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2009年11月5日 上午1點17分47秒here i m again...
i keep imagining the next time we kiss - i want that feeling up my throat again n i want that feeling of my skin bursting out n dissolving into urs; that masculinity right around me... even til now, i don't know whether i've done the right thing or not - i just know that i've been trying to keep myself away from thinking so that i don't imagine.
but every single songs i hear, every lyric that relates to love... are reminding me of u.
i miss u tragically - but at the same time i know, that we will never be the same again. i can't express my feelings becoz i've been repressing them - n i think, maybe the second i let them out, my tears are going to drop with regret.
wt's so good abt being in love? i hv no idea.... especially when all the good memories are mixed with the sense of loss - when all the reflections of laughters and tears are confused with the word 'forever' - when everything means nothing, n nothing means everything that used to be the best of things - the irony, is... horrific.
but i love u, i know i do - i just can't cope with the word 'love' for now.
2009年2月24日 上午1點38分14秒remember//
i m listening to a song which i sang to u a long time ago... at the place where we departed;
i don't know how much u remember our past-
but i know if i sing the same song this time,
even if i hv my back to u...
i won't cry again -
n neither will u...
i remember all the scattered images of our past,,, though i m not certain how long i will keep them for - they might be replaced by some other images; or they might just fade through time... but listening to this song made me rememebr the very beginning... the very first time that i had this feeling of pain.
deja vu... the 'emotional memory' - i shall keep this feeling, n use it on stage when i need it.
(at least that's all i can do with it right now...)
2009年2月22日 下午11點01分32秒Thank you for our memories.
nei yau mo num gwo, nei chung yi yat gor yan, nei hoi sum yau ho, ng hoi sum yau ho, nei dou hor yi tung kui fun hern har lei?
2008年12月17日 下午9點59分11秒because smiling is the alternative for crying...
i don't know why i said that lu... suppose it just came straight out of my head? suppose... maybe in the time i need, i hv to take my mind away from thinking? suppose i m sick and tired of feeling upset?...
if smiling is a disguise... i'll laugh!!
but i won't let myself cry in front of anyone... it's not worth it.
2008年12月5日 下午5點59分40秒one day
i've decided to give myself one day to come over; one day to break down if i want to...
and i realise that all i need is inspiration... i've received it! i found my comfort and i m fine now... i hope u are too...