網誌
2009年11月5日 上午1點17分47秒here i m again...
i keep imagining the next time we kiss - i want that feeling up my throat again n i want that feeling of my skin bursting out n dissolving into urs; that masculinity right around me... even til now, i don't know whether i've done the right thing or not - i just know that i've been trying to keep myself away from thinking so that i don't imagine.
but every single songs i hear, every lyric that relates to love... are reminding me of u.
i miss u tragically - but at the same time i know, that we will never be the same again. i can't express my feelings becoz i've been repressing them - n i think, maybe the second i let them out, my tears are going to drop with regret.
wt's so good abt being in love? i hv no idea.... especially when all the good memories are mixed with the sense of loss - when all the reflections of laughters and tears are confused with the word 'forever' - when everything means nothing, n nothing means everything that used to be the best of things - the irony, is... horrific.
but i love u, i know i do - i just can't cope with the word 'love' for now.