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2007年3月23日 上午5點21分16秒In the midst of overwhelming loneliness......
March 23, 2007 Friday
16 days before baptism
In the midst of overwhelming loneliness, dark night of the soul......
I know...... I just wish so much that I can call her, write a long romantic letter to her, and pour out everything in my heart to her...... as if she's my savior and ever-present helper.
I know...... I just wrote a long and profound(!) confession, realizing so much about myself, my weaknesses, my deeply-rooted insecurities traced back to the distant past. I cried out for mercy, for help, for a renewal and transformation of life.
And I know...... I am going to get baptized soon. At this critical time, I certainly know what I should focus on, whom I should rely and trust, and why I decided to commit my life to the mystery of baptismal water and its covenant.
But I am lonely! I am SO LONELY!
Argh.........................................................................................
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Lord, would you come and fill this empty space?
"God grant me the serenity,
to accept the things I cannot change;
the courage to change the things I can;
and the wisdom to know the difference."
~ Reinhold Niebuhr