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2006年12月20日 下午2點46分22秒God's images
A meaningful story here... There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she's blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He's always there for her. She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry herboyfriend. One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she can sees everything, including her boyfriend. Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the world, will youmarryme?" The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend is blind too, andrefused to marry him. Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying."Just take care of my eyes dear." A lot of time we were like that.. We love others because we felt that we deserve it. We love others because we want to be loved, yet we don't want to show love to others. When bad things do happen, we blame the one we love and let them suffer thinking that we are the one always right.. Does that sounds familiar to you? Well it does sounds to me.. I was always like that and I still am.. Just that God is touching me and showing me how to love others with unconditional love. Honestly saying it's hard to love someone but we yearn for that love. So let us love others like how Jesus love us.. It's hard I know but then I am also learning.. Learning to walk right in Him.. Learning to love those who are in trouble just like Him.. Therefore let us give our life to Jesus this Christmas and by doing that we give our life to ppl who are in need.. I do not know how to do it.. But just let God help you to do it.. After all we are His children, His images.. As we see ourselves in the mirror, we always adjust ourselves a bit around the mirror so that we can look nicer.. So in this case, let God adjust us around so that He will guide us to see ourselves easily.. Cause we are His mirror.. He sees Himself perfectly and He sees us perfectly although we are not.. So let Him adjust Himself a bit on us so that we would look nice for Him.. =) Since Christmas is within days, let us show His glory and shine for Him and be Him reflection.. God bless.. =)
2006年12月18日 上午4點05分15秒Fattening weekend, yet it was kinda happening as w
For once, my life had been kinda more happening than the usuals for last week. Well celebrated my be-earlied 27th Birthday (ahem.. ahem.. now you know my actual age this year) with KDU Christian Fellowship members last Saturday in One Utama KFC. Well I miss that day though although it were just two days ago. One of my actual Christmas wishes had actually been fulfilled by those CFers. They actually sang Christmas Carol in KFC just for me. Ain't that sweet.. Although I know it's kinda embarrasing la.. But then thanks a lot for singing the carols just for me.. =) Btw I still waiting for other Christmas gifts ok?
Anyway I actually got a free Mc Donald's cone from Mun Yee and Li Yan.. They went together to get the ice-cream for me.. Imagine the long queue.. (Poor girls) Actually I don't know how long is the queue but the very fact that they came back 10 minutes or more later makes me think that they are indeed taken a long queue just for the ice-cream.. Ahhh... How sweet.. But too bad the ice-cream fell to my face when I nearly finished it. Good job Aaron Tam and Joram.. But too mad you two miss my whole face to the max. =P Just slightly smacked only. Thank God I expected it oredi. Otherwise the whole thing would fell unto my face.
Then I followed Aaron Tam to DUMC's Pre Uni Christmas BBQ. Well the whole thing was kinda okay though but then I met a girl there. She was one of the CG leader. Kinda pretty.. But guess what? She knows my brother & she is a Foo Chow girl.. What crap? It's like going back to Sitiawan where I used to stay (sort of bred). But overall everything was kinda alright.. I managed to ate 1 BBQ chicken, 1 beef, lotsa salad (Mun Yee, you know I had become a vegetarian there.. So my diet was kinda alright, huh?) , two slices of domino pizzas and a few drinks. =) Yum.. Yum.. Delicious.. At the end of the party we all sang Christmas Carols..
Then yesterday.. went to church.. Ate 4 packets of nasi lemak, provided by the church.. Ate too much not good for me.. (But I was told to take away two packet because nobody wants it anymore... Yeah.. I am left-over scavenger). After that plan to take some rest, but was invited for another Christmas party organised by my Calvary CG. Invited Aaron Tam there and we went to Tropicana and celebrating with them.. Got lotsa food as well... So as usual gluttonly I ate the food there.. And my CG members were saying, they were happy to feed me.. I was like, "huh?" (Whatever...) Anyway we managed to sang some Christmas Carols as well..
Honestly saying last Saturday and Sunday are quite happening for me.. I mean I managed to enjoy the CFers Christmas Carol as well as DUMC's Christmas Carol as well as Calvary's Christmas Carol. And coming Wednesday we are going for Christmas Carol in Bkt Beruntung with Kenny and his church members. Not bad though for a Christmas celebration... Just got a sentence to describe all these..
You all had made my day very blessed. Without you all I do not know how to celebrate Christmas.. Thanks a lot and God bless you all.... Have a merry and blessed Christmas and God bless...
Ps: I still want my Christmas Carols from the famous group.. BSB&G. You know who you are.. =)
2006年12月10日 上午3點27分43秒Christmas - giving time
Christmas is approaching very very soon. 15 more days to go for countdown before Christmas started. It is time to give and receive. Well a lot of ppl perceived giving and receiving in term of gifts and treats. It is good and fun to have sucha activities but I felt that we do not do enough giving and receiving.
Let me started by saying that Jesus is the main reason why we celebrate Christmas. It was because of His birth that we actually celebrate Christmas. Santa for one thing, is just someone called Saint Nicholas who were just a mere human, giving joy to the kids. I do not know the real history of his but what I do know in term of history is that his name became much more highly recognised when it came to Christmas time whereas a little baby boy by the name of Jesus Christ was born in this manger and a lot of time we actually totally forgotten bout Him. Honestly we all do not know Jesus' exact birthday. It is just a date the Roman fix as a rememberance of Jesus.
But let us forget all those for a moment. Whether the date is His actual birth date or just a coincidence (borrowed from ancient gods) and whether Santa is highly recognised during Christmas time, let us always remember this. That Jesus' birth gives us hope. As the matter of fact, it was during the Jewish time in Isreal that His birth gives hope to the world. Jewish that time were living in ignorant (if I could say that) and their heart were hardened. They were rather proud of themselves. And guess what they are the chosen ppl of God. Imagine all the spiritual benefits they have had. And they took it for granted. When they took it for granted they actually make God angry. But because of His love towards Isreal and promises that He gave to some of the leader of Israel such as Abraham, Isaac, Jacobs, Moses and even King David himself, He sent His only Son to die for them and for us. For me, that is the ultimate sacrifices that God gave to us. And sacrifice means giving. And sacrifice also means giving in full although not yet in fullest. I mean we can't give to God in fullest. For one thing, God have everything. He did not need our givings. But I believe that He want us to give. And when we give, we do not just with joy, we also give in secret. This is an interesting givings that I have learnt. In Matthew 6:1-2 (NIV) it says like this:
1"Be careful not to do your 'acts of righteousness' before men, to be seen by them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven.
2"So when you give to the needy, do not announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the streets, to be honored by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full. 3But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, 4so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.
My understanding of this passage is that we should give with clear intention that whatever we give we should not lift ourselves up, in terms of money, cares and loves. We give in humbleness.. It is like whatever we gave we would not get it back anymore. No benefits for us. But then it is not true cause when we give in this manner, we give all our belongings (which is not actually our own belonging but God's) back to Him and it glorifies Him. A lot of time, when our friends give us gifts, we will repay it back to them. But I do believe in this different theory. That is whatever things that we receive from others, we give it back to another needed person. An example would be,
A drives B around a lot of time since B do not own any car. So when B owns a car, if he still remembers how A had helped him, instead of paying back to A, he drives C and D around. So when C and D had seen what B do, they will learn and follow.
There is no point we give back to the person who had helped us cause we are just giving back the favour of what the person had done for us previously. I felt that it defeated the purpose of God. (Maybe I am wrong and maybe I am not) I mean come to think of it, Christ died for us so that we shall receive hope from Him. So when we receive this hope and be secured bout it, instead of giving it back to God, we should give this hope that we receive to the person next to us. I mean it might be one or two or even three of them. In fact it might be hundreds but whatever it is, it is God's hope and love that is passed down. And not our own baton, but God's. And seeing someone grown in the Lord, perhaps stronger and marvellous than us is considered a joy. In a sense we are God's pioneer in planting seeds in other ppl's life and that is precious. And even after all the things we had done for God, even if I were to go back to heaven to meet God, (if) God is still not happy bout it at least I know I had done my part to the full for Him. That's my main intention. To seek and love Him with all my heart, soul and spirit. And it had happened with the birth of a baby boy who is called Christ. A willingness to sacrifice for us all, the mortals. He gives us hope, joy & peace. =)
So let us continue to give with different understanding that we are not just giving gifts but rather cares, concerns and love because our God is LOVE, amen? =) Therefore let us see Christmas as a different celebration instead of the routine secular type of celebration.. For me Christmas is not just a time to give and receive gift, not just a time of sharing but I believe it a time where we actually really turn to somebody and tell that somebody God loves them and we do care and love for them.. =) God bless...
2006年12月9日 上午6點50分03秒Life this weekned...
Today and tomorrow is two special day. Special day because it a working day for me. Well for one thing, today and tomorrow is the beginning of my company's open day. So students are coming in to pay for their fees and doing all the necessary stuffs to pay for their education. For one thing, today and tomorrow is my first time working alone, all by myself. Although I had experience in working as a cashier, but still when it comes to working alone, I still do have fear that I would make lotsa mistakes. =( Touch wood... Chooi.....
Anyway yeah.. It is kinda quiet here in the office. This is due to because Selangorians are having a long break cause Sultan Selangor's birthday fall on Mon. And it is kinda pathetic though cause I need to work on the Saturday and Sunday of which it means I wouldn't be having any long break even though I am working in Selangor and not KL. How sad..
Anyway Christmas is coming soon. I am hoping to have a chance to go back to Ipoh. For one thing, I had not applying for Christmas leave and I am hoping to be able to get leave to go back to Ipoh. Intending to go back to Ipoh to celebrate Christmas with family. More like Christmas Eve with them cause I might be going back to Petaling Jaya on Christmas Day.. =) Anyway don't know lah.. Hope that everything would be going smoothly.. =) Anyway I am getting old a year soon too.. Don't know how would I face my older years in future.. Hopefully I would be able to something as I continue to a year older each year.. God bless me always... =)
Anyway back to work now.. Need to settle some stuffs before I can actually go back... It's gonna be 5pm soon.. So God bless... =)
2006年12月4日 上午4點20分15秒The honest of *me*
As my previous blog entitled Finishing Strong, I think a lot bout my life and myself. Did I actually finishing strong or did I just finishing so-so or worst finishing of all, did I finished in failure? Come to think of it, I felt that I am finishing so-so. I mean as much as I had grown (so to say) I felt that I did not grown much spiritually. In fact, I felt that I am sort of like stagnant in spiritually. One thing is for sure. I do not know what is my path at the moment. I am still wondering, waiting to hear from God and as usual I can't really hear from God. I mean I need to know where I am heading to so that I can know where I am going.. Well I know we all moved by faith and I did that but my problem is move by faith to where and to do what.. I do not have any goals in life. No objectives though. No vision.. What I have is just the heart for God and I am still waiting for guidance from Him.
Honestly saying I am "blank" guy now.. Don't know what am I thinking oredi. A lot of time I thought, "is whatever things I say or write or blog actually correct?" I mean I do doubt a lot when God guided me. For one thing, I do not easily trust what ppl say though as much as I do not trust my own words that much as well. In fact I do have lotsa evil thoughts. And some even go further extreme. I am good in manipulating, controlling, telling lies, kutuking, being sarcastic, backstabbing, racists, sexism, egolistic, proud, perfectionist (at certain time), gossipping, slandering, rude, angry person etc etc.. You name, I somehow or rather got it as well.. Baiscally I am the devil and I am the angel. It's like one body with Lucifer and Gabriel.
Well somehow or rather, God changed me. He changed me from a person who likes to do bad things such as above to someone who started wanting to do good for God. I mean I am in the process of changing and yet throughout early this year till now, I still felt that I had not really grown. Actually I grown not enough. I felt that I do not have enough of Him. I want more but I felt my laziness conquers all.. And my tiredness destroys it all.. And now I am still wondering whether I should go back to Ipoh next year to work or stay back in PJ? Cause all of us can decide whether to go back next year or 2008. And I do not know what to do. One thing is for sure. If I were to stay here in PJ, I want to serve God in anything. In fact, I am looking forward to. Otherwise I shall go back to Ipoh. At least in Ipoh I know I can take care of my parent. And I can saved up money to buy cars or other necessary things in life. Perhaps even get a wife back in Ipoh. But as for PJ I do not know what to do. I am no longer in KDU Christian Fellowship. And as usual I am a hider. I hide from anything and everything. Not to say I am scared or what, just that I am used to do that oredi. In fact I felt I am too weird to show up myself to the world. *Whatever*
Anyway still thinking of whether to stay back in PJ or going back to Ipoh.. Hmm... Any suggestion? Still asking for guidance.. See how lah.. If God answers I shall blog it here.. =) God bless...