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2004年4月27日 下午4點09分00秒
made up ma decision today after talking to ma professor on tis eu thing...
i'm sending the application to the faculty back in hong kong for this exchange study programme to den haag, the netherlands, the hague univeristy for the european studies programme. cos i really feel like doing exchange for one more semester to really learn more on european union, i jst find this area so interesting n so fun!...hmmm..of cos it can be very complicated..but then what i find is that...one sem exchange is never enuv...
yet i duno if the faculty let me do tis thing of cos, as the deadline has actually passed...tis time, i really wana go for tis programme...i really wanna learn n hope tis can help ma path, be it academic in fostering ma understanding towards the subject matter or be it career fa future...in getting a job in europe...or even back to mainland, hk of cos, i really feel like plannin sth fa ma life..
tis time, da feeling to get tis exchange is very much different from last time that i wanna go to france..last time, it was like, i really wanna go n hav fun, really wanna hav this experience of exchange, then doing sth on politics sounds nice, n da idea of learning eu thing is so fascinating, getting to a top sch in europe also sounds great, but thas not really for sch work, much more fa fun instead...
but tis time, i really wanna go exchange for ma studies...for ma future..cos i really find that i'm so intimidated in front of europe...n how small n sometimes, insignificant hk can be...so last time, it was like it doenst really matter pour moi si i can get tis exchange or not...but today, when i sent every email back hong kong...i find out that i'm really so worried bout the result whether they let me do tis exchange or not...
so...gimme luck
...i really need it tis time...
if i can really get tis chance, i will be like goin for another semester from august to january....so when will i be home?
tis idea of goin home and goin to study in dutch...becomes really a dilemma...perhaps wait till i get the reply from faculty, it's pointless for me to think bout all these...and worry bout all these, if they dun let me cos i dun observe da deadline, it's no poinf for me to plan all these
2004年4月26日 上午2點27分00秒
alrite, so why da hell that everyone jst keeps talkin bout self-discipline all of a sud?
cant we be jst like...gone crazy fa a while, fool around a bit..bet that i'm so far away from hk...so that i cant really feel that need to discipline maself
2004年4月25日 下午1點54分00秒
went fa a french movie today..no subtitles...crazy!!! i actually wana watch monster at first, but feel like doin a bit french movie instead, cos ya cant really get that in hk, so i jst hav tis feeling like, try out no matter what, no matter how much i can get from da lang there, no matter how little that i can actually understand da movie, whatever, duno why tis urge comes so sudden..alrite, i have tried sth NEW FOR DA FIRST TIME today AGAIN..premier fois pour un film francais...c'est fou...mais le film n'est pas bon!!! so kinda feel like wasted money? peut-etre...anywaz, i think that movie is really very french typical movie that we can get in hk..sometimes, fr movies showin in hk are like...only the blockbuster here in paris..so here i go, at least watch a blockbuster which i know it's not goin to show in hk, cos too french fa hk ppl..so at the end, turn out i can still understand basically what's goin on in da movie...but i guess i hav still missed out some of da good lines there..da ending is a bit bizare...but tis cinema is actually very nice..esp thas a noon showing..not many ppl, bon!
oh one bad thing is that..they dun hav subtitles...basically, cinema in france is like..if ya got version originale...i.e. movie en anglais..english, then ya got french subtitles..but if ya got version francais, basically, ya dun hav any words n subtitles on da screen..very different from hk..then tis makin me all da more difficult to comprehend the lines..so in a way...i'm thinkin to retreat to english movies...alrite, but i hav promised maself to learn french in a even more hard workin facon...so...what i'm thinkin now..is...version oringinale should better reserve later..when i back hk to get the vcds, esp watching movie here is still kinda expensive when i dun hav that carte illiminite...so bad!
then finish one preparation on the expose sur le proposition pour une vacance, tis pour ma cour francais...at least did accomplish sth!!!FINALLY!!!! cos i'm like..still in tis holiday mood after easter...should be one week AVANT easter, in a more precise manner, then after a week that i hav back, still in tis fool around mood n always go out for fun mood..but duno why after chatting with roommate yesterday nite, feel like i really gotta work harder, jst harder on sch work..actually it's me doin da talkin, not that she's askin me to work hard..but jst feel like...getting maself another promise..cos time's runnin out here in paris, i really wana learn more in sciences po which, at times, parfois...haha, is a good poli sch! so i'm gettin maself tis habit of reading newspaper in english n francais for like three hours again...biting every bit of eu news, cos ma classmates are real crazy, they jst know everything bout eu..prob cos they're europeans??? n they're so conscious bout da name of tis sec n that sec, tis commissioner or that, tis finance ppl n that..oh gosh, i jst feel so intimidated again..so committing yaself to work hard put me back to class..or at least really pay attention to ma classmates' opinions again...then it's like..makin yaself to work hard prone to another whirl of...depression? haha, but i'm very okay, i guess i'm really crazy...cos i like difficult stuff!!!!!! A LOT!!!! i feel i hav learnt so much jst today!!!!!
the french movie, the conference, the dictionary, the composition, the exposee..gosh...i cant go out tmr nite fa da pub thing which i hav promised maself, cos i havta really revise fa ma gallop, tho it's only twenty mc questions on wednesday at eight...but tis test is in french...on eu law..n i want maself to do good in tis course, cos i really luv tis course a lot..actually when i recieve those spam email from faculty days ago bout tis exchange programme to den haag...i really wana go..cos i find europe is really a place to study eu stuff..n particularly, eu law stuff...gosh..cant imagine maself being in luv with tis super fuzzy stuff...feel that life becomes once again..avec but!!!(with aims) reminding me tis column from financial times leisure page...of having da columnist askin ppl around tis question, "ARE YOU AMBITIOUS?"
anywaz, one good thing today apart from da busy sch work stuff...is that i finally, almost, get ma plan to amsterdam DONE! one day in den haag, another day in heiden, then bascially three days in amsterdam, TIS MAKES MA TRIP..so much wish that i can get to rotterdam as well...alrite, but tis french exam makin me not being able to go as planned..n makin me getting a more cher bus tics sans discount! 
alrite, oh yes, n i finally fix up ma grand tour europeene pour tis ete!!! find out a lot of german cities are on ma list instead! haha, perhaps thas cos i can speak german that ppl understand? haha
better sleep now..another nine o'clock class tmr...mornin sch..gosh i hate it..oh btw, after years in college of wakin up late n sleepin late...stayin in paris actually get me a bit healthier life of having bed at around 1..da latest usually..and wake up at 7 for school...incredible!
2004年4月24日 下午1點21分32秒friday nite~~ so went to movie in tis...
friday nite~~
so went to movie in tis eastern part of paris in bérault, it's actually zone 2 of paris, not really da city there, n it is actually almost to the cheatux of vincennes, so at first i was thinkin like what da hell is tis place???? n how can ya get a cinema there????
alrite, but as tis friend of mine usually can get ya nice places, so i really jst go n c what r we goin ta hav,
actually it's a very quiet neighbourhood, very suburban, very tranquil, it's so peaceful, not da dangerous paris that ya usually hav, or da forever smelly métro, forever dog shit on da street, so pretty nice, then we walked there for a few minutes, here we go, a very small cinema house, n we had tis movie, tho it had been showin for long, only runaway jury, it's kinda good a movie, john cusack plays pretty good, jst as usual, n rachel wiesz bien sur!! yes n da plot is good, tis reminds me i actually had tis book on ma bkself which i never meant to finish it, haha, bet i will go finish da book when i back hk haha
2004年4月24日 上午1點59分00秒
okay, finally get da bus tics booked n so does da hostel, only waiting da hostel response! good, really feel like doin sth hahah, yeah, amsterdam, j'arrive hehehhe
