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2007年5月28日 下午1點45分29秒Haiz..
wow..its omos the end of the month, MAY..
time passes realli quickly...ive jus completed my IT assignment..
and yet..now have to face Eco test..after tis test..there is Math test..oral assessment..Eco assignment..den here come Beach BAsh...all pile up like a mountain..haih..i think i mention tis before...='(
wow...so sad today..gt poor result for my oral assessment las time...
feel even more hurt when our lecturer asked" are u a debater before?" " BI former debater?"
and i answr yes..she stared at me with full of accusing eyes...OMg...
im veli sure that my english standard is dropping dramatically...yea quite true..
thats y i onli scored 18.5 out of 25 marks..aihz..tis is so disappointing...
whats wrong wif me??? after few days ahead..im gona be away to gunung gading..
haihz...suddenly feel so empty...i mean chia pau and thomas all din go..hu else i cud mingle wif? i realli dunno...plus i nd to write my oral script..so many things to do tis week...cos next week is the test...argHH...im fainting....=.="
suddenly feel so sad...bcos i lost a best fren...i nvr noe weder he ever treated me as bes fren..but i jus veli appreciated the moments we gone tru las time...eventhough its onli one year..
tok about frenz...its just so amazing...
im a veli selfish person....i admit that...FRIENDS...what do u see " betray" as?
did i betray my frens?? did i?? is this called betrayal???
suckz...life is jus so complicated....sometimes i jus rather be alone....
havin bad mood...so i go for a haircut...i noe tis sounds stupid...
but haircut owes manage to drive away all the unhappy feelings..at least it works for me..
oh yea...recently i jus created a BLOG...
so sum of my journals or everyday's happen redirected to tis blog..
pls to view it at www.maytze.blogspot.com
2007年5月16日 下午5點09分55秒erm....wadda?
thursday [17/05/07]-1.10am.
jus now went to watch movie wif frenz...
we watched spiderman 3...its a great movie..
tells abt frenships, luv...n othrs things....
whoa...leg omos cramp sat for 2 and a half hours...
i like wad pete said in the end..
he said " choices are the one hu made wad we are now..."
"....and we have the choice to choose wad is right"
haiz..din watch ghost movie again...mis d chance again...
theres onli been one time i feel like worth watching movie in cinema..
that time is watching ghost movie..n..
dunno la..@@
kinda sad thinking of the drama i watch in d aftern...
have u ever been acussed? have u ever undergo a situation where no ones trusted u??
evryone in tis world can misunderstood abt u...bt nt him...
everyone in tis world can choose to turn away frm u...bt jus nt him..
and he is the one person dat shudn't let u down...
but wad if hez like evryone else? pointing finger at u?
after for so many years, u tot u understand him..n in return u tot he will understand u well too..
haih..heart broken n pain....
2007年5月15日 上午4點59分52秒Shyt !!!!
2mr is my oral assessment...now im modifying my script...
suddenly realize that ive gt so many things to do..@@
Argh....im omos fainted.......
Shyt!! y da zorpia time in de journal guai guai de??
okay ar...now is 12.40pm, tuesday afternoon...HOT DAY!!
am i a naughty student for skipping clas?? i hope nt so...
At the moment, i nd to finish off my script and memorize it!!
Gosh..time passes reali quickly....
Does homosapien owes pretend?? pretend pretend n pretend!!
i think i mention tis issue b4....aih....suan le....no time brood over tis matter..
okay..the list of things i wana do!!
-learn swimming
-learn bicycle riding
-buy high heel shoes
-buy short pants
-buy formal coats
-do nails design n manicure
-learn how to create blog
-learn how to edit photos
-buy digital camera
-shopping!!
as a result, i nd MONEY!! sobz....
2007年5月13日 下午4點33分48秒Wow...so damn true...
Monday[14/05/07]-12.15am
It's been midnite nw....i stil cant sleep...
im doin my oral script, which makes me even more headache..haiz..
Honestly im realli nt gud in describing myself...cos im nt al 100% truly understand myself..
feel so stupid...like a failure...sad....
jus feel like posting a journal...cos i wana share something wif al of u..
its actuali sumthing i read it frm newspaper..n i feel its so damn true...
It says that its a passage quote frm Neil Gaiman...
perhaps some of u oledi noe abt tis passage..
# I HATE LOVE#
Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable.
It opens your chest and it opens ur heart and..
it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.
You build up all these defences, you build up a whole suit of armour,
so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, wanders in your stupid life...
You give dem a piece of you. They didn't ask for it.
They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you,
then ur life isn't your own anymore....
Love takes hostages. It gets inside you.
It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness,
so simple a phrase like " maybe we should just be friends"..
turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.
It hurts. Not just in imagination. Not just in the mind.
It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.
I HATE LOVE!
2007年5月12日 上午2點21分17秒huhu..weird..
tis is weird...did i say i like pink before??
yea...even though i like pink..but pink doesn't really suit me...
i cant wear pink clothes..cos they say so..they say i din suit pink at all...
if u see me carrying something pink, they say its really odd...
wad i mean is....should i really stick to green or just wad??
las time i was just being fun..everyone has their own favourite color..but i dont..
so i suppose green is my favourite cos it makes me feel comfortable..
BUT!! isnt it weird i dont have a definite favourite color??
well...i suddenly realize dat something/someone dat u like doesn't neccessary suits u...
so wad for liking dem so much if dey doesnt suits u?? aha...weird though...
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recently i ate alot....owes hang out wif frenz...n ate several times of supper...
evryday eat ice kacang...whoah...feel so wacko...
suckz! i think i nd to control my food consumptions....
currently busy wif assignment...homwok...test...n presentation....
everything so sudden...so bz....so so so TIRED...
lacking of exercise....life is like a mess....
conclusion: my life is in disorder....='(
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ive no confidence....low self-esteem...huh...im such an unattractive gal...