http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan Sun, 20 Dec 2009 19:59 EST Sun, 20 Dec 2009 19:59 EST Zorpia.com http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1936780 時間大概在晚上八點五十分….我心情突然微笑的低落…<br /><br />…..結束了一天的休假….又回到家了<br /><br />酒櫃上我上一次開的Jose Cuervo順手被我帶進房間…<br /><br />高腳杯裡我放了八分滿…<br /><br />…………………………….我喝完一大口才發現有點烈…..哈<br /><br />敲敲我的腦袋問自己說..我在幹嘛..哈哈<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />好一段時間在zorpia空間和QQ空間裡沒放文章了….<br /><br />今天就寫一下今天的經過吧….<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />我最想過的就是輕鬆的放一天假…<br /><br />今天起床是早上七點二十二分…是一通電話~是我的一個朋友叫做小崴<br /><br />他說今天有事他不跟我們出去…..(是去看電影~別問我為啥跟男的去看電影.^_^.)<br /><br />我們今天原本四個男的要一起去看電影…只是放鬆心情~看的只是二輪片…<br /><br />…….我起床開始發呆.發呆到八點我才發現我發待了半小時…然後去洗臉刷牙…<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />早上的十點又一個朋友打電話來..他說找不到另外兩個…<br /><br />既然這樣我只好我們兩個去囉…..(人在江湖身不由己…哈)<br /><br />我的這個朋友因為失戀…所以我們幾個朋友…陪他散散心…<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />像台灣這種地方時常發生的兵變可真難受阿….哀..(解哀順變吧)<br /><br />…….出門後到了電影院的門口後我們各自回家了..<br /><br />………………….因為電影院沒開…….(沒辦法二輪片麻)….<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />回到家後房間裡點薰香…泡一壺茶…還有調了一杯很淡的蘋果酒…<br /><br />拿著吉他想打算寫一首歌….但是條完音後發現…那個感覺不見了……<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />前幾周的台北天空都是黑黑的沒有太陽…..<br /><br />………今天它卻出現在天空…我把吉他放下後…我想把這件事想告訴歡歡..<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />歡歡~……………………她那時應該在上班吧…..<br /><br />……….好想知道她那邊的天空…有沒有太陽出現…….<br /><br />天氣太熱她會有比較多的工作…下雨天她又會再無聊吧..<br /><br />我的簡訊(短信)打到一半我的手機響了…<br /><br />………………失戀的朋友…要到我家來…好吧.我說OK.<br /><br />我又調了一杯新的蘋果酒…他也買了些啤酒….<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />他今天要回營區….我們的無聊話題只到了下午…我陪他去高鐵站…..<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />午後的五點十分…台北車站地下的人還比地上的人多好幾倍..<br /><br />….我們從地下街買完票後…<br /><br />從M2出口出去耗六點前的時間.等待整點的車….<br /><br />……….和他說想念他那愛的她時要怎麼從腦袋中拿掉的事…<br /><br />哈….這只是個不是很有結果討論…..<br /><br />但至少他心情有好轉些吧…….<br /><br />把我的理論說給他聽吧<br /><br />~如果你愛她.就看見他的快樂時.你應該也該快樂~<br /><br />他離開了…在台灣當兵是個義務…我心理和他說聲加油.<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />揮手轉身後…<br /><br />我就這麼很不小心的在地下街撞到了有小慧的那段記憶…<br /><br />我自己一個人傻笑…是一台夾娃娃機<br /><br />她怎麼夾也夾不到的那隻娃娃…被我一次就夾到了.<br /><br />…………………………….我身上穿的這件衣服是那時她送我的獎勵品…<br /><br />對喔…我很久沒買衣服了..衣櫃裡的衣服幾乎都是她陪我去買的..<br /><br />現在的她應該過得很好吧…<br /><br />朋友都說我該和小慧在一起…..不該去愛小珍…<br /><br />算了過去了…小慧永遠只是我的小妹妹.<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />上課遲到了半小時…兼任老師沒有記我…<br /><br />教室裡小珍旁邊的空位我填進去隔離了世界上的所有一切…<br /><br />她已經一週沒上課了~我猜得到她男友上週都休假吧.(又是個當兵的..哀)<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />說了一句好久不見~也順便客套一句怎麼一整週都沒出現的話題.<br /><br />她回我上週五她要來的…但是被我害到不來了..所以是被我害了..<br /><br />我哪知道啥原因..哀…抄我的筆記聽我的課直到放學.<br /><br />和她聊不上多少話她卻在開心啥..哀~~算了..<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />收拾筆記的那一刻…她說………………………..都是我害她和男朋友吵架了…<br /><br />我…………當然……………….一頭霧水….她說因為就是我在週五的那通電話..<br /><br />……………………………哈哈..<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />我只是朋友立場…四天不來上課.第五天的第二節她又沒出現..<br /><br />之前因為她工作累不小心睡著沒來上課時…我沒打電話給她.<br /><br />…………..那時她說要我記得叫她去上課…沒事的話我已經不會打給她了…<br /><br />出去也不會找她了.除非她找我……..哀..算了..是我的錯吧..<br /><br />我挑錯時間打…剛好那時她陪著她男朋友….<br /><br />雖然不知詳細的細節…..但是她們吵架了..對阿.當然是我害的…<br /><br />我在上上週發了一封好玩的簡訊和上週五打的電話害她們吵架了…..<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />她只是微笑的和我聊天….我也只是微笑的回覆..<br /><br />和她說我還是個男人…我不會去追已經有男朋友的女生…<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />就這樣到了她家樓下我才發現我怎麼還是送她回家..<br /><br />哈…看來真的是個我的錯喔.<br /><br />我每天必須面對一個我深愛的人…我避不開.<br /><br />又不能給人說話.她的朋友又只有我一個..哈…<br /><br />………………….也許我太自以為是了….搞不好我只是硬要在她身邊….<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />我和她說以後我不打電話給你了….這我還做得到..<br /><br />但是…………………..<br /><br />……………………..教室裡班上同學永遠為我留的她身邊那個空位怎麼辦…<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />教室裡她身邊那空位是我的…可惜她心裡的那個位子現在卻是別人的…<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />哈………………………<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />有些事也許真的事我再一相情願吧…..<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />我會克制自己的…..我一向很理性的…..我可以….我一定可以..<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />好想和歡歡說話…<br /><br />歡歡會是我的好朋友吧…她會聽我囉說嗎?<br /><br />還是會被她罵….哈….今天我又傳不了簡訊給她了..<br /><br />她應該也睡了吧…我也該睡啦……….<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />好吧~我酒也喝得差不多了.寫完了.也醉了…..哈<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />(有人真的看了這麼多阿…有錯字就對不起啦….謝謝把這篇看完.)<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br />&nbsp;<br /><br /> Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1936780 Mon, 19 Oct 2009 10:50 EST http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1912777 <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">如果這時間家附近還有咖啡廳有在賣愛爾蘭咖啡的話</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我還想出去買來喝</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">_________</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">時間它</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">就這樣得不允許</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">如果這時間我在歐洲的話也許還會有一點生機</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">_______....</font></span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">_______________</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">從酒架上挑了一瓶</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri"><span>&nbsp; </span><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>BLUE NUN…..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">不是名貴的紅酒</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">_______________</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">不過至少可以跟愛爾蘭咖啡的酒精濃度相似吧</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">今天不開心</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~………………………………………………………………</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">打開瓶蓋後直接到進了酒杯</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…..</font></span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">_____</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">今天台北的溫度一定超過紅酒嚐飲溫度</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我不想管</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我只是想著事情手上拿著酒杯搖了幾分鐘</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">………..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">嚐了一口</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">有一點酒香留在唇邊</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">但是我還發著呆</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">……</font></span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">_________________</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我不想想起任何的事</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">如果可以睡了後別再醒來</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">讓我活在美麗的夢裡</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…..</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">十五分鐘開蓋後的紅酒氧化後可以提酒中的香味</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">……</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">如果可以我想再花一點時間琣在她生邊</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">可否能用時間證明我的</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">”</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">愛</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">”……</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">化學作用是要有對的元素</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">也許她要的愛情成分中阿泰不是必須元素</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">一直以為只要把函數帶進公式就會有答案</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">要答對只是要花時間</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…………………..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">原來我也有算錯的時候</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">爾且錯得一蹋糊塗</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">………..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">找不到任何方向作答</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">……</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">前天繞過的西門町</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">有小慧陪我</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我和小慧說讓我牽她的手走路</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…..</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">很多人轉身看小慧</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">他們心裡一定想</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">怎麼會配上這種怪胎吧</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">萬年大樓的第四層</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">放開了她的手後再也沒牽過</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我心裡想的是小珍</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我對不起了小慧</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">……</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我很想跟她道歉</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">不知從哪說出口</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她只是走到我前面來跟我說</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">“</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我沒事</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">阿泰也不能有事</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">走</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我們去玩電動</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…”</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我沒有開口說話就被她拉走</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…….</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我發現我是個爛男人</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">化淡妝的小慧很可愛</span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">__________________________</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">開心時大大擁抱會落在我身上</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">心裡常說對不起</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">……….</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">……..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">永遠是我的小妹妹</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…..</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">今天沒有練鋼琴</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">紅酒已經喝到半瓶了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">……….</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">剛剛點的薰香只有剩一點點海洋玫瑰的淡香</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">也許記憶被時間燃燒後會慢慢變淡吧</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…….</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">暑假了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">沒打算打工</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">原本的工作也停掉了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">可能跟一些學生請各一段時間假</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我要去旅行</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">聽說旅行中可以忘掉很多東西</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">只要記住旅行中的美好的回憶</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">所以接下來的計畫都是玩</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">回憶是不會再得到的美</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">……</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">那是曾經傭有對吧</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">每次想到和她再一起時的甜蜜</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">都是不知不覺微笑中帶著淚</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">窗外天空的雲層今天不美</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我思索了很久</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">半夜沒事不睡真的沒意義</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">哈</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">要爆炸的腦袋想彈個曲子都不知要彈什麼</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">……..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">喝酒配糖果的人世界上不多</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我是其中一個</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">有人說吃糖不會發脾氣</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">就這樣嘴中嚐著甜味</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">………………………………………..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">紅酒並不會破壞糖果的甜</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….!</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">每件事情我都很冷靜的處理</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">所以我看起來有點悶</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我身邊有一個活潑的小慧</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我對不起她多久了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我想要在台灣消失一段時間</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">不讓她知道我去了哪裡</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">這樣過了一段時間後她會不會放棄尋找我</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">但是我也害怕她一直等我</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">………………………..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我只是個爛男人</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我不能照顧她</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">他該去實現他的夢想</span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">原來紅酒已經被我喝完了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">也快天亮了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">不想再去愛誰了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…..</font></span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">“</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">愛情</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">”….</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">是它讓我迷失方向</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">還是我自己迷失中不想走出來</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我對不起了多少人</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">……</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">既然心中代替不了誰</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">那我也別再要求去牽誰的手了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">睡了吧</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">醒來了會有新的一天</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">阿泰會不會不在是阿泰</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">會不會夢變的真實</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">能不能我回到過去改變了自己</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">或是沉睡在最美的夢裡</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">但</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">醒來時答案一定是</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">………………………….</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">什麼都沒改變</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">……..</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">(</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">有打錯的字的話</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">阿泰和大家說對不起囉</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">還有感謝看完我的囉說</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…..)</font></span></p> Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1912777 Mon, 22 Jun 2009 15:45 EST http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1903025 <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">想念是什麼</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~?</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">抓不著</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">摸不到</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">不知道來自哪裡</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">也許就這樣的愛上了一個虛擬鏡子嗎</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">?</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">當台北的天空哭泣時我的心情突然找不到到出口被困在黑暗</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">呆坐在咖啡廳或在謀個地方望著雨腦袋一片空白</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">沒有太多的思緒很順手的把手機握住</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">傳了一封訊息給海洋的另一邊</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">問</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">是否有壞天氣</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她認知我的一切來自文字和聲音</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我認知她的一切來自對話框</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">語音和信息</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">現在又是幾點呢</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">?</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我睡醒了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">還是睡不著</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">不知道</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">__</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">又是想念在作祟</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我想誰</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">?</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">今天為了和小慧吃晚餐我翹掉了兩節國文課</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">吃的又是義大利麵</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">雖然我說過我喜歡吃義大利麵</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">也不用沒次都去吃義大利麵吧</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">今天她說去不同的</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">………………………..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">義大利麵餐館</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">呼</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她有真會找</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">到底我還沒吃過台北的哪一家義大利麵呢</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…?</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我把簡訊打到一半被她的話題給切斷不知要繼續打什麼</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">把手機暫時收上</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">往學校方向搭計程車</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">到了學校門口</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她騎了我的車去我家</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">說要整理我房間</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.(</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">悶</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">)</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">進了學校門口</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">第一個動作是打給幫上的同學</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">一共是五通電話</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">兩個沒接</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">三個沒來</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">踏進教室的門口發現已經上課</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">教室裡有</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">2</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">個活人</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">4</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">個死人</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我填進了教室的一個空間</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">教室裡加了老師一共是</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">8</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">人</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">哇</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">今天發生啥事了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">又撥了五通的電話</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">打給小珍</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">免得又怪我說沒叫她起床</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">……….</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">突然覺得這傢伙有點煩</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">哈</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">沒事要叫起床</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">要喝我的水</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">(</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">還常一起喝是啥意思</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">).</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">肚子餓了買雞排</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">作業要做完</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">筆記要幫忙抄</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">還要編理由幫她請假</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">再把她送到約會處或是幫忙設定能為了打電話給她男友的電話設定</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">再把我做的事一一打下去應該也打不完</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">……</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">寫個</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">等等兩個字敷衍這一段</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">年輕人的話題</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">:</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">好人就是</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">司機</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">送餐</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">修電腦</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">哈</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">樣樣都做了阿</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">哀</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">突然老師問了我跟銀行借一千萬</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">手續費要收多少</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">心裡回答說</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我又不是銀行業務</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我怎麼知道阿</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">哈</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">要是回了這科就被當定了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">搖頭微笑</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">老師轉移去下個目標</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">“”</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">阿泰</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">最近都歸在家是怎麼回事</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">給我出來</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">本週末的車隊有新車隊</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我們在貓空</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">放學要不要去接你</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.””</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">是一封簡訊</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">一個叫小高的傳的</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">有錢人的樂趣我玩不起</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">回傳</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">”</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我要睡覺</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">”…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">不知老師在說什麼</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">不知小慧又傳了一堆什麼簡訊</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我還是吃著糖果打嗑睡</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..^__^..</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">轉身</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~…………</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">發現窗外有顆大月亮</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">第一瞬間</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我把我的心情用一封簡訊告訴了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">歡歡</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">後來手機保持了沉默</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">沒有回傳來的震動</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">呼</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">把書和一些文具收進書包</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">準備放學的時間</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我還為小珍辦一下獎學金的事</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">阿</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">對阿</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">這傢伙還真是煩</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">今天不來學校</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">今天再不申請</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">下週就不行了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我又痕不下心不幫她</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">呼</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">這是啥世界阿</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">既然都幫她了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">班上同學沒辦的也去辦了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">花了好多時間</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">放學後小慧來接我回家</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">嗯</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">房間乾淨了一點點</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">但是少了一些糖果</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">後來是拖著她送去女生朋友家睡</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">MSN</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">裡敲</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">歡歡</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">的時候已經是很晚了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">不知道呢</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">這一刻突然覺得一切都輕鬆了下來</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">開心不開心都想告訴她</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">還是跟往常一樣那麼得開郎</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">壓力都突然消失了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">但是聊了不多</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她下線了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">哈</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我忘了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">真得突然忘了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">放學後小珍打來的電忘了回</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">小高的電話忘了回</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">明明找我去西門町的事忘了打電話</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">和同學約去吃快炒的事也忘了打電話</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">當然小雲說的對</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我忘了約同學吃飯的話</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我當然也忘了她了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她說沒關係</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">把學生都當最後麻</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">也許不是故意的</span><font face="Calibri"> <span lang="EN-US">(^_^)</span></font></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">小慧打電話來叫我陪她講電話</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我跟她說</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">”</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">神經病喔</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">別浪費電話錢</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">快去睡</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">”</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">早上不要來叫我起床阿</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">早上不用教課</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我要睡到中午</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">這段時間得我心情好了很多</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">但是現在的我是在想誰</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1903025 Fri, 08 May 2009 14:24 EST http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1896551 <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">當我努力的入眠時街上的那些路燈已經休息了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">但是可以清晰得看見每一個事務</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">太陽遲遲沒上班又開始的飄雨</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我雙眼無法寧靜的閉上</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">現在算是週一的早上了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我未入睡</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">只能說是昨晚吧</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">離現在一小時左右我才從外面回來</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我去唱歌</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">唱了一些退流行的歌</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">就這樣在</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">ktv</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">包廂裡待了六小時</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">是我的一個學生臨時約我去</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">後來到了後又介紹了兩個她的朋友</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">有些對不起呢</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">現在我忘了她們的名子</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我唱的歌不多</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">因為我的狀態不是很好</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">不太敢唱</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我唱了一首痴心絕對</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">因為小雲談到了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我的生活</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">當然這首歌不是唱給她聽的</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">哈</span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">原來我好不猶豫的吃掉了這些時間</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我都沒感覺</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">要是在學校的時間也這樣多好</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">在學校的時間好像是在吃一餐宴不下的飯</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">不是來至學校的課程</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">而是坐我旁邊的女人</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她要的一切我盡力去做</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她和男友講電話時我笑著面對她說</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我在整理筆記</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">當然陪她走到校門口後我會離她遠一點</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">因為我怕她男朋友會來接她</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">不是一定會來接她</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">哈</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">算了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我不斷的努力不去管從我心裡的哀號</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">因為我必須很好</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我會打給小慧聊很多心事</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">或是找我乾媽聊女人</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我懂的啦</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">乾媽常說女人愛錢</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">只要你有錢</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">就不缺女人</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">哈</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">那什麼是愛情</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我相信一定也有因為愛而改變的女人</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">因為我不喜歡把女人定義見錢眼開</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">一份愛情來至哪裡我怕去思索了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">雖然不知道真愛躲在哪</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">但是每次的搜尋</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">感覺壞掉了身上的某個零件</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">也許不是什麼樣的事</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我不小心會想到一個叫歡歡的女孩</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我沒見過她</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她沒見過我</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">也許她的話題中讓我感覺些溫暖</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">不會和我說太多鼓勵我的話</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">---- &gt;</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">但是卻有一種讓我安心的感覺</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她是一個我的網友</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我們常和別人說我們是朋友</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我相信我不可以愛上她</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她也不該愛上我</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">但是希望她一直記得我</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我在很多時間</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">想把我眼前遇見的每一件事情告訴她</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我覺的記憶是可以保留的</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">至少有一天她到台灣時</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">就算我不在她身邊</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她會看見我瞄訴的西門町和到處都會有的</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">85</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">度</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">c</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">咖啡</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我也許也會看見她說的海口的夕陽和西湖</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">每次我工作到很晚</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她陪我一直用</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">msn</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">聊天</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我把她取名為我的夜咒</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">但是我錯了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她不是夜裡因我的咒語而產生的幻覺</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">而是像童話故事裡的灰姑娘</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她的名也是</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">”</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">暉</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">”…..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">可惜我不是王子</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">現在的她每夜固定的時間消失在網路上</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">灰姑娘只是不小心留下玻璃鞋</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">讓王子去找她</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">但是我的暉姑娘呢</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">只留下明天的期待</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">讓我去等待明天的上線</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">也許是明天的期待吧</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">有一天會發生</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我要等待很多的明天</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">這很可能是我的故事結局</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">這種爛劇情</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">好像是我編造的</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">所以不怎麼好期待</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">但是我相信的上帝阿</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">祢把我的劇情如何繼續寫呢</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">?</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>......呼~有很多錯字就對不起囉.....................................................................................</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1896551 Sun, 12 Apr 2009 17:32 EST http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1893839 <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">沒想過</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">那天是下著細細綿綿的雨</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我遇見了一個天使</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">以為上帝送來的禮物</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">也許那天的天空太暗</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我分不清楚一切</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">禮物下藏著一把小刀</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">天使的翅膀是黑色</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">但是</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">來不及了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">一把小刀早就已經刺中我的心臟</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…..</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">從此後我開始每天想見天使</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">見不到她總是不自在</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">一開始的疼痛我沒感覺</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">可是後來的日子</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">天使對我下了咒語</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">只要每見到她一次</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我的心臟上的那一把小刀會自己割起了我的血脈</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">突然我的守護精靈出現</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">努力的擋掉天使下的咒語</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">此時我的心已經血肉模糊</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">口裡喊著天使的名</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">幫忙擋掉咒語的精靈</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">此時很生氣的對我說</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..”</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">你還有力氣說她是天使</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">”…</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我遇見的不是天使嗎</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">?</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我一臉疑問的問了上帝</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">陽光很燦爛</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">光線從雲霧中脫穎而出</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">但是上帝也許午休去吧</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">眾神可能在開會</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">所以</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我的訴訟狀</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">被一個閒閒沒事幹的邱比特給收下</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">於是邱比特派了一個能治療我心的天使</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">也許丘比特派來的天使</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">比守護精靈要強的多了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她穩穩的把我拉到安全地帶</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">守護精靈很小心的收集已碎掉的那些肉片</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">交給了治療天使</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">用剩下的力氣</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">在外圍下了結界</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">黑翅膀的天使還在繼續對著我下咒於</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">守護精靈</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">幫我擋著不離不棄</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我眼睜睜看著束手無策</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">感覺到一股溫暖</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">用白色的翅膀圍繞著我</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她小心翼翼的把我心臟的</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">那些碎片一一縫補</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">雖然碎片不完整</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她努力著讓我復原</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">可是</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我突然聽到她的哭聲</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">因為她拔不出那一把小刀</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">每一次她縫完的那些線</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">很快就會被小刀給用亂</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我知道她努力著</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">但是她哭泣了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我無法把手舉起為她擦眼淚</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我全身在咒語下早就沒力了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">用意志力告訴精靈</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">對她說謝謝</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">用一個微笑面對著白翅膀的天使</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">就這樣我的心就被這樣的保護著</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">也被這樣的破壞著</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">……</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我該做什麼</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">鼓起勇氣牽精靈的手去她的國度</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">過完沒紛爭的日子</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">還是</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">用我所剩下的力擁抱白色的天使溫暖的身體</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">解除現有的封印</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">還是</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">要讓刀上的毒滲透全身</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">然後毀滅自己</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">……</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我還在掙扎</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">就這樣今晚又睡不著</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">風還在吹著什麼也吹不散</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">……</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">………………………..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">打錯字就</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">抱歉啦</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">感謝看完</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">………………</font></span></p> Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1893839 Thu, 02 Apr 2009 13:55 EST http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1892364 <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">天空有一片黑鴉鴉烏雲</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">下著很細很細的雨</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">今天台北的雨濕濕冷冷</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">思思念念</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我在思念誰</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我還是喝著一杯咖啡吧</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">!...</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">心裡想</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">雨停了再回家</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">但是筆記型電腦電磁的電力只有</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">45</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">分鐘</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">好吧</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">!45</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">分鐘我也用不完</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">同樣是週六</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">但是我沒辦法坐在碧潭了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">……</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">一段心情好難說出口</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">文字表達又找不出從哪下手</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">好吧</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">!</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我決定傳一封簡訊</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她應該收到了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">為什麼那麼不小心的想到她呢</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">這是不了解的自己心中的那領域</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">因為連自己都很難明白</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">敲敲右腦問了一下</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我在做什麼</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">?</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">也許我會知道心裡不明白的那種答案</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">好像說著</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我討論版裡的網友大哥說的一樣</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">太清楚了並不是好事</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">好吧</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">!</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">有些自然一點好</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">強求追問尋找答案的話</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">人也累心也累</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">雨</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">還是下著不停</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">咖啡廳的玻璃窗起了霧</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我在上面畫了個笑臉送給自己</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">隔壁桌的女孩</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">轉身看了那個笑臉</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她也微笑</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她手上拿的小說應該是在寫</span><font face="Calibri"> </font><u><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">海蓮娜。葛瑞斯</span></u><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">　的故事</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">記得這本小說裡的兩個男人只到死都愛著<u>海蓮娜</u></span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我記得這本小說裡有寫給<u>海蓮娜</u>十六封信</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">當時我看到第十三封信時我差一點哭了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">看到第十六封信時我突然感覺眼裡有些些水</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">哈</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我好像太會感動了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">還好那時候是在圖書館的角落</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">但是那種十六世紀的的故事</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">不太適合現代</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">也許我常常把文字上的字語閉上眼睛去造景</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">每一個感覺都融入在那種心情中</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">好像站在<u>囉密歐</u>的旁邊或是和<u>柏拉圖</u>去找亞特蘭提斯</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">桌上手機震動</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">發現回傳的信息</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我又站在多雲的海南島天空下了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">雙眼張開</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">台北的天空依然在下濛濛雨</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">手邊的剩下半杯的熱咖啡</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">早就冷掉了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">有點苦</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">對呢</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">!</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">想想也奇怪</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">很愛吃糖的我喝了咖啡從來沒加過糖</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">突然咖啡廳裡的一個工讀生和我打招呼</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">說</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">~</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">今天怎麼那麼早</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我說沒地方去</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">待回還要上課</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">也許我常常出現在這個地方有些人都認識我了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">哈</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">看到有人背著吉他在巴台點飲料</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">想到昨天呢</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">因為老師在開會</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">7</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">點</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">40</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">到</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">8</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">點多沒有上課</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我在教室裡彈吉他但是沒有在唱歌</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我很自然的第一個起音是給愛麗絲的歌曲前奏</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我好像是拿這個曲子來調音吧</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">這是我習慣動作</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">很多人在聽著我彈的曲子</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">但是大家聽不懂我在彈什麼</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">哈</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">對啊</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">!</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我忘了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">現代人很少在聽古典曲</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">有人說要我彈她聽過的曲子</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">但是他不知道曲名</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">呼</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我最後彈了兩隻老虎的古典版</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">哈</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">有人笑了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">老師也回來了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">也許我只有在彈琴的時候有人願意認真的看我</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">哈</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">是常常吧</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">每次表演完後認識的女孩</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">會常常不小心牽到我的手</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">也許她們只是想牽牽看</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我的手和別人相不相同吧</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">發現我手還要比別人冷的手後</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她們就會放手離開</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">沒什麼</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我的世界本來就是什麼都沒有</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">因為我總是可以笑著面對大家</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">總是可以讓傷心的朋友找我喝酒</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">當我喝的還要比傷心的朋友多的時候他們都會笑</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">常常會跟我說</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">.</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">到底我失戀還是你失戀</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">也許那不是我喝多</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">只是他們酒量不好</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我總是可以唱歌給大家聽</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">總是可以彈琴給他</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">(</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">她</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">) </font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">們聽</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">娛樂的工作我來做吧</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">!</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我能給的只有祝福</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我的世界本來就什麼都沒有</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">誰離去我都習慣了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我的世界裡只有滿滿的祝福</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">誰能承受阿</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">哈</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我一直都知道</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">那種四五百年前的文學作品是不適合現代</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;"><u>莎士比亞</u>是吧</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">?....</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">下個月我還要跟他過沒差幾天的生日呢</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">!</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我好像要去上課了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">天空阿</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">繼續下雨吧</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">85</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">度</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">C(</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">咖啡廳</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">) </font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">再見</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">!</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">隔壁桌的女孩待回和她揮手說再見</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">….</font></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">我再不走就</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">..</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">上課遲到了</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">哈</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: &quot;新細明體&quot;,&quot;serif&quot;">回家後再貼這篇文章</span><span lang="EN-US"><font face="Calibri">…</font></span></p> <p>&nbsp;...................................有錯字的話..又和大家說對不起.................</p> Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1892364 Sat, 28 Mar 2009 09:41 EST http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1891483 “哇….我花了一番功夫才得知你電話. wait a sec!~do …you… know…. me? 我從那個老闆娘那裡得知你的cell phone 號碼!” “Dora~請說中文…別太高估我.我的英文很爛…” “哇~Forsan 你記得我…” 我們的話題是這樣開始的… Dora是ㄧ個我的老朋友…她是美國華僑. 至從她長的比我高之後的第一年她又去美國了… 好久了~幾年沒見到了…這次也沒見到.只通了電話... 她說週六看到了我在謀ㄧ個地方演奏… 我ㄧ演奏完..因為快速離開.所以她來不及和我打招呼… 因為她是和一些同事來台灣談生意…她發掘台上少了一個人的時候. 我應該在家了… 電話一打來說了很多我聽不懂的中文… 我很努力的把她的中文翻譯成中文後…回了很多話… 她說她ㄧ開始以為她看錯了. 既然一個只會打架鬧事翹課的傢伙… 在台上彈鋼琴..(那時主唱休息.鍵盤手也休息. 老闆娘要我彈些流行曲.) 哈~我回說:不行嗎? 她也回說:”以前ROSE以為你永遠不會懂音樂的. 但是,現在的你真的是我認識的Forsan 嗎?....” 她又說:她上個月有到愛丁堡.有到Rose埋葬的地方. 那是哪裡我也不清楚.因為從來沒去過… Rose是ㄧ個我的很好的朋友.我和她很親密. 哈~我都稱她為我的初戀… 但是因為那時只是小朋友不懂得說我愛你吧! Dora她問我好多問題.我都來不及回答. 我好想找她出來和她說話.但是她早上就要離開台灣了… 哈.她說.她明年或是後年會和現在的男朋友結婚. 她說到時記得過去…我和她說再說吧! 我們聊到很多的童年故事…我不清楚那些是好壞… 但是ㄧ切都過去了…我跟她都一起想到很多ROSE的事.. 她很喜歡薔薇.暗紅色的那種… 我只有送過她ㄧ次這一個不吉利的花…因為她要我送… 她每次都彈鋼琴給我聽…我只有聽從來不想學…因為好難… 她很喜歡彈一首叫做給艾莉絲的歌… 在台灣大概是到垃圾的時候垃圾車會播放的歌… 每次都聽到她彈…也是硬要我學的一首歌… 這也是我學鋼琴第一次碰過的弦律… 她說長大了要學會一整首…要彈給她聽.. 不過副歌部份要換掉…然後她說”yes I do” 那時候的我完全不懂.但是現在沒機會彈給她聽了… Dora說那時候的我們好開心~ 為什麼大家現在就這麼分開了.都在一些不同的地方.做一些不同的事 她說她發現自己..這次遇到我的時候他才發現我們都變了… 從來沒想過會靜的下來的小孩.在彈著鋼琴.彈吉他… 想當醫生的DORA在做忙碌的貿易商人… 還有那時候的朋友都在世界各地… 我感覺我們聊了一個世紀的內容. 也許吧~ 那時候的我們剛認識時還在20世紀…. 聊了快三個小時的電話.. 直到她秘書跑來敲她客房說該準備出發我們才做了個結尾! 這是一個回到童年的ㄧ夜.. 我不禁想到那時候的我~哈~ 記得我睡著的時候…ROSE和好多朋友一起慶祝6月18號她的生日呢! 在生日會上我在彈…For Elise… 但是她叫我那時候這首歌早叫我改名了…改成… For Rose 我彈這一首她說只能屬於她…我會彈一整首了…她廳的見嗎? 她一定有聽見…….. 。。。。。。。。。。。。。。又有一堆錯字吧。。。。。。。。。。。 　 Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1891483 Wed, 25 Mar 2009 11:42 EST http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1890568 <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">如果所剩下的是美好的回憶。不想要得到未來。</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">如果電腦螢幕上傳來了訊息。那時候我在想妳。</span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">不想去追尋未來。</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">當然會想把現在冰封永遠保存。</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">誰會給這樣的機會讓ㄧ個人存在、在這世界裡。</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">就像每次跨年、擦身而過的數萬人。</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">最終留下的只是老去的記憶、認得的人還要比十隻手指頭少。</span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">就算美麗的花園後有綠色森林。</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">會害怕過了那個沙丘後會有陡峭山壁。</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">或是害怕掉進綠色草下的澡澤裡。</span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">就算是美麗的綠色森林。</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">心裡害怕的是、美麗的事物因我而顏色鮮豔都退去。</span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">也許只是悲觀的心情嘲笑著自己。但是時間還是流逝去。</span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">最愛遇見的</span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US">MSN</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">裡的人物亮起綠色時、</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">由不得腦袋下達指令～雙手早已打完了、沒意義的ㄧ個話題。</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">只是希望我、被她注意。</span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US">MSN</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">裡的人物灰色的無光時寧靜的夜裡腦袋感覺到無力。</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">不過也是一個心情、我怎麼重重的沉在記憶裡。</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">不過是想要儲存過去、電腦也送我ㄧ個問題。</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體"><img hspace="0" src="http://org102.zorpia.com/0/5159/33019519.4ef3d5.jpg" align="baseline" border="0" /></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">第一次那麼快的十一天內達到記憶上限。</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">但是。</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">過了多久後我還會記得妳。</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">過了多久後你還會記得我。</span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>。。。。。。。錯字多多見諒，我每次打網志都在打瞌睡。哈。。。。。。</p> Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1890568 Sun, 22 Mar 2009 15:55 EST http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1890290 有人就這麼的問起我。我的週末怎麼過。。 我回說：很悠閒的過阿。 對呢～我才想到每次週六都過的很優閒。。。 我一起床就有很多工作要做。 但是我有很多零碎的空閒時間。。。 今天呢。。寫我的週六。。。 早上起床時大概已經是八點了。 電腦上的ＭＳＮ視窗是滿滿的留言。 阿泰～我的工作結束了。請發下ㄧ通信件。 阿泰～我需要程式庫的資源。 阿泰～空間裡放著好多計算題。請幫我算完。。 阿泰～有新的資料維護工作。有興趣就談價錢。。 老師。^_^。明天男朋友休假。我想調課。打給我！ 阿泰～好久不見。有控出來聊。 。。。。。等等等。。。。。。。。。。。。。。 呼！過濾掉不重要的視窗。一一回覆後。才開始向往浴室洗臉刷牙。 一天的早餐很有可能是ㄧ杯牛奶和起士餅乾。 也可能是一杯水和棒棒糖。 早餐的同時我會設定我的電腦一天的工作。 一坐上電腦桌。。我會開啟補助程式。電腦會和我打招呼。 Morning Mr.forsan。（這是我設定好的。） 我會回覆早安。靜葉。 （靜夜是我的電腦。名子是我取的。不過大家習慣叫小靜）。不管。 九點半時我會打開電鋼琴。會有早晨的練習。 十點十分左右，有個女孩會衝衝忙忙的來敲門玲。 （老師對不起我又遲到了。因為昨天。。ｘｘｏｏｏｏ。。。ｘｘ） 通常我會和她說先脫鞋吧！～呼。 過了一個小時後她離開時會給我ㄧ堆承諾。下次不會遲到。 我會每次都會跟她說我相信。就算她從來沒準時過。（哈） 十一點半左右。洗澡！ 我會準備像個樣的襯衫、帶個有花色的頭巾、來不及中餐後出門。 路上我的自動車車需要加油。每一週就這麼加一次。 ㄧ點有要教課。路程需要花一個小時。會經過美麗的地方。 也許路上還會買糖果和想喝的飲料或印教材。 接下來是ㄧ個有山有水的ㄧ個寧靜別墅社區裡教課。 一共會教三個。我的學生裡面最難搞定的三個。 少爺、公主們的脾氣可不是一般人受得了的。 我為什麼能這麼有耐心教他們、我自己都不相信。 可能這幾個小鬼頭實在太可愛吧。（哈哈） 很少見到她們家長、 除了收學費的那天我才能告訴他們幾個裡的其中一個家長、 說他們的學習狀況。 午後的四點鐘。我白天的工作算結束了。 拋開心中的ㄧ切、我會前往一個叫碧潭的地方。 那裡有水、有吊橋、有天鵝船。 街上還會有街頭藝人的浪漫歌聲、有美食街的料理香味和牽手的情侶們。 也可能會遇到畫家在畫那兒的景物。 我會買一合章魚燒和果汁、然後會在水邊的階梯坐下。 這個時間是一週下來最能輕鬆的ㄧ刻。 我可能邊吃邊寫詩、或是打簡訊、或是會在寫信給一些朋友。 如果街頭藝人離我很近的話我還會投５０元台幣先點一首歌。 這裡很美、移動的天鵝船會帶動水浪、涼爽的風會閱讀著思念。 小孩們在玩耍、情侶們在微笑、有時爆米花的起士香味飄在空氣中。 這裡的美景一角有我的存在是填了一點灰灰的色彩。 我會在這裡花到快兩個小時才騎我的小小自動車上路去。 回家的路我會騎的很慢。 到每個公車站我都會看一下、是否有美女在等待公車。（哈） 有認識的女生要是被我遇到了、我可以做個好人。(^__^) 回到家是六點多吧！ 我可能換完包包裡的書本換我要去學校學習。 為什麼週六還要修學分呢？其實我也不想、不過是沒辦法的。 在學校的時間是很孤獨、這個學分裡都是別系的學生、我都不認識。 也沒什麼、每週六都看不同影片、寫不同報告。 沒事的。過慣了就麻醉了。。。。。 八點後放學、我會發現夜幕帶動街上的燈。我以　愛迪生　為傲。（呼） 這時候我很有可能會很少的狀況是、 跑去謀一家酒巴幫人家去當槍手、彈吉他或彈電子琴。 比較多的狀況是我會打電話找人。 我很有可能會約朋友出去找東西吃。 也可能會約個女生陪我共度晚餐。 也可能約個學生談論他的私人事情、當然也是去吃東西。 因為週六的整天要是沒有意外八點前我只有吃過章魚燒和糖果。 吃完東西會逛一下街。 九點半後我會到一家叫花蝶的漫畫館租一本小說。 要走的時候漫畫館的店員還會提醒說、阿泰～後天還喔！（哈） 接下來我會在咖啡廳裡看一小時的小說。 我在這裡會坐在兩人座的位子。 來找我的人會一個換ㄧ個、我也會打很多的電話、 也會算著好多的數學題目、小說有可能連目錄都看不完就會回家。 回到家時ＭＳＮ視窗也可能是滿滿的在電腦螢幕上。 我是一個中介人吧！ 我有很多御宅族朋友。。他們只會在家工作。 他們的工作是資料維護、架網站，做動畫、討論遊戲或程式設計等等。 我會幫他們找工作、他們會付我ㄧ點點的小錢和大量我想要功課上的問題資訊。 這是我另外賺外快的方式。都是不足以我在意的小錢。 可是最近的我多了一個任務、 回到家的那ㄧ刻我可能會先找一個我的ＭＳＮ裡唯一Ｋ字頭的帳號。 因為她等我回來不是為了什麼利潤關係、只是為了和我聊天。 也許會和她聊的很晚。我手邊有很多工作也在一起進行。 一切結束的夜晚。被我發現時太陽已經在準備出門了吧。 我會最後寫下、下一週的行事曆。 鬧鐘設定九點鐘、去刷刷牙。 回房間、把眼睛蓋上、棉被也蓋上。和自己說晚安。 常常就這樣的過完了～我的週六。 可是我很愛週六我是這麼的過。也許我的週末是對我來說最美的。 。。。。。感謝看完這麼多。錯字就對不起啦。。。 Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1890290 Sat, 21 Mar 2009 15:34 EST http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1889389 喂喂、終於有個可以讓我用中文交流的。 你果然常上線了。_ 今天在？ 呀。。忘了說了，我是隨便進的啦。 飄~ 他們爲什麽叫你阿泰老師呢？ 你是教書的？ 哈哈。。。 發表於2009年3月10日 18:46 從這樣的留言中認識了 “歡歡”… 我是怎樣一個人我不清楚。 但是。。她只是隨便進入了我的空間。就這樣的走不出去了。 ｚｏｒｐｉａ空間我ㄧ段時間沒有用了。 只是2009年3月6日 上午2點14分32秒發佈了一個網志。 不久就遇見了。。歡歡 這是ㄧ個在　ｚｏｒｐｉａ空間裡。對我來說美麗的故事吧。 但是不想相信。。我在這裡的真實。 我不知道我是不是能考驗我的定力。。。 因為我每ㄧ天的認識她。多了每一天的快樂。。。 但是我知道。當有美麗的事發生時我就知道這一定只是夢。。。 我害怕一時的衝動。會傷害到別人。也許已經傷害到了。 好想和上帝說。請祢給她好的祝福。不是要拿這樣的東西開玩笑。 2009年3月14日。。。24點04分44秒。。。海南島在下雨。臺北也在下雨。 夜越深聊越多。。多的滴水不漏。。。。。。 2009年3月19日。。。02點26分35杪半夜呢.. 只有我的鍵盤聲。。。無趣。發呆。。。。。。。 Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1889389 Wed, 18 Mar 2009 13:32 EST http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1889277 (第一篇請至2009年3月9日 我的網志) 今天的台北有個大太陽.不去追尋我的心情. 因為.........我不知道我在做什麼..? 要說最近的心情麻...不過在沉溺於電腦桌上的鍵盤... 不管了..又是去了圖書館..靜不下心..又有發來..來至很遠的訊息.. 按了回覆.....傳了一個訊息.... 我知道給自己的理由是逃避... 但是讓我暫時的作一下夢吧.... 想繼續寫完上ㄧ篇文章..回到家裡來.. 找不出確實ㄧ點的心情...但是..雙手已經在鍵盤上待命 好吧!....那只好隨它去吧! 我的世界裡有兩個"珍"... 第ㄧ個 "珍" 不知消失到哪裡去了... 第二個 "珍" 現在和我ㄧ起..在謀大學裡的同一班... 第ㄧ個"珍"她在高一時認識的. 我過了七年的高中生涯..她消失了五年多..不知還在不在台灣. 第二個"珍"她在大ㄧ時認識的. 過了一學期又33天...依然每天都想她... ㄧ個年齡比我大.ㄧ個年齡比我小 ㄧ個很酷........... ㄧ個很靜 但是共通點.她們兩個都在工作.都不看書.而且可以考前幾名 還有.....兩個都是生活白痴 兩個都是電腦白痴 兩個都是有ㄧ樣的笑聲. 兩個的個性都很像... 遇見她們一樣都是因為開學.. 和她們熟悉ㄧ樣是因為迷路.. 會想念她們ㄧ樣是因為她們在生活上的單存.想讓我保護她們... ㄧ樣是因為我太喜歡薔薇...一起撐過的傘兩個人都用了薔薇的黯紅. ㄧ樣都是下著秋雨..ㄧ樣是9月在哭泣... 不太清楚了...好像是2001年9月13日吧! 高中生涯第一次的社團課...走在學校ㄧ樓...只記的我在迷路(哈).... 有個很小的手指頭敲敲我的肩膀...."你知道園藝社..在哪嗎?" 我突然轉過頭看. 第ㄧ個感覺到的是淡淡的髮香...第二個感覺是.又找我問路阿..哈.. 他的眼睛在亂飄時我問了說 "(這次不叫我學長呢..不過又是問路..我長的像路牌嗎?)" "<明明是一隻小鬼..還想要我叫學長阿.不會是你也找不到自己的社團吧!>" "(哈...好像被你猜中了.可是沒有獎喔..)" "<走吧!一起去找..>" 我點了頭跟著她........那ㄧ次的秋風...讓我和"珍"第ㄧ次的這麼靠近... .........................................那ㄧ天雨...................讓我第一次的陪她回家.... 那ㄧ天的我第一次撐過和她一起的傘...那ㄧ天的我..那ㄧ天的她.... ....................................下次寫囉...太多錯字就.對不起囉...去上課............ Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1889277 Wed, 18 Mar 2009 05:31 EST http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1888165 最近ZORPIA裡認識了一個來至大陸的女孩. 不太了解來至大陸的網友..但是.和她聊天卻非常有趣…非常開心… 也許是一個簡簡單單的朋友.認識的不到一週…卻有好多話題可以聊… 一直以來..我認識大陸的網友都是我前輩..教我如何運用程式… 可是這個女孩和我卻是談心…談彼此的自己… 她的首頁上的名是 “晖” 繁體字是 “暉” 夜裡的雨越下越大..聽說“晖”的城市也在下雨… 房間裡唯一亮的是..兩台電腦銀幕… MSN裡聊了很多的很多….我也正在和平常ㄧ樣回覆著好多的信… 她對我的生活好像很想了解…我也是非常想懂她城市裡她的平常生活 我的ai補助程式跳出來和我說… 我你未免聊的太久了…我才開紀錄看..哇….這兩天真的聊了好多…. 她也許不能把MSN當ㄧ個休閒娛樂吧… 她把MSN裡的朋友和真實她的世界混在一起了…. 我也只是電腦螢幕上的虛擬人物… 早上她必須要上課呢!可是..她在床上應該很久才會閉上雙眼吧.. 還有我和她聊完MSN時應該還會去吃東西…. 慘了~我越來越想睡了…………呼 ~ 寫個結尾吧.. 我的世界裡..小珍出現後..好多的變….. 好多朋友的鼓勵… 個性很急的我乾妹…打了我一巴掌(呼)…然後抱著我哭…哈. 有點搞浪漫…被我吵的暈頭轉向的…我學生 小雲.. 不想說了…只說你高興就好的好多朋友… 現在又多了一個….歡歡 這樣比較可愛的說不知發表在網志他會不會生氣… 還有很多的..算筆友嗎?....只會電子郵件的朋友… 哈…和大家說……謝謝. 我有好多人的祝福……所以.心情再怎麼不好..我每天都微笑的過… 不然會對不起大家呢……. ………………………………………..昨晚寫的忘了傳上去…………. Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1888165 Fri, 13 Mar 2009 22:42 EST http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1887224 <p><font color="#ffffff">2009年 3 月 <span lang="EN-US">10 </span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">日</span> <span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">好像也和平常ㄧ樣過</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">回到家了後電腦螢幕的</span><span lang="EN-US">msn</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">視窗裡有一些內容</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff">&nbsp;</font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff">2009/3/10<span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">下午</span> <span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">11:10:46</span><span lang="EN-US"> </span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">從小珍</span><span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">至</span><span lang="EN-US"> ~</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">泰</span><span lang="EN-US">~ <span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">嗨</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff">2009/3/10<span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">下午</span> <span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">11:11:05</span><span lang="EN-US"> </span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">從小珍</span><span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">至</span><span lang="EN-US"> ~</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">泰</span><span lang="EN-US">~ <span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<font color="#ffffff"> </font></span></span></font><font style="BACKGROUND-COLOR: #ff0000" color="#ffffff"><span style="COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">你過得很好吧</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff">2009/3/10<span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">下午</span> <span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">11:11:39</span><span lang="EN-US"> </span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">從小珍</span><span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">至</span><span lang="EN-US"> ~</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">泰</span><span lang="EN-US">~ <span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體"><font style="BACKGROUND-COLOR: #ff0000">天天都在講電話</font></span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff">2009/3/10<span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">下午</span> <span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">11:12:19</span><span lang="EN-US"> </span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">從小珍</span><span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">至</span><span lang="EN-US"> ~</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">泰</span><span lang="EN-US">~ <span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體"><font style="BACKGROUND-COLOR: #ff0000">小心你的電話費喔</font></span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff">2009/3/10<span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">下午</span> <span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">11:13:02</span><span lang="EN-US"> </span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">從小珍</span><span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">至</span><span lang="EN-US"> ~</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">泰</span><span lang="EN-US">~ <span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體"><font style="BACKGROUND-COLOR: #ff0000">我知道你過得很好</font></span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff">2009/3/10<span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">下午</span> <span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">11:13:22</span><span lang="EN-US"> </span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">從小珍</span><span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">至</span><span lang="EN-US"> ~</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">泰</span><span lang="EN-US">~ <span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體"><font style="BACKGROUND-COLOR: #ff0000">早點睡吧</font></span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff">2009/3/10<span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">下午</span> <span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">11:14:52</span><span lang="EN-US"> </span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">從小珍</span><span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">至</span><span lang="EN-US"> ~</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">泰</span><span lang="EN-US">~ <span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體"><font style="BACKGROUND-COLOR: #ff0000">睡覺</font></span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff">2009/3/10<span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">下午</span> <span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">11:15:04</span><span lang="EN-US"> </span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">從小珍</span><span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">至</span><span lang="EN-US"> ~</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">泰</span><span lang="EN-US">~ <span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體"><font style="BACKGROUND-COLOR: #ff0000">晚安咯</font></span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff">2009/3/10<span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">下午</span> <span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">11:15:07</span><span lang="EN-US"> </span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">從小珍</span><span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">至</span><span lang="EN-US"> ~</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">泰</span><span lang="EN-US">~ <span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體"><font style="BACKGROUND-COLOR: #ff0000">掰</font></span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff">&nbsp;</font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">台北今天的天氣入夜後涼風轉換成有一點帶冷的風</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">和平常ㄧ樣口袋裡放著一封信送給屬於我喜歡的女孩</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">至從她交了男朋友後我只是把每天寫的信放在我的書包或是我的皮夾裡</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">再也沒提過我還在寫著這些信</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff">&nbsp;</font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">好難懂的會計學是在我們學校的</span><span lang="EN-US">D</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">大樓第四層上課</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">全班聽課的總人數是</span><span lang="EN-US">…5</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">人以下</span><span lang="EN-US">3%</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">的系學生</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">聽著課的我突然感覺到我左前方的倒下被周公帶走</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">後方</span>2公尺<span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">的兩位已放棄出去抽菸</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">也想放棄的我</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">不好意思沒人聽講台上的老師的課而專注的忍著心中的疑問</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">老師他明白我不懂</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">他又重新的講解ㄧ遍</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">此時我旁邊的她也陣亡</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">就這樣只剩下我ㄧ個人吃著糖撐著不去練睡夢羅漢拳</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">還好在會計分錄的謀一段打了休息鐘聲</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我才趴下去讓神經靜止狀態</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">坐我旁邊的她</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">此時去洗手間洗臉</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">這時候才全班同學的聲音打破了剛才課堂上的寂靜</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff">&nbsp;</font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">再一次打鐘聲響起時</span><span lang="EN-US">.班</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">上已經有一半的同學開始準備聽課了</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">這一刻我旁邊的她</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">拿著我的筆記一頭霧水的看著我</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我正要解釋給她聽時老師開始在講課</span><span lang="EN-US">.. </span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我旁邊的她對著我搖頭是在說她現在不想聽</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">所以我就繼續望著黑板上的粉筆字</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff">&nbsp;</font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">從教室的窗外吹進來的風有點冷</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我不去思索</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">努力去聽完全不懂的這章節</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我身旁的她突然拿走我的書包</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">想尋找什麼吧</span><span lang="EN-US">!</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">一開始問我有沒有漫畫</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">從我書包她拿出來的是</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">一本叫做玫瑰迷宮的書</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她翻開了我放書籤的那一頁</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">書裡正講到伊麗莎白的篇章</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她不想懂</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">因為這本書太厚文字又太多</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">放回書包裡</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她又翻開了前面的小暗袋</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">這也許是我不願意的</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她看到一封信</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我來不及反應...想把它拿回來的時候</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她沒打算要還給我了</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我問了她確定要收這一封信</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她不說話</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">把信收進她的包包</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我每天寫的這些信本來就是給她的</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她收走並不是不對</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">但是</span><span lang="EN-US">,</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她現在有對象交往</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">何必還想知道信的內容呢</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">算了</span><span lang="EN-US">…………………..</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我有一些開心</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">但也有一些不開心</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我只是心裡對她說請勿捉弄我</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">最後一節的鄉土媒體文化課</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我把糖果包裝紙摺成紙鶴</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">放到她桌上</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她拿著在玩小紙鶴...像個小孩</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">突然她把紙鶴拿到唇邊輕輕的吻</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">問我</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff"><span lang="EN-US">“</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">可以把它收起來嗎</span><span lang="EN-US">?...</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">收在我的包包理</span><span lang="EN-US">…” <span>&nbsp;</span></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她在耍我嗎</span><span lang="EN-US">?</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">嗯</span><span lang="EN-US">…..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我接受</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我可以給她耍</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span></font></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體"><font color="#ffffff">放學的那時間她的手扶著我的肩走下樓梯</font></span></p> <p><font color="#ffffff"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她沒有注意班上同學們在看我們的眼睛</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">大家知道她有男友</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我又被當成什麼了</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我不管了</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我只是想見她的笑容</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我對著她說著好多笑話</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">陪她走完回家的路</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她永遠也不會知道</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">笑話裡隱藏的淚雨</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">但是沒關係</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">因為她開心</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff">&nbsp;</font></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體"><font color="#ffffff">古書上寫說</font></span></p> <p><font color="#ffffff"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">如果你能微笑的走過火海</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">就算你的身體溶解於岩漿</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">你的靈魂將永遠能沉睡在最美麗的夢境</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff">&nbsp;</font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">也許我正在走火海吧</span><span lang="EN-US">….!</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">走在灼熱的岩石上面對天空是微笑</span><span lang="EN-US">…..</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff">&nbsp;</font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">回到家後的她</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">看了我的信吧</span><span lang="EN-US">!</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">第一次的</span><span lang="EN-US">MSN</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">上主動留言</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">不太值得紀念</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">不過</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">只要是關於她</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">都是我美麗的紀念</span><span lang="EN-US">………….</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff">&nbsp;</font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">鋼琴上找不出能解釋</span><span lang="EN-US">“</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她</span><span lang="EN-US">”</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">的旋律</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我的世界裡也找不出要放棄愛她的意願字句</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span></font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff">&nbsp;</font></p> <p><font color="#ffffff"><span lang="EN-US">………………</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">也許寫錯一堆字吧</span><span lang="EN-US">!!</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">邊打瞌睡</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">邊寫的</span><span lang="EN-US">……………</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">感謝看完全文</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span></font></p> Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1887224 Tue, 10 Mar 2009 14:38 EST http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1886689 <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">不清除為什麼</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">最近的台北一直下著雨</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">無須我的思索</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我心理的作用是總對著天空找查</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">天氣的變化是世界平衡的必須運作</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">那我的過去也是必須經過的吧</span><span lang="EN-US">!...</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">這些就是自然法則</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">也許讓我會更愛一個人</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">也許會讓我更害怕愛一個人</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">也許讓我變了一個人</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">也許有好多的也許</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">夜裡的思緒總會讓人不禁想起好多的事</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">這時候外頭下著的那些雨滴</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">敲打屋簷的聲音</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">要讓一個人的我好像是會敲出好多的回憶</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">模糊的回憶好像是被現在下的雨水</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">水蒸氣</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">瀰漫籠罩著記憶的玻璃窗</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我用人類所有</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">叫好奇心的無形之手揮開了</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">那片霧雲</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">既然出現了玻璃窗裡的那些冰封的記憶</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">清晰的慘不忍睹</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">有些淚水呢</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">面紙已經把它們消化了</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">記得斜斜下降的雨</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">讓我第一次注意到的是國中剛畢業</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">高一開學的那年</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">還是九月吧</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">新生訓練</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">那不自在的<u>&quot;形式&quot;</u>是把全校新生放在操場</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">用校規折磨沒讀過高中的那時我們這種幼小的心靈</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">學長那拿著機械科的牌子手酸了</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">所以</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">把牌子拿給站排頭的我</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">雨滴從天空降的非常慢</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">打到我臉頰的水滴非常細</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">就這樣站著快要睡著的我突然被人拍了一下</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">聽見</span><span lang="EN-US">.(</span><u><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">學長</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">製圖科在哪</span></u><span lang="EN-US">)</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">無意識狀態下的我</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">傻眼的問出斷續語言</span><span lang="EN-US">…&lt;</span><u><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">學</span><span lang="EN-US">.. </span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">學</span><span lang="EN-US">……</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">學</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">學長</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">叫我阿</span></u><span lang="EN-US">&gt;</span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US">(</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體"><u>不是學長嗎</u></span><span lang="EN-US"><u>…….?</u>)</span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;<u>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </u></span><u>&lt;</u></span><u><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">不是</span><span lang="EN-US">&gt;</span></u></p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>(<u>….</u></span><u><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">對不起喔</span><span lang="EN-US">~</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我去問別人</span></u><span lang="EN-US"><u>….</u>)<span>&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">然後</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她往左邊離開</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US">&lt;</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體"><u>為</u></span><span lang="EN-US">&gt;</span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp;</span>(</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體"><u>阿</u></span><span lang="EN-US">)<span>&nbsp; </span></span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp;</span>&lt;</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體"><u>右邊</u></span><span lang="EN-US">&gt;<span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她轉了身</span><span lang="EN-US"> (</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">什麼</span><span lang="EN-US">..?.)<span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US">&lt;</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體"><u>抬頭</u></span><span lang="EN-US">&gt;</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我用手指給她看</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">各科的牌子都拿很高</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">真不清除</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她低著頭找啥</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US">(</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體"><u>你剛剛為什麼不說</u></span><span lang="EN-US">…)</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">牌子很大</span><span lang="EN-US">~</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她看到了有點害羞</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>&lt;</span><u><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我</span></u><span lang="EN-US"><u>….</u>&gt;</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我指著自己</span><span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp; </span>&lt;</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體"><u>你沒聽完話就走了阿</u></span><span lang="EN-US">&gt;</span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她轉身離去</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">在機械科的斜對面入陣列</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">大概離我兩公尺遠吧</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">紅色的眼鏡</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">超白的皮膚</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">長長的頭髮</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">小小的個子</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她再也沒轉身看過我</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">哇</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我的高中可是花了很多年才畢業</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">只覺得那時候的那一刻</span><span lang="EN-US">…”</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">好美</span><span lang="EN-US">”…</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">正式開學後的高一生涯有人幫我申請了在校打工和免費課後輔導課</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">放學後留在學校上輔導課是那時對我來說自殺還比較</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">簡易</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">可是</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">被班導拖去的狀況下</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">不得不進入那個鬼地方</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">更</span><span lang="EN-US">”</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">虽</span><span lang="EN-US">”</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">的是</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我怎麼坐到那個製圖傢伙的旁邊</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">還有</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她怎麼也來課後輔導</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">非常尷尬</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">那時的畫面</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">一回想</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">好美</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">好像在拍電影一切都很巧</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">也許這是上帝的祝福吧</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">第二次的課後輔導</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我來到了</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">課後輔導教室</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">可是</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">空無一人．．．</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">那個製圖生在教室外</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我們在等待老師的出現</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">沉默著沒有任何聲音</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">時間過了一些</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">突然一個學長出現說</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>”</span><u><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">今天不是在這間教室上課喔</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">你們兩個是不是弄錯了</span></u><span lang="EN-US">”</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我問</span><span lang="EN-US">: &lt;</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體"><u>學長........那你知道嗎</u></span><span lang="EN-US"><u>?</u>&gt;</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">他跟我說要到學務處問</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我問了製圖生</span><span lang="EN-US">…..&lt;<u>為.....</u></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體"><u>要一起去問嗎</u></span><span lang="EN-US"><u>?</u>&gt;</span><span lang="EN-US">&nbsp;</span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US">(</span><u><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">喔</span><span lang="EN-US">…..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">好阿</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">去吧</span></u><span lang="EN-US"><u>..</u>) …</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她笑的好燦爛</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">為什麼呢</span><span lang="EN-US">.?</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">到今天我也不明白</span><span lang="EN-US">……!!</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我們繞了全校</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">東問西問花了二十幾分鐘</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">後來找到了</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">原來這間公立高職那麼大阿</span><span lang="EN-US">…….</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">一到教室口兩個人互看一起笑了出來</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">當然被老師罵的就可以審略了</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">那一天我做她旁邊突然聊到好多話</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">其實她不難溝通</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">哈</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">放學時間我再收著一堆書桌上的東西</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她站在旁邊</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">抬頭問她說你怎麼還沒走</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她說她等我</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">後來我們聊了好多</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">到校門口才發現</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我還不知他的名字</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她也不知我的名字</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">應該說不記得吧</span><span lang="EN-US">..!..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">點名的時候太趕了沒注意聽到</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我和他說</span><span lang="EN-US">….&lt;</span><u><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">叫我</span><span lang="EN-US">~</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">阿泰</span><span lang="EN-US">……</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">那你呢</span></u><span lang="EN-US"><u>….</u>&gt;</span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US">(</span><u><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">哈</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">對呢</span><span lang="EN-US">!</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我們聊了這麼久都不知道對方名子</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我叫美珍</span></u><span lang="EN-US"><u>..</u>)</span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US">&lt;</span><u><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">歐</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">美珍</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我早讀</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">所以你應該比我大吧</span></u><span lang="EN-US"><u>..</u>&gt;</span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US">(</span><u><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我</span><span lang="EN-US">..73</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">年次的</span></u><span lang="EN-US">)</span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US">&lt;</span><u><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">哇</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">比我大三歲呢</span><span lang="EN-US">…..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我以後叫你珍姐姐吧</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">哈</span></u><span lang="EN-US">&gt;</span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US">(<u>對呢...這樣稱呼也是沒辦法...</u>)</span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US">(<u>小朋友.....</u></span><u><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">要一起回去嗎</span><span lang="EN-US">?...</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">你也是住中和吧</span></u><span lang="EN-US"><u>.</u>)</span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US"></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">咿</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">這話好像是我要說的</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">心裡不小心偷笑</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">那天的我約好朋友要出去</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">和她說明天再和她一起回中和</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">和她說再見的同時和她說我以後會叫她</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">珍姐姐</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">哈</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">後來我都叫她</span><span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>“</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">珍</span><span lang="EN-US">”</span></p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">不然就是叫她</span><span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>“</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">姐</span><span lang="EN-US">”</span></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">這是我的第一個</span> <span lang="EN-US">“</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">珍</span><span lang="EN-US">” ….</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">也是我的第一個</span><span lang="EN-US"><span>&nbsp; </span>“</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">真</span><span lang="EN-US">”<span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span></span></p> <p><span lang="EN-US">…………………………(</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">待續</span><span lang="EN-US">)…………</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">太想睡了</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">下次再改錯字</span><span lang="EN-US">…..</span></p> Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1886689 Sun, 08 Mar 2009 14:46 EST http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1885867 <p><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">這兩天</span><span lang="EN-US">~</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">台北的天空夜晚都有雨滴落下</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">情不自盡問了天空是否在哭泣呢</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">牠依然沉默不發一語</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">今天我做了什麼</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">想著回憶在作祟</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">也許今天為她買的ㄧ瓶水</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">讓她感覺到</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">像是我說了</span><span lang="EN-US">………”</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我等你</span><span lang="EN-US">”…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">可是沒想過呢</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我只是想祝福</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">因為我害怕看見別人的傷痛</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我從來不想看見有情侶分手</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">當然也包刮</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她和她男友</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">課堂第三節突然下了大雨</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她問我有沒有帶傘</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我</span><span lang="EN-US">~….</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">忙</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">著</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">抄黑板的筆記</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">口袋裡的最後一顆糖吃完剛好打了放學鐘</span><span lang="EN-US">……</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">走到系上的出口</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我拿了背包裡的暗紅色</span><span lang="EN-US">”</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">傘</span><span lang="EN-US">”…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">用了我的全力擋掉對她非分之想的雨水</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我握著傘</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">卻站在傘外讓雨滴敲打著我身體</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她不知道吧</span><span lang="EN-US">…?....</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">她也忘了吧</span><span lang="EN-US">?...</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">這把傘在去年買的時候和她一起挑的</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">第一次為她撐傘時我們既然靠的這麼近</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">現在只剩下一點一點的零碎回憶</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">在她面前我做了很多讓她開心的動作</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">說了會使她笑的話語</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">怕她孤單陪她走完回家的路</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">離開她視線的ㄧ個轉角</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我像是拿掉了小丑面具</span><span lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">面具下泛紅的眼框裡感覺灼熱</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我喝了一些烈烈的酒</span><span lang="EN-US">…..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">用酒精燒掉了一些神經</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">好像被麻醉的我後來在咖啡廳裡</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">拿出心裡凌亂的感觸</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">慢慢整理後</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">回</span><span lang="EN-US">~</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">家</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">房門打開後發現</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">房間裡堆了一疊厚厚回憶沒有收好</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">和她一起吊的叫貝兒的娃娃好像看著我問她怎麼最近沒來</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我沒有理它</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我就坐到電腦桌前</span><span lang="EN-US">……….MSN</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">裡屬於她的小綠人還是灰灰的沉默</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">但是我坐著的地方我記得她上一次睡著了</span><span lang="EN-US">(</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">哈</span><span lang="EN-US">~</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">很可愛</span><span lang="EN-US">)…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">我坐在旁邊看了她好久</span><span lang="EN-US">.</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">那也是在去年吧</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">於是我悶悶的拿了吉他</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">從書桌找了一個彈片</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">發現是</span>0.6m<span lang="EN-US">m</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">寒假前她送我的木吉他專用刷弦彈片</span><span lang="EN-US">(</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">呼</span><span lang="EN-US">)…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">該要做什麼都不知道的我</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">後來敲敲鍵旁</span><span lang="EN-US">…</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">寫了這篇網志</span><span lang="EN-US">….</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">等有人發現時我早已經正在前往收尋著回憶中的那些快樂</span><span lang="EN-US">..</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 新細明體">也正在等待著夢中的那未來</span><span lang="EN-US">…………..</span></p> Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/jockerforsan/journal/1885867 Thu, 05 Mar 2009 14:14 EST