網誌
2004年7月31日 下午7點07分00秒
afraid of getting back...the whole idea of goin home freaks me out...hard to tell why
2004年7月30日 下午12點20分00秒
finally realize why 圓規 has been sooo popular in many's diaries...it happened to be jst a name of the typhoon which i havnt knew bout it at all...sometimes, minor stuff in hk can be that so out of reach for me, perhaps i jst dun get to know what's happening there way back at home for these six months???
is it i dun really wanna know or i jst too busy to know or i jst dun bother to know? is that only like getting slow internet connection an excuse for me of not updating what's happening in hk? i can be jst so out of touch...i hate tis feelin a lot...ya can be almost like empty there...
in these six months, i have been tryin my very best to know what's happening here in paris, in europe so to integrate life here...so to learn more bout whas goin on here, but the thing is...in the course of adaptin myself to life here, sometimes, i can jst forget bout home..ppl n events happenin way back at home...what does life in hk mean to me afterall?
i luv ppl back at home, of cos i miss them, but the thing is...sometimes, i dun really feel like i'm really keepin touch with them...there're a lot happened in their lives that i hav never heard of, prob too minor to bring em up to conversation even when i got back home for chat...then there i am, has been absent and will still be absent from that part of ppl's life...it really freaks me out...
it's only after a month's trip that i know some of my frds will be travellin around with family or for work when i got back...n some are busy preparin for their thesis or internship, even my sister got a job...gosh, i then feel like, life back home can be that...meaningless n boring...without internship..n stuff...it's kinda like aimless...of cos i wanna learn a lot more stuff like on fine arts, on politics, really needa get to work on my thesis, meetin ppl..but they're nth really great...it's jst sth normal...the thing is...i can only start plannin what i should b doin when ppl almost get their stuff finished n done...i know that i'm goin to take another semester instead of graduatin in the comin year, but that certainly not an excuse of havin a lay back life...so pathetic...i cant really fool around for fun n'more, better get back to sch work..n prepare for my third year...perhaps tis part of the reason why i dun wanna get back home?
2004年7月7日 下午11點38分00秒
so really set off for the trip today, finally giv my keys back to the residence, gosh, i dun really wanna hand them MY keys...tis feeling of leaving paris..jst aches, afterall i've been here for months...actually only for months..still, i so much wanna stay here, it's kinda weird to leave paris..it's kinda homely here...
perhaps tis feelin is so overwhelming that makes me not excited bout my trip at all..especially when ya're always travelling, exploring sth new...getting to other european cities are no longer that exciting, that new, it's jst like part of your life...jst like part of the weekends thrills...plus even when ya're in paris, ya try discover some nice places, restos n stuff, so it's jst very much like travellin..
away from paris means more plannin, more chores, more packing, more money spending, more exhausted before, during and after the trip..sometimes i can get really tensed during the trip, esp when ya dun hav everything confirmed before setting off...those uncertainities sometimes can drive me real crazy...but good that once i get to that place, i will absolutely swirled in it n hav fun there...
lookin back, feel like i really see n learn a lot tis sem, thru travellin. it's so wonderful to get to different places, each of them is so different from one antoher...n ya know what, my bedtime bk is always travel guide in these couple months, always plannin which should be the next stop, where should i go, what sorta fun exhibitions are on, gosh, tis da really good bit of goin exchange when ya dun hav credits transfer...ya can jst fool around with everything? haha
been thinkin where should i go during christmas break, even the new year break already..gosh, kinda bad isnt it? but having tis goal in mind really makes me hav the initiative to work...earn some bucks for my own sake...cos it's real bad to hav your parents sponsoring ya all the time...i think they hav been doin me too much already!!!
and suddenly with tis almost one month trip to go, feel like, maybe when i get back to hk, i should really take a break from travel, enjoy the delights there, meet ppl up and get back to my life...meanin..school, work..n everything that gives ya pressure..hehe
ya really needa work much harder to feel your vacation worthwhile..cos if ya've been playin all thru, vacation doesnt sound that fascinatin n'more
2004年7月6日 上午2點51分00秒
gosh, so sick of packin, how come i've got tis many???? i've been askin ppl who come over, frds n family to take my stuff back hk, still I"VE GOT TONNES here
hmm..am i really buyin too much durin these six months??? 
pathetic...can sby pls tell me HOW TO PACK effectively, efficiently, economically?
effectively: given the limited number of weight i can take on plane, space cos no more bags left
efficiently: hav packed for days, still...i havnt finished the whole thing, plus i'm leaving early tis thursday morning...
economically: dun really wanna buy those mailin boxes from the poste office...it's soo expensive, n that small!!!
SOS!!! 
2004年7月3日 下午7點23分00秒
THEN i finally get to read tis higly-recommended book by my frd, actually i get quite a lot of books these days, especially now that i'm free in my room..yes, still in paris, cos my itinery got some changes, my frds are not comin over, instead we meet up only in budapest, so makin me stuck in paris for another week before setting of for my trip...
sometimes, ya dun really know if tis the good thing or not, now that frds hav all gone back home, or currently all travelling, basically, i'm stuck in paris, without any ppl/dinner/parties/alcohol/or whatsoever that ya can think of, nope, not even being tour guide showing ppl around how come paris is really that wonderful et incroyable..
the really remaining pour moi a paris is to shop...pas pour maself...but for ya guys, i try get something...but the thing is..even after "soldes" sales the parisian call it, the prix is still rockin..ya jst cant believe how expensive things are here..as now that i'm pennyless, what i basically do is to fetch a couple books...believe it or not, books here can be real cheap..hmm..not english books tho...ya can use 3 euros, now that they got promotion, or even 2 to fetch yaself a decent livre en francais...whatever, i try get eng books nwaz, cos after my own math way, they're still cheaper comparin to the difficulty that ya got those titles back at home
so, here we go, another stack of books, in french and english, even after i asked my mom to get 30 books after my london trip back home days ago...i got bks piled again..pathetic...meanin, all my money needa go for books..n yes..the new cell..gosh, i jst bascially broke my cell...n i hate maself so much..cos i really dun wanna get a new one here in paris...i wish someone in hk can jst send me a new cell...thru dhl..it's cheaper n it's more state-of-the-art-hi-tech model..
nwaz, let get back to the track, yes, i actually hav sth to say, bout tis book that i'm currently reading...i dun really find that interesting at first, so i actually start to question tis standard et taste of my frd, then when i'm now moving on to the deuxieme partie, i finally understand why my frd so much likes it..
it talks bout how tis author tried learn french, first in normandy, et puis a paris...it's a painful experience pour lui..oui, thas exactly what i've been gone thru in the past six moins..it's such a painful experience...like how unbelivable a system to assign dead objects with sex when they cannot fulfill tis notion of sex! the writer goes on, describin some really-pissed-ya-off behaviour of the french...and then, there's another chapter, sayin how he likes the french theatre tho...he finally ends that chapter saying, "i love paris"
yes sometimes it's kinda bad to live in paris, when ya cant speak the language fluently... and sometimes, it's jst so difficult for you to stand the french for tonnes of stupid ways.. but the thing is, there're still a hell lot of good things here, the theatres, the musees, the expositions, the environment, everything..
in another chapter, he goes on writing sth like when his frds came over for a visit, he tried show them his usual parisian way, like goin to theatres for american movies...then his frds will complain, ya can do tis way back home n suggest goin to notre dame instead...on second thought, he found that at home, he would never sit in the theatre for an old american movie at home...sometimes, that happens to me, i may go to theatres for some old movies, those ya prob can fetch the vcds in a much chaper price back in hk, but the thing is, ya can never enjoy it as much as watchin in a theatre..then ya may do a lot of things when ya CAN do it in hk, but the thing is, every experience in paris is jst so different, yet wonderful than what ya can get at home
think tis not a bad way for me to sum up my six months in paris, by reading the book, walkin in paris before leaving in the coming days...hmm..tho the next time when i get back ...is on july 30, tryin to fetch my luggage, et puis head straight to the airport for the flight back home..i dun even hav 24 hours to stay in paris, downtown paris, to get the last glimpse of the whole city where i hav spent the last six months