2004年10月8日 上午5點51分22秒I have two special thoughts today. 1.)...

I have two special thoughts today. 1.) Friendship People can hardly understand me, and at the same time, I can hardly understand the Americans. No matter how I try to be funny, be open, be talkative, there's seem something hindering the relationship to go deeper and further. In the dorm study, Kelli said something which really hits the point: people around us today are always trying to seek happiness through the approval or admiration of others. They put their own values on how people see them, but not how God see them. The result is always the loss of joy, peace and positive self image. In my true feeling, my heart strongly concurs on this. Sometimes I feel a little bit uncomfortable when I see a huge group of people hanging around, laughing loudly and having fun. But who know that those who have the most friends actually may be the loneliest people? However, no matter how much I try to comfort myself with all this "great" thoughts, I can't stop my heart to not cease seeking for deeper relationship(both with human and God). Just as Pascal said, human hearts will never be satisfied until it finds a true, deep and loving relationship. GPA 4.00, waves of bravos in a piano recital, lots of money, a beautiful girlfriend, or even a bunch of common "friends", are not the substitute. Only a true, deep and loving relationship would work. This is the struggle which I have in the deepest part of my life. Perhaps it's my character(Indeed, I partly agree that I need to improve. My family used to say it's because I am too stubborn, too naive. I felt very upset and I strongly resist such comment. They actually just want me to be able to "socialize", to be favorable by everybody, to follow the crowd, to conform to what everybody thinks!! However, these are NOT the qualities which I really need to solve the problem.), or it's my cultural background, or others. I still remember being frustrated and tired at that time, I calmly told Ian that I felt quite difficult adjusting Rooke Chapel and the style of Committee(now the Ministry team). He replied, "Well...... when I was in India, I felt the same. International students usually have lots of common friends, but very few close buddies." I think that's the point. I am not greedy for many friends. Just one is enough for the whole college life to become enjoyable. Who can be? I don't know. But it would be pretty difficult to find one who is interested about whatever I think^.^ In lunchtime, Uche, noticing I was staring the ceiling, asked, "Keami, are you OK? You look very tired." "Oh, I'm fine. Just daydreaming." I replied. Uche, with her smiling and suspicious face, asked, "Hehe, who(She is refering a girl) are you daydreaming right now?" "Nobody," I said, "just when I was looking at the electrical light and blubs, I imagined if we were in a very strong and true Christian society, would there be an environment to faciliate these scientific advances, like electricity? People tend to think that faith and science conflict with each other, but is it possible to have great scientific achievements in a world of true Christian culture? I am just wondering about this." Apparently shocked(or confused), Uche said, "Wow...... that's really deep......" 2.) Worship I don't know why I feel like this. After going to the Well today, I really feel that I should write something. My thoughts may be a little bit too explicit, but it's true and sincere. What I worry is that worship is becoming more secular and human-centered. Beautiful, lovely songs are sung, and energetic bands arouse everyone's body, soul as well as "spirit". Feeling is emphasized. In the eyes of many non-Christians, "worship" is the equivalent of "relaxation", "fun" and "social". Indeed, I thought Intervarsity did a great job on the Bible studies program and the sermons/messages given every Thursday. But there can be also something to improve, to make the worship more balanced and God-centered. How many visitors/non-Christians would had their souls awakened, to be ready for further gospel messages, in the worship? How many of them really understand the true meaning of worship, a serious act of will to praise the Creator of Universe, Lord of Heaven and Earth? How many of them really know the meaning of becoming a Christian? Is it just receiving all kinds of goodies and blessings, or knowing God's plan on them personally? Or bearing their own crosses, suffering for the sake of Christ, facing all the temptations and persecutions from all sources, and submitting their will into God's global and universal plan? These questions are not only for Well, but also for Rooke Chapel, and worships and services around all the churches, including mine at home. They challenge us that who is the main character in the worship, God or men? Is our worship/service favorable by people, or by God? Is it biblical or not?

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