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alican520çš„ä¸»é http://hk.zorpia.com/alican520 Tue, 22 Dec 2009 14:26 EST Tue, 22 Dec 2009 14:26 EST Zorpia.com IT IS U THAT I HAVE LOVED http://hk.zorpia.com/alican520/journal/1743772 there is something that i see ä»Žä½ çœ‹æˆ‘çš„çœ¼ç¥žä¸ in the way you look at me æˆ‘å‘çŽ°äº†ä¸€äº›ä¸œè¥¿ there s a smile ä½ çš„çœ¼ç¥žé‡Œå……æ»¡äº†å¾®ç¬‘ there s a truth in your eyes å’Œä¿¡ä»» but an unexpected way ä½†æ˜¯ä»¥ä¸€ä¸æƒ³ä¸åˆ°çš„æ–¹å¼ on this unexpected day åœ¨æ„æƒ³ä¸åˆ°çš„ä¸€å¤© could it mean this is é‚£æ˜¯ä¸æ˜¯å°±æ„å‘³ç€ where i belong ä½ æ˜¯æˆ‘çš„å½’å±ž it is you i have loved all along æˆ‘ä¸€ç›´çˆ±ç€çš„å°±æ˜¯ä½ it s no more mystery æ²¡æœ‰æ¯”è¿™æ›´ç¥žå¥‡çš„äº† it is finally clear to me æœ€åŽæˆ‘æ˜Žç™½äº†ä¸€åˆ‡ you re the home my heart ä½ æ˜¯æˆ‘å¿ƒçµçš„å½’å±ž searched for so long ä½ æ˜¯æˆ‘ä¸€ç›´æ‰€è¦å¯»æ‰¾çš„äºº and it is you æ˜¯ä½ i have loved all along æˆ‘ä¸€ç›´éƒ½çˆ±çš„äºº there were times i ran to hide ä»¥å‰æˆ‘è¿˜åŽ»æŽ©é¥° afraid to show the other side æˆ‘å®³æ€•æŠŠå¦ä¸€é¢å±•ç¤ºç»™ä½ çœ‹ alone in the night without you åœ¨æ²¡æœ‰ä½ çš„å¤ç‹¬çš„å¤œæ™š but now i know just who you are ä½†æ˜¯æˆ‘çŽ°åœ¨çŸ¥é“ä½ å¯¹æˆ‘æ„å‘³ç€ä»€ä¹ˆ and i know you hold my heart æˆ‘çŸ¥é“å æ®ç€æˆ‘çš„çµé‚ finally this is where i belong è¿™æ˜¯æˆ‘æœ€åŽçš„å½’å±ž it is you i have loved all along ä½ æ˜¯æˆ‘ä¸€ç›´éƒ½çˆ±çš„äºº it s no more mystery æ²¡æœ‰æ¯”è¿™æ›´ç¥žå¥‡çš„äº† it is finally clear to me æœ€åŽä¸€åˆ‡éƒ½æ˜Žç™½äº† you re the home my heart ä½ æ˜¯æˆ‘çš„å¿ƒçµçš„å¯„å±…åœ° searched for so long æ˜¯æˆ‘ä¸€ç›´è¦æ‰¾å¯»çš„ and it is you æ˜¯ä½ i have loved all along æˆ‘ä¸€ç›´çˆ±çš„äºº over and over ä¸€æ¬¡åˆä¸€æ¬¡ i m filled with emotion æˆ‘æ»¡æ˜¯æ¿€æƒ… your love, it rushes ä½ ç»™æˆ‘çš„çˆ± through my veins åœ¨æˆ‘çš„è¡€æ¶²é‡Œå¥”æ¶Œæ¾Žæ¹ƒ and i am filled æˆ‘é™¶é†‰äºŽè¿™ with the sweetest devotion ç”œèœœçˆ±æƒ… as i, i look into å½“æˆ‘çœ‹ç€ä½ your perfect face ä½ é‚£å®Œç¾Žçš„é¢é¢Š it s no more mystery æ²¡æœ‰æ¯”è¿™æ›´ç¥žå¥‡çš„äº† it is finally clear to me æœ€åŽæˆ‘æ˜Žç™½äº†ä¸€åˆ‡ you re the home my heart ä½ æ˜¯æˆ‘å¿ƒçµçš„å½’å±ž searched for so long ä½ æ˜¯æˆ‘ä¸€ç›´æ‰€è¦å¯»æ‰¾çš„äºº and it is you æ˜¯ä½ i have loved all along æˆ‘ä¸€ç›´éƒ½çˆ±çš„äºº it s no more mystery æ²¡æœ‰æ¯”è¿™æ›´ç¥žå¥‡çš„äº† it is finally clear to me æœ€åŽæˆ‘æ˜Žç™½äº†ä¸€åˆ‡ you re the home my heart ä½ æ˜¯æˆ‘å¿ƒçµçš„å½’å±ž searched for so long ä½ æ˜¯æˆ‘ä¸€ç›´æ‰€è¦å¯»æ‰¾çš„äºº and it is you æ˜¯ä½ i have loved all along æˆ‘ä¸€ç›´éƒ½çˆ±çš„äºº Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/alican520/journal/1743772 Sat, 03 Nov 2007 03:05 EST ^^Taiwanese Reception^^ http://hk.zorpia.com/alican520/journal/1735446 Today is the national day for Taiwan,my friend and I just be back from the reception,it was kinda great,I met some new friends,there are 10 taiwanese girls learning Turkish hereâ€¦everything was great except one thing,everytime I told my self to be toleratefull to others,trying not to be mad or not to argue wz others..but it seems that whatever I do ,I can not change my characterâ€¦.     Whenever I talk wz these girls,even they accept my spoken Chinese is kinda best in here,but they start teasing me that I m using kinda Beijing accent to them ,actually I m talking in that way on purpose.,as I feel that I m the one that should do it for my second country (PEOPLE'S REPUBLIC OF CHINA)and also for my first love BEIJING....they start gettin angry,and changing their faces in every sec against my responds......anyway i confirm my self that i only belong to china,not others... æˆ‘è¿˜æœ‰ä¸€ä¸ªå›½å®¶å«ä¸å›½ã€‚ã€‚ã€‚ã€‚ã€‚åªæ˜¯^^ä¸å›½å•¦^^ Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/alican520/journal/1735446 Wed, 10 Oct 2007 16:31 EST ^^End of the Fairy Tale^^ http://hk.zorpia.com/alican520/journal/1734829 Yesterday i talked a lot with HER,it was kinda strange feeling,no matter i told my self not to talk wz her anymore,couldnt stop my self ....even i clearly know that Nothing gonno be the same like before,i can not have the girl that has the long black hair,the girl that has the charachteristic straight eyes,the girl that remind me herself,whenever i hear a chinese song ...the girl that i was having the child happiness,during walkin wz slippers in a rainy night,the girl that i was holding her on my back when her foot was hurt,The girl that is lookin at me when i passed the last gate and lookin at me back wz a crying in the airport... Almost 2 months already passed,feelings,thoughts,plans,they are all kinda be changed....i came to my own country,be back to here that i can use my own language,no trouble in finding sth to eat,no problem about communicating wz others.....but if they gonno ask me again now,i gonno choose being there,facing all those problems as it is much worse for me being in the middle,body is here in turkey now,but how about the soul....still alive there.... Still trying to stand even falling down in every sec....everyone is lookin at me that i m the one being happy,flirting wz lots of girls,playin,chillin around all the time...but the only that is myself knows that the truth is not kinda like that ...... Yeah,i talked a lot with HER,i m happy and confirm my self that her life is getting well day by day,she is progressing,her work is getting better..as i always believe that she gonno be the best in her major...she gonno get wat she deserve in the future...she gonno reach her goals,she gonno be the best mother,have the happiest marriagement in the future....  And me ,é‡‘å˜‰æ‰¿ always gonno be the same ,no matter i force my self not to be sensitive for others,not to be unhappy for the things that she did to me...  Yes,i talked a lot wz HER,the girl thatæ°¸è¿œéƒ½ä¸ä¼šå¿˜è®°çš„,the girlæœ‰æœ€ç¾Žä¸½çš„å˜´å”‡â€¦  ä¸ç”¨å½“å¿ƒï¼Œæˆ‘åœ¨è¿™é‡Œè¿‡å¾—æ€Žä¹ˆæ ·ã€‚ã€‚ã€‚çœ‹åˆ°ä½ çš„å¹¸ç¦ï¼Œå¯¹æˆ‘å¤Ÿäº†ã€‚ã€‚ã€‚å¸Œæœ›ä½ è·Ÿä½ çš„ç”·å„¿æ°¸è¿œå¿«ä¹ã€‚ã€‚ã€‚ã€‚God blessâ€¦..>>> Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/alican520/journal/1734829 Mon, 08 Oct 2007 16:55 EST åŠ æ²¹åŠ æ²¹ï¼Œé‡‘å˜‰æ‰¿ http://hk.zorpia.com/alican520/journal/1731660 I be back to turkey almost 2months ,but still can see there in dreams,and just after getting up ,.still ask my self where the hell I m â€¦..the new classes gonno start after 2 days ,and today we had a meeting of our department,welcomed the new Chinese teachers â€¦.it seems like this year gonno be better than last 2 years that I spent in turkeyâ€¦.it can easily be seen that the teachers has a great experience in teaching Chinese ,I start believing my self that I gonno improve my Chinese a lot this year â€¦â€¦ The second thing is we arranged a dinner with some Taiwanese friends , as one of my classmate went to Taiwan to study for 1 year there,so that he arranged the iftar dinner wz 6 taiwanese girls â€¦.they are studying Turkish here ,their major is kinda Turkish philology â€¦.for sure ,we become just a good friend for now â€¦.hope our friendship gonno be forever as I always tell that I m really happy while being wz them ,I dunno y,but none of a turkish girl or a friend can attract me this much â€¦.maybe cuz of the language we used as I just wanna hear some Chinese ,thatâ€™s it â€¦. Planning to make some Turkish food wz my classmate ,and invite them to show our good hospitality and our delicious food to them ..hope we can be successful â€¦.åŠ æ²¹åŠ æ²¹ï¼Œé‡‘å˜‰æ‰¿ï¼ï¼ï¼ï¼ Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/alican520/journal/1731660 Fri, 28 Sep 2007 15:28 EST ^^DREAM IS JUST A DREAM AT THE END^^ http://hk.zorpia.com/alican520/journal/1730725 I dunno why,today is the second day and i start writing my 2 nd blog cuz of the dreams,i suppose.......    These days,i m just focusing on the plan that i gonno do for my 4th year ,wat i better do to make my chinese higher and higher,just by studying in the class,then review it ,or better practise my speech wz friends on the net ,or getting a long wz chinese or taiwanese girls in my unv ...still thinking about it as i m not available for this mood ....     For sure everybody felt sorry that they want to do sth so deeply,but somehow they couldnt manage to do it,cuz of various reasons...i saw a dream again (as u guys gonno think that i m sleepin all day longJ)about this kind of situation..... I never feel ashamed that I clearly say out my thoughts,my feelings â€¦.never tried to stop my self as I can not pretend to be seem like a liar to my self first then to the person against me â€¦..    I saw her last night,I dunno why but she want me to follow her yesterday night â€¦it is kinda strange again ,but dream is just like a fairy tale ,no matter u are faraway or seems like a story that ur grandma or grandfa told u when u were just a childâ€¦.Anyway I saw her in my hometown,and I didnâ€™t know anything about that she gonno come to my house,but she did ,but in my dream again â€¦I was sleepin at that time ,I heard some noises comin from the outside door,that was my mam and the others from my family talking in a loud voiceâ€¦then mam suddenly opened my rooms door and ask me who came ,I was still sleeping ,can not open my eyes totally ,tried to look to the far point ,then saw that is the girl i believed to die for,I was damn shocked ,I dunno how I gonno tell this feeling just by typing ,moreoever in Englishâ€¦I looked at the news that the longest dream can be at most 10 sec,but this dream seems like I never wanna open my eyes â€¦.i remember like the time she came is still so early ,the sky is still so blurry and kinda dark,then mam let us to talk and rest for a while ,u were just beside me la,hugging together and touching ur hand ,I was holding like not to lose it again ,but still looking at ur eyes as all the things that we shared is just a lie or I totally misunderstood u â€¦.     After resting for a while ,dad told me to go out for a walk with twins dog,I said ok but still thinking that I better go or not as I was kinda scary that this dream gonno be stopped and I gonno face the reality again ,then the dog came into my room ,then realized that u are scared of dogs ,but suddenly saw that u are hugging the dog and u seem u like and be used to dogs for a long time ,I was kinda surprised but be happy at the same time ..     I was preparing to get out for walking stuff,and at the same time asking my lil bro why he doesnâ€™t go wz the dog,as I was sure that everything gonno be lost in a sec,as I was right ,and now I opened my eyes just 20 min a go ,and nothing be left from u,u are still there without a doubt wat I m thinking or doing here â€¦as I get used to it ,Life is just a life to face the reality of pain ,not like in dreams or in such a fairy talesâ€¦â€¦  é‡‘å˜‰æ‰¿ Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/alican520/journal/1730725 Wed, 26 Sep 2007 01:23 EST ^^Dreaming in My Dream^^ http://hk.zorpia.com/alican520/journal/1730502 This is the second time im writing this blog as I dunno somehow the damn space suddenly erased it ,and I was about to cry cuz of my angerâ€¦anyway gonno try to write it again â€¦. Yesterday,while I was dreaming ,I saw a dream,it sounds kinda strange for u ,I know but thatâ€™s why I start writing my first blog wz this topicâ€¦I saw a Chinese girl  with a coffee brown hair ,her hair is not so long,her face is kinda handmade baby,her eyes is full of smileys,she is kinda dreamy girl that I have been thinking forâ€¦one more strange thing that is I m talking wz this girl ,like we have known eachother for a long time and we are in a good relationshipâ€¦we are having an exciting moments there,that erased all my memory and the history that I feel pain cuz of othersâ€¦.even 1 sec I havenâ€™t thought of them at that timeâ€¦but this story even seems strange for me in my dream,as I dunt believe such a nice story with a girl with out having pain at the endâ€¦then I remind my self that should not be real,surely a dream then ask my self to open my eyes to see that is all fake,and I did ,opened my eyes and see the reality,the dreamy girl still looking at me wz her cute smile ,treats me like I should believe that she is the real oneâ€¦.but life is the reality that is created by godâ€¦no longer after sleeping for a while ,I opened my eyes for totally this time ,then see that there is nothing belong to this girl,and smiled at my self and remind at the same time : ^^i saw the girl that i have been thinking for ,but in my dream ^^ ...i had given up the history that all gave me pain,and even i already knew that there Ä±s no way that i can marry you even after 5 years so it is time for me  to go on thinking of her ;  ^^The girl that i can be wz forever,the DREAmy girl that i can be lost everytime when i looked at her eyes ^^   Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/alican520/journal/1730502 Tue, 25 Sep 2007 06:33 EST ^^u chose our destiny ^^ we lost everything !!! http://hk.zorpia.com/alican520/journal/1729829 I donï¼‡t know why You want to follow me tonight When the rest of the world With whom Iï¼‡ve crossed and Iï¼‡ve quarreled Letï¼‡s me down so For a thousand reasons that I know To share forever the unrest With all the demons I possess Beneath the silver moon Maybe you were right But baby I was lonely I donï¼‡t want to fight Iï¼‡m tired of being sorry ??? With all the vampires and their brides Weï¼‡re all bloodless and blind And longing for a life Beyond the silver moon Maybe you were right But baby I was lonely I donï¼‡t want to fight Iï¼‡m tired of being sorry Iï¼‡m standing in the street Crying out for you No one sees me But the silver moon So far away - so outer space Iï¼‡ve trashed myself - Iï¼‡ve lost my way Iï¼‡ve got to get to you Maybe you were right But baby I was lonely I donï¼‡t want to fight Iï¼‡m tired of being sorry Iï¼‡m standing in the street Crying out for you No one sees me But the silver moon Maybe you were right But baby I was lonely I donï¼‡t want to fight Iï¼‡m tired of being sorry Iï¼‡m standing in the street Crying out for you No one sees me But the silver moon U CHOSE OUR DESTINY,BE4 IT CHOSE US>>>> Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/alican520/journal/1729829 Sun, 23 Sep 2007 04:57 EST ^^ç«¥è¯^^ http://hk.zorpia.com/alican520/journal/1722622 å¿˜äº†æœ‰å¤šä¹… å†æ²¡å¬åˆ°ä½ å¯¹æˆ‘è¯´ä½ æœ€çˆ±çš„æ•…äº‹ æˆ‘æƒ³äº†å¾ˆä¹… æˆ‘å¼€å§‹æ…Œäº† æ˜¯ä¸æ˜¯æˆ‘åˆåšé”™ä»€ä¹ˆ ä½ å“ç€å¯¹æˆ‘è¯´ ç«¥è¯é‡Œéƒ½æ˜¯éª—äººçš„ æˆ‘ä¸å¯èƒ½æ˜¯ä½ çš„çŽ‹å ä¹Ÿè®¸ä½ ä¸ä¼šæ‡‚ ä»Žä½ è¯´çˆ±æˆ‘ä»¥åŽ æˆ‘çš„å¤©ç©ºæ˜Ÿæ˜Ÿéƒ½äº®äº† æˆ‘æ„¿å˜æˆç«¥è¯é‡Œ æˆ‘è¦å˜æˆç«¥è¯é‡Œ æˆ‘ä¼šå˜æˆç«¥è¯é‡Œ ä½ çˆ±çš„é‚£ä¸ªå¤©ä½¿ å¼ å¼€åŒæ‰‹ å˜æˆç¿…è†€å®ˆæŠ¤ä½ ä½ è¦ç›¸ä¿¡ ç›¸ä¿¡æˆ‘ä»¬ä¼šåƒç«¥è¯æ•…äº‹é‡Œ å¹¸ç¦å’Œå¿«ä¹æ˜¯ç»“å±€ ä¸€èµ·å†™æˆ‘ä»¬çš„ç»“å±€ Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/alican520/journal/1722622 Fri, 31 Aug 2007 06:18 EST ^^ä½ æ˜¯æˆ‘æœ€æ·±çˆ±çš„å¥³äºº^^ http://hk.zorpia.com/alican520/journal/1702408 çˆ±ä¸Šäº†ä¸€ä¸ªäºº èƒ½å¤Ÿä¸ºå¥¹ç‰ºç‰² å°±ç®—ä»˜å‡ºäº†ç”Ÿå‘½ æˆ‘ç”˜å¿ƒä¸ºäº†ä½ ä¸¤ä¸ªäººåœ¨ä¸€èµ· åˆ†äº«çˆ±çš„å‘½è¿ æ°¸è¿œéƒ½ä¸ä¼šå¿˜è®° æˆ‘ä»¬ç”Ÿæ´»ç‚¹æ»´ ä½ æ˜¯æˆ‘æœ€æ·±çˆ±çš„å¥³äºº ä½ æœ‰æœ€ç¾Žä¸½çš„å˜´å”‡ ä½ æ‹¥æœ‰æœ€åŠ¨äººçš„çœ¼ç¥ž ä½ å¸¦ç»™æˆ‘å¹¸ç¦å’Œå¿«ä¹ æˆ‘æ˜¯ä½ æœ€æ·±çˆ±çš„ç”·äºº æˆ‘çš„çˆ±ç»å¯¹æ˜¯æ°¸æ’ åšä»€ä¹ˆéƒ½å€¼å¾— çˆ±ä¸Šäº†ä¸€ä¸ªäºº Music http://hk.zorpia.com/alican520/journal/1702408 Sat, 07 Jul 2007 23:12 EST ^MY LOVE^^ http://hk.zorpia.com/alican520/journal/1617979 ICE BOX////// Fussin' and fightin', we back at it again I know that, it's my fault, but you don't understand (no) I got memories, this is crazy You ain't nothing like the girl I used to know Good with ma, good with pa, cool with all my niggas I should try, truth is I wanna let u in, but no Damn these memories, and it's crazy You ain't nothing like the girl I used to know Girl I really wanna work this out, cause I'm tired of fightin' And I really hope you still want me the way I want you I said I really wanna work this out, damn girl I'm tryin' It's no excuse, no excuse But I got this I got this icebox where my heart used to be (but I got this) I got this icebox where my heart used to be (said I got this) I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold Why can't I get it right, just can't let it go I opened up, she let me down, I won't feel that no more I got memories, this is crazy She ain't nothing like the girl I used to know I don't mean to take it out on you baby but I can't help it 'Cause my heart is in the same ol' condition that baby left it And I, I apologize, for makin' you cry Look me in my eye and promise you won't do me the same Girl I really wanna work this out, 'cause I'm tired of fightin' And I really hope you still want me the way I want you I said I really wanna work this out, damn girl I'm tryin' It's no excuse, no excuse Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/alican520/journal/1617979 Sun, 26 Nov 2006 08:40 EST