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2005年6月21日 上午6點44分00秒
*-* This is my last time coming onto xanga.com. I finally realized that expressing my thoughts and feelings into words doesn't help much.. It is a definetely a healthy outlet though , for those who have anger management problems * *.. you can always feel free to let out your anger here .. it's the best way to approach the problem .
If any guys that I have been secretly admiring that I mentioned in the entries, I just want to tell them that they will always be special to me. I mean I don't think they will do something as foolish as typing my name on a search engine and clicking on one of the links to reach here.. I don't know. maybe one of them had..
And one final word, thanks to those who have been leaving comments on my entries.. it's too bad , that the places we live are so distant.. and we can never become real friends. and even though I always mention how sad I am and how I live in a different world from many of the more lucky ones on xanga, I know there must be a few who are having a hard time living life too. ..that in the end, our worlds are not so different..
I should end here.
bai bai and take care everyone.
~Selena .
2005年6月6日 下午10點36分00秒
6-6-05
Today was a memorable day for me because it's the last time that I get to see that japanese guy whom I have been secretly admiring for the past 6 weeks.For the entire afternoon, I was thinking of him so badly.. but then later on, I was able to concentrate on something else.. because his image in my mind wasn't vivid anymore.. it was gradually disappearing... I know I can only secretly admire them and look , but never to have any of them.
And then something even worse happened. I have been trying a chinese herbal supplement which is supposed to ...
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2005年5月10日 上午6點17分00秒
5-9-05
I didn't feel well today as usual. My stomach felt bad. I think I have overeaten on bananas.that was dumb of me. I didn't do much except 2 crossword puzzles for one of my classses and also practiced working out some math problems on mathcue program.
I also saw a guy today who also happened to be one that I was secretly admiring. I can't believe that he saw me looking at him across the street. I hope he doesn't like me (not that I think I am pretty and healthy at all but it doesn't seem to matter to some of them ) since I can't and don't deserve ...
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2005年5月6日 下午10點12分00秒
5-6-05
Today I didn't do much. I only reviewed for an upcoming math exam and also did some reading for my medical class.. but it was troubling, since I still have a hard time understanding health insurance.. It can get quite complicating when it comes to coverage and benefits.. and basically how it works.. I always thought it was something easy to grasp.. it was easy all these years being a patient.. all I had to do was to make an appointment, go to see the dcotor and then make a copayment afterwards.. But I guess it is much harder for the office ...
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2005年4月23日 上午8點53分00秒
4-23-05 (Saturday)
It's finally time to add a new entry again as I haven't done so for many months. These days, I am only busy with school, mainly studying.. but many times, I can't concentrate on my tasks due to my health conditions and sadness..I can't find much meaning and hope in doing anything.. even when I have aced an exam or an assignment, those things don't mean anything .. School has started about 3 months ago.. I didn't ever think of going back to school but it's hard to find a job without a degree these days so I found it necessary to do ...
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