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maYtzeçš„ä¸»é http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze Wed, 23 Dec 2009 17:43 EST Wed, 23 Dec 2009 17:43 EST Zorpia.com Im back again~ http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1903290 Okay, I think it has been months I didn't log into this account. I was extremely busy in real life. Time passes so fast and now I'm 20 years old. Just a glance and suddenly I was engaged into a relationship and broke up again. Pathetic. Is it so hard to find the right guy?I'm SUPPOSED to finish my assignments last night, but I couldn't because I really dunno how to complete it. My mind is totally blank. I lied to him that my work only left 20 percent whereas the truth is that I still got 40 percent incomplete. Ya ya,,i know I shouldn't blog at this moment. But, I just couldn't resist on the verge of blogging. I am in deep shit right now. It's mother's day and I haven't shop for the present and tonnes of work waiting for me to do. OMGGGGG..... Happie Mother's Day everyone~will update soon, miss you all~   Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1903290 Sat, 09 May 2009 22:16 EST Im back! http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1845621 Hello guys!!Yeah its me..im back..very sorry for dint manage tis account for so long... life is unpredictable..and life is about making choices and deciding options..which option shud i choose? which one is better?I dont know..haiz...Recently, been brooding over a matter.."why i care so much" is the thing i'm so fed up..reali annoying..just cant find a possible explanation..=.=Haiz...will be back for more actions!Till then bye!! Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1845621 Wed, 15 Oct 2008 10:58 EST OMFG!!! http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1832235 I'm so stress!!!Help me!!!YTTT!!!HELP ME!!! faint~ Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1832235 Thu, 28 Aug 2008 08:15 EST Haiz... http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1828299 Seriously in need of talking to someone right now Because things are not going well latelyI'm stucked and couldn't move onI'm sad because I let all those setbacks put me behindI've thought of finding himto unload my rubbish to my rubbish binbut several times hez making me disappointedIn order not to repeat the history This time I kept it all to myselfI'm seriously in need of talking to someonebut I don't wanna make it like a habit to unload everything into the rubbish binSo here I am writing this journalElly is deadYou will probably never see the same Elly anymoreSome words are spoken out cannot be taken backSome wounds you inflicted eventually will cure And all it lefts are the scares that you hurt throbbinglySome thing that happened...you cannot denied it existence..But I tend to deny the obviousEveryone is doing thatI don't know how much sin I've commitedI knew they love meGod is here to love meBut I hurt them more than loving them backPlease guide me Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1828299 Thu, 14 Aug 2008 00:27 EST Frantic or cranky? http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1827197 Haiz...well, obviously the writing style here and my blog seemed different. I couldn't control it because it happened without realization. I'm implementing an experiment. I used slang alot [I admit] over my blog there but it's normal right? So, I purposely used foul words just to see still got anyone who against me or what. I really hope my intuition is wrong. Sigh. Recently, I'm cranky. I've been acting in a way that doesn't really like me. I kept repeating "when life is gone to another extreme stage, you will start to behave abnormally just to adjust yourself". Holy that's all crap! I know that were all excuses to cover up my uneasiness. BUT! IF that really doesn't look like me, then what I'm suppose to be like? Huh? Lost again. Why am I feeling uneasy? Okay, if you said I got heart problem, maybe. I'm not quite sure about it. But I just cant figure out what. Something is obviously stirring inside my mind. Feel like going crazy already. HELP ME!!! I'm going frantic too! Because I'm going to have another one week holiday! C'mon, I hate holidays!!! Especially you don't get to do according your plan which was always marred by parents! I HATE IT, I HATE IT, I HATE IT!!! Phew, sorry for "shouting". OMFG, what am I suppose to do in this little one week holiday? Well, I guess part time housewife it has to be. Darn, cooking, doing laundry, washing, sweeping. LIFE IS SO SO SO DRAB!!! I want to hang out, but with who? and cash? no money T_T Sienzzz...gaining weight againT_T Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1827197 Sun, 10 Aug 2008 00:48 EST Sigh.. http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1826073 Good thing that I still maintained my zorpia site. I feel more freely to splat everything here rather than my blog there. Perhaps I knew my friend won't bother to touch this site. LoL. Okay just assuming. Sigh. I got so many things to update about in my blog. But I just don't feel like it. The feeling is not right. Since when I have to consider alot of things before posting any entry or journal? I feel so fake la. Another thing that made me care alot is the stranger in my blog. He spammed my chatbox and saying hes my fren. Was wondering who the hell he is. Quite irritating cos hes making me very curious until I spend a whole night figuring about it. Sigh. Today is the second day of my second sem. Finally got my timetable last night. School life wasn't as interesting as I thought. I really hope I can do well this sem. Score high this sem. I really hope. But that will mean I have to put 100% effort in it. Nevermind I've got Tania together to strike with. Friends are amazing. A complicated philosophy to understand. I feel so so so alone. But I rather be alone than having disappointment. Good thing is that I learn not to put so much hope in friends already. It's good. Things are going well lately. I don't care what other people think as long as I feel comfortable. Who I hang out with, who I talk to, who I smile at, who I have fun with..I decide it myself according to my feelings..NOT the eyes of the other people. I don't have to "jiao dai" everything evrytime I do things right? That will be so so so troublesome. Like what Rachz told me, no need explain 100%. So, that's it. Emo feeling is coming back I think. But luckily sik soon handed the storybook to me today. Gonna buried myself under it. LoL. Till then, bye. Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1826073 Tue, 05 Aug 2008 10:01 EST Confused http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1825454 Okay, server quite down lately. I'm so pissed off with streamyx connection. Suddenly can't browse any page and suddenly can't sign in msn. Sigh. I'm confused lately. Please tell me what to do. I really hope I cant get rid off the uneasiness. Since when it started to become like this? I'm not quite sure. Semester break ends today. Tomorrow I'm going to school. Hope I can get my life busy again. Wish me all the best aye~ Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1825454 Sun, 03 Aug 2008 00:27 EST Back again.. http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1820780 Hi guys! It's been awhile since last time I post my last journal here. Oh well, it's quite tiring to manage many sites at the same time. But today I managed to edit my Zorpia site because the boredom is getting on me. Currently having semester holiday and it turns out to be quite bored almost everyday! Why? The reason is because my holiday plans all marred by my dear parents. Quite pathetic if you can't get to live your own life. Sigh. Nevertheless, I'm trying to enjoy as much as I can here. I've just uploaded two new albums. Hope u guys enjoy viewing it!  Well, the "He" in my post before. I've quited on him. I fed up being the fool of this game every time. And I think I should be honest with my own feelings and thoughts. Yeah I'm glad I can let him go somehow. I finally figured out the reason why I still stayed in that organization. It was because that's the only way to stay connected with him, to have at least one certain common things between us.That's why. But since a years ago, feelings fade and finally there's no point to continue in that organization. Aha, I'm crapping again. Sigh.  Well, the bottom line is, everything changed and everything has a new start. My friendships? Just let it be. My families? Just let it be. My relationship? Well, being single has nothing to lose! I'm currently enjoying my singlehood. Being single is cool and all it takes is just the right attitude. Cheers my friends! Well, I'm not escaping or avoiding the reality by choosing not to think or brood over those matters. I just want to content myself with my life.  So, stay tuned for more updates! Remember to drop by my blog at http://ellyin2u.blogspot.com! Thanks. Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1820780 Wed, 16 Jul 2008 07:04 EST Why? http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1736942 im kinda getting way too over..i dun noe how to stop it...jus why? gosh...it disturbs me.. **doing something totally different from wad i want**  Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1736942 Mon, 15 Oct 2007 20:26 EST its been a long time.. http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1718118 hi guys..sorry for the late update..ive been inactived in zorpia since i own a blog...tis is my blog url : http://ellyin2u.blogspot.comcatch up any news on me tru tis site..tanx!   Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1718118 Sat, 18 Aug 2007 09:49 EST Dilema.... http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1703053 Evrything that i do..i slowly realized that its al because of him.. Mb i didnt know at 1st..why wud i act like that... but i slowly figured it out...i just want to get his attention... But no matter how hard i try..it seems to no avail.. Why the person that owes let me care for is another guy but nt him? Why the person owes care for me is anthr guy but nt him? Why the person that i owes joke around and hang ard is anthr guy but nt HIM? Why the one that owes accompany me wen im lonely is anthr person but nt HIM? Just why...do evrytime i let myself troubled in such a mess..? Im so stupid... Im nt a gud gal..im nt a nice person either...i wud do anything to get his attention.... That's y u can see me letting any guy to care, to joke, to play ard with me.. But evrytime...he wud just stare at me from veli far.. He wud rather go n joke with anthr gal but just nt me.. He wud ask help frm anthr gal but just nt me.. He wud rather care for other gal but just nt me.. He wud befriend wif anthr person but just nt me... We are just like strangers...totally invisible... Why?....why i owes make myself luk like a fool evrytime i try to get his attention? Why...why izit so hard for him just to talk to me? Why he owes ignore me? make me believe that im such a pest thats owes bother him? Just why...why do i love him so much? Im in a dilema...   Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1703053 Mon, 09 Jul 2007 09:31 EST Dunno y recently... http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1697702 Recently my life turned out to be such a mess... I dunno what am i looking for...nor did i know what i wanted for.. My heart is numb... realized it just know...darn... Something is stirring inside my mind...but...aha... Seems like im talking crap here..BZ BZ BZ...tis week may be very BZ..studying of coz.... I think im a hyprocrite...aihz.. I dunno what am i frowning at...gosh..What's wrong with me?  Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1697702 Tue, 26 Jun 2007 07:54 EST Broke record... http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1693247 Wow...can u believe it?? tis is too absurd..what happen to me? I mean..what's wrong with me anyway?? so funny to think about it..." so siao li" I'm so embarrassed...omg... Ive broke a record...today...my car engine went dead for 7 TIMES... could you imagine seven times from the way back to my house from swinburne??? shyt...all my car windows are not tinted...that means evryone can see clearly who is tis gal...or who wadsoever "mati enjin" in the middle of the road.. 2 times is near chung hua primary skol no.1....... 3 times is infront of st.thomas!! OMG... 2 times is infront of my shop wen i do reverse parking..=.= when the engine went dead.i nd to switch it on again.. and many cars besides me..or rather the person who drives besides me actually laughing at me!! woa...so EMBARRASING...i could feel my face turning red and hot... especially infront of st.thomas...mos of the students juz finished their schooling... even a small kid laughed at me...=.=...sobx... and for the car behind me...they gave me a filthy look when i espied in the rear mirror...Gosh..im so stupid...my driving skills aint gud enough... haiz...a Black Friday for me... Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1693247 Fri, 15 Jun 2007 01:48 EST Wow...a picture means a thousand words.. http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1691035 Well..its true that a picture means a THOUSAND WORDS... u can actually guess what's going on with evryone in the photo... what does she feel right at that moment? why she and he....^^ the INTERACTION of the people in the picture reveals much more message to the reader.. a lots of secret may have uncover...just a look by the photo... it may have been more effective if u took the picture naturally... what i mean is under somebody's AWARENESS... then it will be perfectly conspicuous.. ive seen alot of pics..which i myself startled very much...its unbelivable.. i dunno why they took this kind of pic... but the FUN part is guessing what's hidden in evryone's mind.. Different trip wif different ppl...different experience wif different feelings.. different pictures wif different background...but u may owes see the <del>TWO</del> same person.. what more could I say?  ( dry laugh..)I need a digital camera!!-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Why i like blogging? Izit the onli way to express ma' tots or izit one kind of recording wat happen in ma' life?? A:  Both...and also to spend my free time..sometimes..u just cant find an answer why u like tis or why u like her..or even why u act like that...like is like..dun like is dun like...i prefer u make it all clear...just black and white...staying in the grey zone will only hurt u and me...and the person around us... Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1691035 Sun, 10 Jun 2007 01:04 EST Avoid or being avoided..??? http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1689528 Have you ever try to avoid that someone? or have u ever been avoided by that someone?? this is quite a very odd question to ask though.... Im just nothing but being too taken away by this isssue...or shud i called this as a concern.? wel...shud u try to believe it as a coincidence rather than being avoided? why ur body doesnt move accordingly to ur heart?? why izit ur mind doesnt work rationally together wif ur feelings? okay..perhaps i shud define what the term" that someone" means.... that someone is just a person who are close to you and yet u two are just like a stranger.. weid isnt it? but its undeniable that there is that someone, someone who stole the pieces of ur heart and smash it hardly on the ground...n den ur heart will nvr be the same anymore... Avoid or being avoided...why does it cares so much? izit so important to noe the answer? sometimes you maybe see as avoiding..but that's not true... Becos...the body canot undertake the feelings..its not avoiding... as for being avoided...mb its just a coincidence... or mb that person havin the same problem too.. as i have said in the previous journal...in the passage " I HATE LUV", why is there someone walk into ur life and mess up all ur feelings? u probably tried veli hard to cover urself..but that person seems easily to uncover it.. and den that person would left u behind wif al sorts of  confusion... duh...what am i blabbling about? forgive me to ask those stupid question... im jus curious... fine...just hop that someone can gv me an answer...[ sigh..] Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/maYtze/journal/1689528 Wed, 06 Jun 2007 04:53 EST