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2003年8月31日 下午9點38分00秒Playing : 最熟悉的砲秅H (click for lyrics)..
Playing : 最熟悉的陌生人 (click for lyrics) sang by 蕭亞軒
I had officially dated 1.5 times before and I never made friends with my exs. Reason being obvious that, I tried hard to suppress myself and cut off all contacts as i could only stand them as my lover but not friends. And as time goes by, when i finally recovered, I lack incentive to talk to them again. Plus the fact that they are both "love at first sight", you can imagine how they came suddenly and then disappeared altogether in no time. Magic. Leaving me broken hearted .. painfully spending the following years to mourn for the bygones , wondering what i have done wrong.
When i met David, I was still very lost. Tears ran out occasionally, and he would gently wipe my eyes and rock me like a baby, telling me that he would treat me very very good to compensate for all my painful memories .....how can i not love him?
<<< <<< the pic in the profile shows two of my b'day gifts *lovely* ... and it's mysterious enough to be a profile pic, isn't? hehee. I am trying to upload other exciting pics on this page ....but it seems i couldn't do it without a link to the pic...*headache*
2003年8月27日 下午3點15分00秒::thanks::: on cloud nine these days, haven't
::thanks:::
on cloud nine these days, haven't been so high for some time already!!!!!!!!!!! This is my first bday with a bf and David had given me such a WONDERFUL b'day! Really too much i want to say, too many ppl i want to thank, but dunno where to start off...amm...i am now awaiting for my last celebration activity -- beach party with the girls tomorrow !! and so... let me up load the pics later and just a quick note here to thank EVERYONE including (in random order) hunnie, meggy, meng Wai, jerome, adrienne, gigi, terence, jen chong, antony, brian, heidi, jen leung, selma, hung, erica, bruce, clement siu, winnie liu, siu lok, agnes, howan, anthony lui, small lee, jacko,ambony, james, queenie, marco, adam ..... forgive me if i have left out one or two of you.....u know smart ppl forget things too!
oh.. one more thing, i have no idea who the following 2 SMS from.... 614048188XX and 610036XX (XX in order to save privacy)!! let me know who you are!!
2003年8月24日 上午11點09分00秒i am all dressed up, waiting for...
i am all dressed up, waiting for my hunnie to pick me up for my b'day dinner..............*excited*
2003年8月23日 下午7點38分00秒::: Triple date @ wonderful + all arrows on...
::: Triple date @ wonderful + all arrows on me :::
::: Shireen + Heidi co-starring <<Hair- Murderers >> @ perm hair AGAIN the next day :::
I shall tell the stories when I feel like to do so, best upload the pic and let you see yourselves..... Very down these 2 days, although i dont have the courgage to make changes.... i can only see complaints and torture in the future... my own values were never respected/ appreciated, despite the fact that i have given in in many ways already
2003年8月21日 下午8點47分00秒:: : my first b'day presents from Brian and...
:: : my first b'day presents from Brian and Myself : ::
I was all happy when i came home tonight with my first b'day present and card in hand, but that was all ruined by my so very WONDERFUL relationship and I am now depressed... But thanks Brian, my "best personal motivator ever exist on the planet"!! thanks for treating me so well, the card is so encouraging and the present says alot about the reality (!!!). Love it! I shall keep this card with me, and if I happen to grab the key and start my car up, you must be playing a big part in it. Thanks and take care *hug*
Turning to my relationship...well.. to put things simple, I am transforming from an "angel" to a "princess" and then, now, to "somebody's gf". And my very caring bf even threatened to make me go to the long-awaiting triple-date tomorrow ALONE. Of course he will have a different story to tell ..... and most likely we are going to be very sweet again tomorrow but at this moment, I realize that I am being more and more unhappy in the relationship and to be good to myself, I have now made a painful decision. I am not going to tell you what my decision is but i can tell you (espeically YOU) that i shall recapture my emotional stability/ independence for WHATEVER costs. Love you with my broken heart.