2009年4月3日 上午9點15分31秒pArT of thE pAcK

When I was a kid I was just thinking of what to play next… we are just being called when eating time is ready and then tomorrow the same play routines or new games has to be played for that day, escaping from afternoon nap time just to be with playmates… during my school days I was portraying a naughty student, going to school wiping my tears after some early punishment from my mother as a return for my early mood swing behavior, no assignments at all, living an easy go lucky student until my high school years. Plunge down to a group of friends with a bit as having identical interest without having awareness on studies but I can say I am the most wanderers and insensitive when it comes to my academics…I blamed my parents into what I am today but my feelings is struggling not to hate them.. It just happens, I grew up negatively and sensitive towards the situation beforehand I stand. I tried to run from home, stayed on my friend and aunt’s home. I did foolishness, drawing my self to liquors. Not bad huh!?   Waking up in a situation being blinded by blank innocence that I was being able to just go with the flow and taking care of my own self was out of my mind..

 

I was thought out! I cannot bring back my childhood years nor my high school years that I deprived my self to savor it.. I am full of regrets that I messed up with my life, the one and only life I will ever have. There’s a lot of supposed to be accomplishments that have to happen but I know it’s not too late… anyway, my life has never been that bad after all, it all has an equal good and funny experience to ponder.

 

For a while I am very consistent with the role I have right now…being a wife and a mother…that entails a lot of responsibility and hardships and yet everything has bring joy and reasons for me to live more. I am taking pride of my accomplishments; along the way is all part of my colorful experience with them. .they matters most! All those tough times I had been are all part of the effort to change my life for the better because I have my ever responsible husband and our wiggly wise cutie icy to manifest living.

 

This is my life’s journey, soaking up with the experience day by day with them…sharing the joy and studying myself to think positive. And I am now learning to laugh at my self when thinking of my past and days when everything seems to go wrong.

 

I know life has gotten more complicated even the Earth…I want to be satisfied like when I was a kid and I want to savor simple things and appreciate the feeling. I think it’s the best way to navigate contentment in life.

 

 

 

2009年3月31日 下午1點06分07秒hello 2009!

Realizing and with a deep think experience for the whole year 2008 had made me feeling happy, anxious, terrified..Many emotions to consider upon experiencing a bit alarmed for all the events that I don’t expect to happen in my life and to my family. And I just wish it won’t happen again or better yet not too early, I know it’s kind of weird though, this is just how I feel.

 

    Creepy felt towards the earth. Which is obviously our home? Unpleasant incident like floods, storm, and earth shake and such-like… This year have had really come in to bottomless reality to me than before. Now I can truthfully say that this is factual, this is me, this is the world and this is my family. This is crisis, this is war, and this is devastated nature swiftly crawling unto our being. These feel-good and bad tales are constant proof that others have had similar struggles and in the end we are connected.

 

    There are times I come to look up the sky, wandering through the mountains, clouds, rivers; people in the least were my eyes could reach. Talking to myself, what happen now? Questions, resolutions, worse picture in my mind were mixing in my imaginations.

 

    Yet again, I am very thankful that in every other ways God made our life balanced. He is still there with all the patience knocking and working into us. At the end of the day we are lucky and blessed to experience life, love, sacrifices, and happiness here on earth.

 

 

    I am together with my Family freely and warmly welcoming Year 2009 embracing each other with love and good resolutions. Wishing my family and your family, more years to come, Good health, Joy and spontaneity in talents to reap supplementary knowledge.

 

No matter who… no matter where…no matter how… Hope this is the beginning of a wonderful New Year, Possibilities, Fun, Dreams, and Promises.

 

“ 2009″ Looks like a bright New Year ahead…  Happy New Year to all!