What shall I write here.. The normal stuff?
A description of myself, followed by various tests and questions I stole from some other member? A nice picture of my dog or a list containing all the bands I like? A long detailed list of my friends and loved ones, hoping I didn't forget anyone writing it?Shall I fill this space with impressive HTML tags everywhere or annoying typos I wrote on purpose cause it's cool? Shall I tell you about my hopes and fears and what I love and hate? Should I say what you will read at the bottom anyway, like my taste of music, or the fact that I'm a guy? No, I have had enough of that.. This one will be clean.
Maybe I'll tell you shortly that I like music and play guitar and keyboard, that I write alot of useless piss I like to parade around occationally, if I'm in the mood.. I could say I think it's shit, to make you say otherwise.. Pretending I say that more to enlighten you, and less to make myself sure that you don't get the wrong idea about me.. Because in my head, though I so desperately try to hide it, wearing happy colors is a bad thing. Pretending so that you won't realize that I'm actually pretty snobby to care about your opinion at all.. Then I might continue with saying that I love snowboarding, and other things you couldn't care less about..
Then, just to turn it around for the fun of it, or the hell of it, or maybe so that I won't scare you away, because god forbid you think ill of me, I could say that I know loads of people and chill with friends all day long, and that I'm lucky and happy and that I know I'm liked by many people.. Maybe even that I like myself. Nah, I can't add that, it would seem too selfish. Saying I hate myself is better. And easier. I might add that to the above. More pity for me, yay. Not realizing that when you read that, you won't pity me, you'll think it's pathetic and sad, despite my golden attempt to show heroic positivity and tell you I'm fine. You can't be fooled that easily, can you
Then I could refer to the picture I probably have on the top of the page and lie, saying I find myself bloody ugly, when in reality I find my looks on those pics great, why else should I wanna show them to you? But I say I'm ugly anyway, just to make you send me messages trying to prove me wrong... God, I am so clever.
I could maybe add in some songlyrics someone else wrote because I feel they reflect what I feel, fooling myself into thinking that you actually gave a damn in the first place, that you really feel like reading the entire song to analyze what's going on in my mind, despite the fact that you probably didn't even know I existed until quite recently.
Pretend that I use this website to escape the "role" I have to play in society. Pretend that I use this way of writing my description to escape the "mask" I wear to hide from the rest of the world, when I'm really just writing this because I can't be bothered with trying to capture your interest by being funny or having strong opinions all over the place about stuff I never really knew anything about. And because I want to be different. Because I'm sick of being like you, bored with following the unwritten rules on how to do everything. Because I don't really want to take care, to give a damn about what people I'll never know think of me.. Yet I do. Aren't we all sick of it
I could try to tell you all about my views and opinions, in a feeble attempt of trying to make you see that I *can* use my head and that I *do* have the ability to discuss something serious. Yet, ironically, I'd use expressions like "lol" all the time, to keep the whole thing unserious enough. So that if you disagree, you won't get seriously angry with me.. Because God forbid you do.. I might die.
Yeah.. I could use that method.. Even though it's used by nearly everyone here. But, nah, I can't be bothered. I'm sick of those kinds of descriptions. It's true, I DO want to be different. Besides, I don't want to insult your intelligence with such a pathetic attempt on a description. It's too transparent, too easy to see trough, and I know it. So I think I'm just gonna leave it like this.
2009年9月12日 2:19marywilton63@yahoo.com
How are you? i hope you are fine, My name is Miss Mary, I am browsing today so i come acrose your profile, it seams like some thing touches me, i started having some feeling in me which i have never experience in my life before, i decided to write you, l will also like to know you the more,and l want you to send an email to my email address so l can give you my picture for you to know whom l am.
Here is my email address. (marywilton63@yahoo.com)
I believe we can move from here!
I am waiting for your mail to my email address above.
Miss Mary.
(Remeber the distance or colour does not matter but love matters alot in life)
send an email to my email address so l can give you my picture for you to know whom l am.
Here is my email address. (marywilton63@yahoo.com)