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2008年1月29日 下午1點33分00秒it breaks my heart...
i used to believe that, every person has a lake of themselves; at the bottom of the lake, there is always a golden coin - which shines with its uniqueness, the brighest, purest light... if u can't see the coin, it's just becoz the water is a bit dirty... but it's there, it's always there...
after yesterday, i still believe in it.
and i cannot deny that not everybody has this same concept, same believe... n i cannot deny that it's very difficult to make everyone believe in it;
but it's not impossible.
don't protect me from the reality, i don't need protection; i m not like the princesses who live in their own world becoz i believe in making belief. n i know - thank God - that there are ppl who think the same as i do... there are fds who still think that this is a gift, not an escape, not a supervisual or naive believe that one would offer anything for... it's the faith that counts.
as a painting can be interpreted in ten thousands ways
as an accident can be reported by ten thousands views
one say, one touch, one glance at your face
can be taken also, in ten thousands ways
n i choose my own way... n if just one person believe in me, i do n will, offer, ten thousands loving lives.
justify urself -
it breaks my heart when i heard n saw; dear friends... plz, love one another.
2008年1月3日 上午5點43分16秒2008
happy new year!
recently i keep looking at the past... back then, everything seemed brighter, lighter, happier... sometimes i do argree that growing up is a hard thing; sometimes when i see that everyone around me have moved on, i could almost get lost: don't know where i belong, don't know who i can go to.... exactly, i think too much now... i don't understand y i didn't think so much b4, i used to be satisfied n happy with the current; but now i find it more n more difficult - it seems like i hv to pick a little moment, persuade myself not to pick on the negative sides b4 i believe that i m truly content.
i look back to the previous xanga post n thought: i was so happy, so light-hearted... i m not sure if i can be light-hearted n happy as be4, but i always wanted to do so, i will try my best - i know it's the past, it's the past! but i can't help my tears from falling down, i can't help my insecurity to feel that the past keep reoccuring n reoccuring...
passing memories.... i wish nothing ever changes.