Finally it’s time for him to go.
I understand that he had to make a choice.

I pretend to smile even though it hurts so bad,

Love, I can only feel it in my heart.
Finally, I have to let him go.
From now on, he will probably have a better life and I wish him happy.
You, please, follow his dream as he wish.
Even though I am sad but I will bear the sorrow.
At least, he’ve made me know the taste of happiness,
and it was good enough for me to be the one he once loved.
I have to understand. We were born to once have had loved each other
but at the end, it isn’t like what I was dreaming. I have to get over it.
Lives that we shared were hung on a thin thread,
in which we didn’t know when it would break.
Now that he’ve found a better course and would like to start a new life,                                  

~~~~This may is my last memory,YeS ! cause next year I wont work here and u know what I want to record ? There are many things happened in my life this year and something made me feeling HAPPY J ,How much lol?yes SOOOOO MUCH !especially about my love although it was occurred shortly time but it taught me and made me to know what true love is ,love that never had border.You may think I’m insane or crazy or blind with the imposible love but I’s not ,it was happened with my sensitive feeling REALLY.I’m not a cristian gurl ,I’m buddhism but I believe that our gods confered or gave the love to everybody in the world.Love is 2 people have good feeling together and yes!I have good feeling to him ,I don’t know same why I feeling that though I had neva met him before but my feeling said that .He is the one of my best guy J .There are 2 gentlemans who I trust them.First lol,of course he is my lovely dad and second ,YES J you know who he is.He is the guy who made me to know about true love .I may used the love like a waste but when I met him,and I know that still have true love for me.Some one asked me how I feeling love him ,I don’t know but like I said before !my feeling!I’d never love someone like him before .HONEY ,you’re bats now lol!Now it passed 2 months ago that I’m still single but I’m ok .You know I still remember every words ,remember everytime that I had him,remember all of poem and text that he always sent to me ,I neva delete it all,it’s still in my inbox ‘s phone .I had neva forget it,as well as his nice voice .And u know I’m memorizing with my tears but this’s not sadness tears .the tears for good things and good feeling.i’m not angry or hate him that he left me ,never really.Because of we both have future .He have to has his future and me same.We shouldn’t to hold someone back,if I hold him back,that means I’m so selfish but because I love him ,so I need to see him has good future .And now we’re both good friendship together.I just want to say something with him ,but I don’t want make him to trouble .i’m afraid that our relationship will end again so let me to keep it only in my mind,only me enough cause it’s my little happy life.Tell you honest,I still love him from now ,he’s in my mind. Is it not wrong I still love him no matter how far we are?But although he don’t want me to him ,never mind cause I’m willing and cordial to give him cause these are everything from my heart .~~~~~

~~~~&& J I DON'T WANT TO BECOME LAST ONE OF HIM COS I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH. JUST SEE HIM THAT ENOUGH AND I DON'T WANT TO BE NUMBER ONE IN HIS HEART. I DON'T HOPE TO BECOME OF HIS LOVER JUST HAVE HIM TO GET MY LOVE THAT FINE. DOESN'T MATTER~~~~$**$J