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2006年11月19日 上午7點10分41秒A hope for transformation
November 19, 2006 Sunday
Washington, DC
Tension, stress, ambarassment, awkwardness...... yeah, after an incompletely submitted assignment, an irrational "whinning" to my friend, hilarious miscommunication and unnecessary fear in a project, two nights of grad group meeting, a 9-minute wait for the next metro, and even a glimpse of the familiar faces in someone's facebook album......
I tried to look into the deepest part of my life, and ask God, "Why there is such an incompleteness in my personality, or in the essence of humanity?"
"If these things, experiences, feelings are meaningful, in what sense?"
"Will you transform me in the midst of these, even if there is no way out, if I am destined to wrestle with them till I die?"
"Will it be your implicit tiny voice, your master plan, or your channel of grace?"
"If yes, let me learn to take it. Let me learn to embrace you, recognize you and know your heart from this stage of life drama."