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2003年12月22日 上午3點43分00秒feel super borin at hall, dun wana start...
feel super borin at hall, dun wana start revising rm at all..only finish the first two chapters, talkin bout silly mean, mode, sd..Z score thing, i hate it...better move on to those trouble correlation coefficient thing..gosh, ma progress is like far from efficient..cos i end up tidy up ma room, reading novels, eating...good that i'm still awake..very quiet at hall now, even in dee afternoon..which i dun like, make here a place so cold..esp when tracey's not here..so no mood to study...but better work hard...tis my last subject to go ...................................................................................................................................................
perhaps da most successful thing that i hav accomplised tis weekend...ha is like finish da read...of blur, pretty thrillin one, think tis would be nice to turn it to a movie..da writing style..the setting, the development, all sounds too much like a movie, those suspense they're givin ya...n especially de ending..a good read, really cant get me off from the book..it's like a spend yesterday nite..should be tis early mornin..n tis afternoon ta finish off da book...haha feel good after reading a bk, as always...i can never read tis fast n concentrating on ma stat txtbk!!!!!!
forget it, better move on with life...dun stick into da imagined world...n dun liv in da past, n dun even try to dig up what happened in da past, it ruins ppl's life...esp when everyone is moved on with his life...tis what da book's tryin ta say..perhaps jst leave it there, ppl dun wana be disturbed bout da past when they hav moved on with their life..it's no good ta be nostalgic...n perhaps things in da past, should be better left...blur...as blur as it can be.....................
yes, i finished reading "blur"
2003年12月21日 上午6點03分00秒so every where is like so full of christmas...
so every where is like so full of christmas mood...but when i'm stuck in ma room..cant feel anything christmas at all...but goddamnborin RESEARCH METHOD txtbk...
when i try read those lines of ma bk, then suddenly think of christmas..get lost of what christmas is really bout...it's like...ppl jst celebratin it for da sake of celebrating it...n i only like..hav ta recall from ma subconscious, then finally remember that it's actually like celebratin jesus' birthday...it's like i havnt thought bout him..or i should use it instead rite?...anywaz, havnt thought bout tis jesus thing since i left high sch...duno why, i always like de idea of sayin prayer..real peaceful..then no more hymns these days...i used ta enjoy those kinda stupid christmas drama we've got haha, think thas really make da whole christmas, CHRISTmas...ha ya know what, i used ta be those little angel for da christmas drama in primary one...haha, n there's like those sheep in form one christmas celebration drama..haha, actually...degradin rite..from angel to jst sheep
hmmm....hav tis weird thought...when we do da count down thing from christmas eve ta christmas...we should sing a birthday song for jesus rite? n instead of turkey...we should hav birthday cake rite??? ha duno which flavour jesus like??? chocolate? with mousse?
see, i'm real crazy with tis stat thing...ha, anywaz, wish all my frez a very merry christmas
2003年12月19日 上午5點43分00秒liv as if there's no tomorrow! i really mean...
liv as if there's no tomorrow!
i really mean it
then ya will find ya still hav a lot to accomplish, life is jst so fantastic, then ya really dun hav time ta care what da hell tis world can be at times...n it's life every day is a brand new day, a brand new page fa ya ta paint colours on it, dun say i'm lo tou, i'm serious, real serious bout tis
these days when i'm preparin for da exchange, suddenly realize there'll b like...leavin in a month's time, (he, forget ma math, tis a rough count) i know i'm leavin only for half a year, ta be precise five n a half months, n i'm comin back, (i dun want tho! ha, will be great ta travel around europe before comin back, still plannin da route, n of cos, savin money! negative progress tho) gosh, but it's like...not much time leavin fa ma friends n family..b honest, i duno why i got tis idea of dyin...like finishin all da stuff before ya leave, ta take of tis n take care of that, spendin more time with sby or anybody ya know....n when i back from fr, then its like i'll be in year three, oh gosh...not more time for foolin around, leavin a year only, so really wana play hard n hav a life in a month's time, spend good time with ma friends here, learn sth, hav fun...
i dun like leavin n i dun like sayin goodbyes, i jst hate it, then its like when ya leave, then ya will lose some friends...they may only b causal friends tho...it's a pity, really, then its' like when ya back, it's a different world, a very different world..at least quite a distant world..afterall, those ppl ya're currently in touch...are somehow unreachable ta ya...
i always wonder what would be like when i get back...(stary worryin for tis n that even when i'm in hong kong, stupid enuv)
perhaps tis jst ma stupid thought..perhaps i jst got tis sorta feelin cos..i actually feel panic-stricken when i need ta go ta fr, gosh, all by maself...can ya imagine that??? esp when ya can rely only on ya own n take care, if it can be, take good care of ma life...it's too much ta cope with everything...all of a sud, which is jst so difficult...n that gotta be in french! c'mon....
perhaps tryin ta find accomodation..tryin ta get da best deal fa ma air tics...tryin ta get everything done...is jst too fuzzy stuff ta deal with...tis really gettin me mad!!!
anywaz, whatever, should be good that i got tis chance ta look back n look forward...jst wana accomplish more before i leave, hehe
2003年12月16日 下午9點06分00秒reelee wana go out n hav some c'mas shoppin...
reelee wana go out n hav some c'mas shoppin tis year..
reelee wana buy sth fa c'mas...fa maself...whatever!
reelee wana decorate ma room, ta make it havin c'mas mood..cos like i'll prob be last time ta stay in da room with tracey! then i'll leave fa france....n when i'm back, she grad la..n i might not b able ta get back ta stay in hall...gum...so
reelee wana spend a good time with tracey...
hmmm...and it would be great if i can hav...
a suede album..sigh....da last one....yes, ya're rite..i still havnt bought tis...feel good ta listen...it boots me up, v good fa c'mas, fa ma c'mas...ha, ma chongmate gigi always says those music i listen ta..is like...always hahah..wewewoowoo gum...anywaz
then would be great ta hav...
a scarf...even more fantastic if someone can knit one fa me...real warm ar...so anyone who happen ta know how ta knit, LET ME KNOW hehe:P
hmm...a good read, NOVELS i mean...haha, wana get a bit of LIFE
yes of cos, a good movie...not those hollywood one la of cos...wana watch sweet br lite movie..which i'm not talkin bout luv actually...not that i dun wana watch tis..but i wana hav sth quiet..peace...tranquil...would b real great if it can create certain like a still moment in ma life...n hav sth ta chew...so anyone has suggestion...pls tell me~!!!!
as well...wana take some good pics....these days...feel like takin pics...think up of a couple ideas ta work on...yea...leave it after exam...wana sharpen ma lens..not only da camera lens...wana learn how ta take proper pics before goin ta fr...
then...of cos wana spend time with ma friends...and my FAMILY...my dad n mom...yea, of cos there's still ya, ma dear sis...wana go ta a real good dinner...hei i got tis suggestion...what bout go ta buffet together? it's like we, all four of us, havnt been really out fa long..we used ta go buffet when we were small nae hehe...
yea what else.......ma list is actually almost filled...
what can ya expect when ya can do all de above rite? ha..really wana try these all out in sem break..yea real long sem break till feb hehe
2003年12月16日 上午9點00分00秒feel damn bad after today's bio psy exam...go
feel damn bad after today's bio psy exam...gosh, it's like i rush thru those mcq, 70 questions in jst around 15 mins...gosh...so must made many careless mistakes..cos i simply cant afford ta spend time ta double check....then there were three short essays...with one, answered damn bad..cos like havnt written anything down at all..feel super bad...afraid cant super pass...sigh....
then suppose go ta soc room ta study, but at de end, go to lib, cant imagine there are really a lot ppl there, but i dun like da mood of studyin there....too quiet, n jst too warm...so easy ta fall inta sleep...i prefer soc room n even ma room nae...much much better..cog psy, ma second last exam n ma last exam tis week...jst now when i tried flipped thru da page...duno a thing about it!!! shit....real afraid...