2005年6月21日 上午6點44分00秒

*-*  This is my last time coming onto xanga.com.  I finally realized that expressing my thoughts and feelings into words doesn't help much.. It is a definetely a healthy outlet though , for those who have anger management problems * *.. you can always feel free to let out your anger here .. it's the best way to approach the problem .

If any guys that I have been secretly admiring that I mentioned in the entries, I just want to tell them that they will always be special to me.  I mean I don't think they will do something as foolish as typing my name on a search engine and clicking on one of the links to reach here.. I don't know. maybe one of them had..

And one final word, thanks to those who have been leaving comments on my entries.. it's too bad , that the places we live are so distant.. and we can never become real friends. and even though I always mention how sad I am and how I live in a different world from many of the more lucky ones on xanga, I know there must be a few who are having a hard time living life too. ..that in the end, our worlds are not so different..

I should end here.

bai bai and take care everyone.

~Selena .

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2005年6月6日 下午10點36分00秒

6-6-05

Today was a memorable day for me because it's the last time that I get to see that japanese guy whom I have been secretly admiring for the past 6 weeks.For the entire afternoon, I was thinking of him so badly.. but then later on, I was able to concentrate on something else.. because his image in my mind wasn't vivid anymore.. it was gradually disappearing... I know I can only secretly admire them and look , but never to have any of them.

And then something even worse happened. I have been trying a chinese herbal supplement which is supposed to ...

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2005年5月10日 上午6點17分00秒

5-9-05

I didn't feel well today as usual. My stomach felt bad. I think I have overeaten on bananas.that was dumb of me. I didn't do much except 2 crossword puzzles for one of my classses and also practiced working out some math problems on mathcue program.

I also saw a guy today who also happened to be one that I was secretly admiring. I can't believe that he saw me looking at him across the street. I hope he doesn't like me (not that I think I am pretty and healthy at all but it doesn't seem to matter to some of them ) since I can't and don't deserve ...

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