2008年8月28日 下午1點15分08秒OMFG!!!

I'm so stress!!!

Help me!!!

YTTT!!!

HELP ME!!!

faint~

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2008年8月14日 上午5點27分10秒Haiz...

Seriously in need of talking to someone right now

Because things are not going well lately

I'm stucked and couldn't move on

I'm sad because I let all those setbacks put me behind

I've thought of finding him

to unload my rubbish to my rubbish bin

but several times hez making me disappointed

In order not to repeat the history

This time I kept it all to myself

I'm seriously in need of talking to someone

but I don't wanna make it like a habit to unload everything into the rubbish bin

So here I am writing this journal

Elly is dead

You will probably never see the same Elly anymore

Some words are spoken out cannot be taken back

Some wounds you inflicted eventually will cure

And all it lefts are the scares that you hurt throbbingly

Some thing that happened...you cannot denied it existence..

But I tend to deny the obvious

Everyone is doing that

I don't know how much sin I've commited

I knew they love me

God is here to love me

But I hurt them more than loving them back

Please guide me

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2008年8月10日 上午5點48分18秒Frantic or cranky?

Haiz...well, obviously the writing style here and my blog seemed different. I couldn't control it because it happened without realization. I'm implementing an experiment. I used slang alot [I admit] over my blog there but it's normal right? So, I purposely used foul words just to see still got anyone who against me or what. I really hope my intuition is wrong. Sigh.

Recently, I'm cranky. I've been acting in a way that doesn't really like me. I kept repeating "when life is gone to another extreme stage, you will start to behave abnormally just to adjust yourself". Holy that's all crap! I know that were all excuses to cover up my uneasiness. BUT! IF that really doesn't look like me, then what I'm suppose to be like? Huh? Lost again. Why am I feeling uneasy? Okay, if you said I got heart problem, maybe. I'm not quite sure about it. But I just cant figure out what. Something is obviously stirring inside my mind. Feel like going crazy already. HELP ME!!!

I'm going frantic too! Because I'm going to have another one week holiday! C'mon, I hate holidays!!! Especially you don't get to do according your plan which was always marred by parents! I HATE IT, I HATE IT, I HATE IT!!! Phew, sorry for "shouting". OMFG, what am I suppose to do in this little one week holiday? Well, I guess part time housewife it has to be. Darn, cooking, doing laundry, washing, sweeping. LIFE IS SO SO SO DRAB!!!

I want to hang out, but with who? and cash? no money T_T

Sienzzz...gaining weight againT_T

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2008年8月5日 下午3點01分29秒Sigh..

Good thing that I still maintained my zorpia site. I feel more freely to splat everything here rather than my blog there. Perhaps I knew my friend won't bother to touch this site. LoL. Okay just assuming. Sigh.

I got so many things to update about in my blog. But I just don't feel like it. The feeling is not right. Since when I have to consider alot of things before posting any entry or journal? I feel so fake la. Another thing that made me care alot is the stranger in my blog. He spammed my chatbox and saying hes my fren. Was wondering who the hell he is. Quite irritating cos hes making me very curious until I spend a whole night figuring about it. Sigh.

Today is the second day of my second sem. Finally got my timetable last night. School life wasn't as interesting as I thought. I really hope I can do well this sem. Score high this sem. I really hope. But that will mean I have to put 100% effort in it. Nevermind I've got Tania together to strike with. Friends are amazing. A complicated philosophy to understand. I feel so so so alone. But I rather be alone than having disappointment. Good thing is that I learn not to put so much hope in friends already. It's good.

Things are going well lately. I don't care what other people think as long as I feel comfortable. Who I hang out with, who I talk to, who I smile at, who I have fun with..I decide it myself according to my feelings..NOT the eyes of the other people. I don't have to "jiao dai" everything evrytime I do things right? That will be so so so troublesome. Like what Rachz told me, no need explain 100%. So, that's it.

Emo feeling is coming back I think. But luckily sik soon handed the storybook to me today. Gonna buried myself under it. LoL. Till then, bye.

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2008年8月3日 上午5點27分46秒Confused

Okay, server quite down lately.
I'm so pissed off with streamyx connection.
Suddenly can't browse any page and suddenly can't sign in msn. Sigh.
I'm confused lately.
Please tell me what to do.
I really hope I cant get rid off the uneasiness.
Since when it started to become like this? I'm not quite sure.
Semester break ends today.
Tomorrow I'm going to school.
Hope I can get my life busy again.
Wish me all the best aye~

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