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2008年7月21日 下午12點15分52秒Photo Snapshots...18th July 2008
Today is my first time ever to be my dear's model.... Keep smiling looking at the camera... The more I took, the more my eyes feel tired due to the flash... But deep in my heart, yee felt very happy... Observing dear's eagerness enthusiasm to capture nice snapshots of mine, most of all is to feel dear's satisfaction when he managed to take a good one :)
I don't really like to pay installment to buy anything de... it's like purposely obtaining a debt on myself....BUt now...worth de le! when i see my dear 's handsome look wearing the camera, when I see the pictures which my dear captured... i know then...i would not regret to buy this camera with dear dear!
2008年7月14日 下午5點01分48秒How long U would want to live ??
How long U would want to live ??? till 50 yrs old? 80? or 100?
Grandpa just past away today... I just finished with all those Buddha ceremonies: praying & singing...He'll be buried on Wed 1pm...So I will get back to work on Thurs...
All my relatives are back...including aunt in New Zealand, uncle from Ipoh. I think this is a worth moment whereby my grandpa get companion from all his sons & daughters..grandson & granddaughters...everyone is here singing for him...It's a reunion moment for us since long time ago....really long long ago since we get to reunite like today....
I had nightmares before... I dreamt of my grandparent past away...but it was my grandma instead! Tears just fell off like rain ! The feeling is so real that I knew that I would not be able to see my grandma forever....It was pain feeling to me..! Maybe I feel so sad coz I cant accept the fact tt she'll leave me like this! But my grandpa case is diff...My grandpa died after he suffered from sickness for bout 5years..Ya, undeniably i am not really close with my grandpa tt's y I wont feel tt sad, but i felt tt it would be a relieve for him to get rid of the sickness...
To myself, how long I would live? Men died faster than women...This is what I saw in my grandma, grandma's young sis, & other relatives case.. I might be very selfish...but I just hope that I would die earlier than my dear...I cant tolerate the pain of losing him... I dunno how long i'll live and the meaning of me staying alone... No way!!! I wont hope much, If my dear will die at 60 yrs old...Let me die first... Dear, sorry if I am selfish...