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2004年3月19日 上午12點06分00秒[IMAGE](*_*) How is everyone tonight? i...
(*_*) How is everyone tonight? i have just arrived home from the mall as i was looking for nice looking clothing for the upcoming interviews on next week monday and tuesday. . actually i am quite unprepared as i am not sure what both interviewers will ask me.. i'm not confident if i can answer them appropriately. . it's for the internship next semester. i am not looking forward to next semester as there will be a lot of stress from school. . internship and also a intership discussion and writing class and a seminar which will require a lot of writing. . i am so bad at writing and anything pertaining to research .. i'm feel ashamed as i know i was born and raised in the US.. i also felt quite dumb today as i was practicing typing for about an hour and i still made a lot of typos.. i seem to have a hard time typing at a fast pace and correctly. . i never once felt successful in life.. people always think that quiet students are smart .. it's as if the idea is fixed in their mind since they were young. .i would agree to some extent that they are , but i'm an exception. . my stomach was hurting so terribly this morning when i left home for school and i didn't think i was able to walk all the way to the bustop to take the bus and get off after 5 stops to transfer to another bus to arrive at the university. . i felt miserable and sad. . watching others who are healthy and who seem to be happy, walking to the bustop in front of me.. rushing to work. . i prayed to God for helping me take away this unpleasant and intolerable feeling. . such acute pain in the entire abdomen area and it did work somehow.. i felt better after 5 to 10 minutes.. and then later on throughout the day, the feeling subsided. . thank God .. i will always have faith in you. .actually i pray to all of the divine beings such as the Angels too and even the Moon Goddess.. i believe they exist.. and that if i have committed enough good deeds, my three wishes will come true and i can be a happy individual .. being able to enjoy life and not always having sad thoughts overflow in my mind. i think i will end my thoughts here for now.. hope everyone have a nice and sweet dream.. ** . nite nite.