think my memory is getting bad these days. .i am scared.. i still have the same problems that i have been struggling with for the past seven years.. each time, i would think, maybe this year will be different, and yet it is the same at the very end. and this year, something new and bad happened .. i caught a stomach flu so i stayed home for two straight days ..it just happened this week. i vomited over ten times and i had fever for one and a half day. . it was bad.. i felt so afflicted by the symptoms of it..it was a scary experience. . i think i will eat some grapes * *miss them so much . . i'll end here for now. .bai bai **
2004年4月11日 上午10點17分00秒[IMAGE] *_* /"") how is everyone today? i...
*_* /"") how is everyone today? i have just arrived home not too long ago as i waited for the bus for a long time. . it was quite windy outside too and i still felt cold even though i wore a jacket.. * *. . it's finally school again tomorrow.. i have to admit that i have been quite lazy this weekend. . i should catch up on studying tomorrow at the library. . i almost forgot to say "happy easter's day " to everyone * *. . i didn't do anything special today. it was a normal Sunday for me. .i think i saw a cute japanese guy though at the store. . but he was concentrating on something else as i was passing by, taking a glance at him.. but i know i am not attractive so that explains everything . .i think i have overeaten today on ice cream cones and some fat free crackers.. it contains no fat but i can still gain weight so easily from eating one fourth of the entire box. .i think something is wrong with my body too. . i can't seem to fulfill my hunger everyday. . maybe it deals with my hypothalamus or something . i can't lose weight these days either. even when i eat so little. . i can't understand why. . i am quite disappointed .. last semester, my weight has never reached over 105 lbs and now i am over it.. i think i lose lose back some weight. . i am not eating foods that i am supposed to eat either . . i want to be 93 lbs or under. . when is that ever possible. . .. i think i will end here for now.. hope every have a nice and sweet dream .. * *. . bai bai* *