不經不覺已經9月啦! 今年好似過得特別快. 而家好懶寫BLOG啦, 可能亦沒有太多特別事發生, 所以都沒有動力去寫. 今個夏天去得特別多遊船河, 去海灘都比上年多. 而家一星期都會去做一次GYM, 今年都覺得整個人都健康了. 今日亦試了玩打拳, 又幾好玩喎, 出了一身汗, 感覺好舒服. 哈哈! 可以諗諗學這個玩意.

工作上現在已放下壓力, 因為再沒有動力要我去跑數. Commission 一d都唔好, 咁辛苦都唔知為咩, 我寧願開開心心做好本份便算. 一時一樣的老闆, 上司實在太難頂. 其實真的開始覺得對住日本人上司, 客好累, 好煩. 漸漸覺得好厭倦. 我想我開始明白為何很多識講日文既人都不太想再用日文工作, 原來真的會厭. 再過多1-2年我想離開同日本人的環境.

最近都聽到身邊很多朋友結婚的消息. 甚至從facebook都知道很多中學同學都結婚了. 都覺得他們很幸福, 很幸運, 亦很羨慕. 能夠找到一個可信任, 重視自己而且願意陪伴一生, 真的很不容易. 能做到相親相愛, 坦誠信任, 甚至什麼都已對方為先真的很難. 當然人是沒有十全十美, 但肯願意用心為對方, 遷就又有幾多人做得到呢? 人往往都是自私, 這個我已經看化, 因為我已領教過很多. 現在的處境, 很多時都很無奈, 亦令我對未來很迷茫, 因為我都不清楚有沒有未來. 有想過放棄但還未有這個決心. 我需要的安全感, 安穩...... 在那裡呢? 可能我的位置, 我的一切始終還是一個點綴吧! 有了生活精彩一點點, 沒有亦無傷大雅.

雨　不停落下來
花　怎麼都不開
儘管我細心灌溉　你說不愛就不愛
我一個人　欣賞悲哀
愛　只剩下無奈
我　一直不願再去猜
鋼琴上黑鍵之間　永遠都夾著空白
缺了一塊　就不精采

緊緊相依的心如何Say Goodbye
你比我清楚還要我說明白
愛太深會讓人瘋狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己　完成你的期盼

把手放開不問一句Say Goodbye
當作最後一次對你的溺愛
冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管
只要你能愉快＊

心　有一句感慨
我　還能夠跟誰對白
在你關上門之前　替我再回頭看看
那些片段　還在不在
只要你能愉快

What a long time I didnt update my journal. It's already few months.

Well well. I had a very happy birthday this year. Organized a big party and got 20 friends to celebrate with me together. Got 2 cakes and many present. Really thanks all my lovely friends and really really really had a wonderful b-day this year. Hahaha... wellwell, I drunk this year but anyway it's really a good moment.

One more updated news, I changed my job again 2 months ago. Same field, same job, the company is much more better this time. I really hope can stable here for at least 2 years. Busy everyday and I really feeling I am WORKING now. Not only bored in office and play msn. I really didnt have much time to play MSN now and it's really a good sign for me. I really can say I have to motivation to go to work now. heehee

July is comming soon, it's seems 2009 year is comming too. Me.... still the same, seems nth improved. Still cant feel like have a stable relationship. I am good at JOB MATCHING as a consultant, however I really dont think I am good at PPL MATCHING in my life. Seems I always got the wrong match in these few years. WOWOWO..... I really dont like this feeling and why always need to lie soo much! Hide soo much! Is that LOVE? Really feel tired sometimes. Well, anyway, I guess I will know the truth soon.