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2007年7月9日 下午2點31分33秒Dilema....
Evrything that i do..i slowly realized that its al because of him..
Mb i didnt know at 1st..why wud i act like that...
but i slowly figured it out...i just want to get his attention...
But no matter how hard i try..it seems to no avail..
Why the person that owes let me care for is another guy but nt him?
Why the person owes care for me is anthr guy but nt him?
Why the person that i owes joke around and hang ard is anthr guy but nt HIM?
Why the one that owes accompany me wen im lonely is anthr person but nt HIM?
Just why...do evrytime i let myself troubled in such a mess..? Im so stupid...
Im nt a gud gal..im nt a nice person either...i wud do anything to get his attention....
That's y u can see me letting any guy to care, to joke, to play ard with me..
But evrytime...he wud just stare at me from veli far..
He wud rather go n joke with anthr gal but just nt me..
He wud ask help frm anthr gal but just nt me..
He wud rather care for other gal but just nt me..
He wud befriend wif anthr person but just nt me...
We are just like strangers...totally invisible...
Why?....why i owes make myself luk like a fool evrytime i try to get his attention?
Why...why izit so hard for him just to talk to me?
Why he owes ignore me? make me believe that im such a pest thats owes bother him?
Just why...why do i love him so much?
Im in a dilema...