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Zadismaçš„ä¸»é http://hk.zorpia.com/Zadisma Mon, 14 Dec 2009 20:18 EST Mon, 14 Dec 2009 20:18 EST Zorpia.com RIP to Heath Ledger http://hk.zorpia.com/Zadisma/journal/1771542 <center> <a href="http://s231.photobucket.com/albums/ee125/kensl/?action=view&current=Joker.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Joker - Heath Ledger" src="http://i231.photobucket.com/albums/ee125/kensl/Joker.jpg" border="0" /></a> <a href="http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v431/melissasigalovskaya/?action=view&current=jokerpics12307.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Heath Ledger as the Joker" src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v431/melissasigalovskaya/jokerpics12307.jpg" border="0" /></a> <a href="http://s25.photobucket.com/albums/c92/legiwen/?action=view&current=heath-ledger-dead-02.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Joker" src="http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c92/legiwen/heath-ledger-dead-02.jpg" border="0" /></a></center> I didn't think i was gonna write about this guy.  I really don't know him & i never really noticed what movies he was in.  Until recently I knew that he was gonna play the joker in the new Batman movie.  I think that its not such a good idea to 'redo' a movie thats already been done already. In this case the previous movie 'Batman with the Joker played by Jack Nicholson, was already the greatest Batman movie of all time. It got 4 stars for all i know.  Why couldn't they just do a Batman movie with a new villain? There's plent anyway.  Anyway, Heath Ledger is playing it.  I got to see the trailer just recently and like...'ok..not bad for the joker.' And as i was reading msn news....."Heath Ledger found dead in NYC apartment" .. I'm like omigod..is this a joke? Someone that u've just started paying interest in suddenly dies. At the age of 28... wow! thats just another 2 years for me! I felt so sorry for his family. He achieved so much, and was able of accomplishing so much more. All of a sudden, everything was cut right then & there & no more continuation.  I heard that he did have a lot of future projects to come.  The only movies i saw him act in was probably 'the patriot & the brothers grimm'.  I didn't see brokeback mountain cuz i ain't a gay.  But i actually wanna c it now, since its got so many awards. I think its also very had for someone thats not gay to play a gay role.  I kratoey roll is easy. But a gay role. WOW! I sure wouldn't. hahah It makes me feel so bitter with life. So i named my msn "Black Jan Charles" with all the deaths & also the death of the King's Sister. The whole Bangkok was in black as well. When i saw Heath's death news, i'm kinda scared myself.  I could die any day as well. I don't have to wait till i'm old. Everything i do from now on. I want to do with precaution. Life is so precious all of a sudden.  I want to make use of my remaining time as much as i can.  I must do whatever i want to do if it doesn't cause trouble for other people.  And i shouldn't regret what i've already done.  I hope that for everyone reading this to make good use of ur time as well.  Live to the fullest.  And not to become a burden to the people around u. ^^" There are 3 types of people.  1. The ones that are born and cause burden for others. These kinda people shouldn't even be born from the start. 2. The ones that are born for themselves, which can't help others but only themselves.  Whethere these people are born or not does not make a difference. 3. The ones that are born to help others.  These kinda people are the hardest and fewest to find.  These are the people that will make the world better.  I hope that everyone can change form number 1 & 2 to become number 3. ^^" cheers Celebrities & Models http://hk.zorpia.com/Zadisma/journal/1771542 Mon, 04 Feb 2008 07:06 EST Mom's Visit on my Birthday http://hk.zorpia.com/Zadisma/journal/1771541 January 13, 2008 It was a sunday. I remembered. I did go to visit my dad that day as well in the day time. Went to eat with each other, since we didn't live with each other anymore. However that nite. I dreamt of my mom again. Its not strange that i dream about her every now and then. Actually i dream as often as every 2 days.  But that nite i dreamt that we were on a rail car(à¸£à¸–à¸£à¸²à¸‡). She was plump & chubby like many years ago.  It was in ABAC bangna campus.  The atmosphere was so nice becuz the air was foggy but the sky was bright.  Leaves fell down like sakura leaves.  She said to that she's so happy that i've graduated from Chula. I replied to her, 'But i'm not in Chula mom. I'm in ABAC." She then said, " Oh i must have forgot... hehe.. i only want the best for u.  But i guess that this is all that i could do for u." Just those words alone made my eyes filled with tears.  i burst out with tears, with my hands holding her face. She looked at me, and the tears from her eyes flowed out. The tears from her ran down my fingers that were holding her cheeks.  I can feel the tears, i swear. I felt the wet feeling of tears in my fingers.  It felt so real. And in a matter of a few minutes.. she slowly faded. The fog became cloudy around us. I woke up... As if she was right in front of me & slowly faded away. I stared into the space of the ceiling in my bedroom.  I felt so lonely. & i cried out so loud & didn't care if the neighbors heard me or not. Tears came across my face & soaked my pillows. I couldn't believe that it was yet a dream again. It felt so real. & so i knew it was. She came down to visit me. She misses me. I miss her too. Is it becuz i went to visit my dad that day? or was it becuz its close to my birthday? For whatever reason, i didn't care. I know she's looking at me everyday.  She's still worried about me. I wish she wasn't worried about me. But i'm glad she came... ..............fin................  <img height="10" src="http://images.hi5.com/images/clear.gif" width="10" border="0" /> <a href="http://s209.photobucket.com/albums/bb156/Corvenious/?action=view&current=Dreams.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Dreams" src="http://i209.photobucket.com/albums/bb156/Corvenious/Dreams.jpg" border="0" /></a> Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/Zadisma/journal/1771541 Mon, 04 Feb 2008 07:00 EST My Dzine Gallery http://hk.zorpia.com/Zadisma/journal/1764752 <center><a href="http://photos.zorpia.com/Zadisma/photo/25523371.c3e6b6"><img alt="Zorpia Photo Sharing: Free Unlimited Storage & Bandwidth" src="http://lrg.zorpia.com/0/3988/25523371.c3e6b6.jpg" border="0" /></a> <a href="http://photos.zorpia.com/Zadisma/photo/25523219.f9bd6a"><img alt="Zorpia Photo Sharing: Free Unlimited Storage & Bandwidth" src="http://lrg.zorpia.com/0/3988/25523219.f9bd6a.jpg" border="0" /></a> <a href="http://photos.zorpia.com/Zadisma/photo/25523247.c325c1"><img alt="Zorpia Photo Sharing: Free Unlimited Storage & Bandwidth" src="http://lrg.zorpia.com/0/3988/25523247.c325c1.jpg" border="0" /></a> <embed allowNetWorking="internal" AllowScriptAccess="sameDomain" name="rockyou" pluginspage="http://www.macromedia.com/go/getflashplayer " src="http://apps.rockyou.com/photofx.swf" width="600" height="189" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" flashvars="imgpath=http%3A//img311.rockyou.com/photofx/19/19131/19131439/19131439_62a4fdb11195551149.jpg&glitterp=false&roundp=false&sepiap=false&theme=confetti.swf&shadowp=true&bevelp=true&width=600&height=189&imageWidth=600&instanceid=19131439&userid=9032077&createDateString=Nov%2020%20%2707&username=%7E" wmode="transparent" salign="lt" scale="noscale" quality="high" allowscriptaccess="sameDomain" allownetworking="internal" /> </a /> </center><a href="http://photos.zorpia.com/Zadisma/photo/29655436.747b80"><img src="http://lrg.zorpia.com/0/4633/29655436.747b80.jpg" /></a> <a href="http://photos.zorpia.com/Zadisma/photo/29655438.c6ec68"><img src="http://lrg.zorpia.com/0/4633/29655438.c6ec68.jpg" /></a> <a href="http://photos.zorpia.com/Zadisma/photo/29655439.d2ff73"><img src="http://org84.zorpia.com/0/4633/29655439.d2ff73.jpg"></a> <a href="http://photos.zorpia.com/Zadisma/photo/29655440.9c116d"><img src="http://lrg.zorpia.com/0/4633/29655440.9c116d.jpg"></a> <a href="http://photos.zorpia.com/Zadisma/photo/29655454.accbba"><img src="http://lrg.zorpia.com/0/4633/29655454.accbba.jpg"></a> <a href="http://photos.zorpia.com/Zadisma/photo/29655451.b6a9a7"><img src="http://lrg.zorpia.com/0/4633/29655451.b6a9a7.jpg"></a> <a href="http://photos.zorpia.com/Zadisma/photo/29655542.4bf249"><img src="http://lrg.zorpia.com/0/4633/29655542.4bf249.jpg"></a> Photography & Art http://hk.zorpia.com/Zadisma/journal/1764752 Sat, 12 Jan 2008 23:18 EST 2007 so far : This is Me : Revenge& Vengeance http://hk.zorpia.com/Zadisma/journal/1764063 2007 BY FAR well, 2007 was a really hard year on me what happened? many things not really serious <a href="http://s67.photobucket.com/albums/h289/Flora55/?action=view&current=Heaven.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Heaven" src="http://i67.photobucket.com/albums/h289/Flora55/Heaven.jpg" border="0" /></a> -i found out my 'special someone'cheated on me & lied to me & was goin out with others while i had to take care of my sick & dying mother in da beginning of the year -my car broke down when i was in the province (good thing no accident) -burglars broke into my house & stole my vdo camera & manual camera & my wallet -my mom eventually died in the middle of the year -i wanted to get even with dat 'special someone' & cheated & lied to her cuz my brain's so fucked up -then she found out me & my 'other someone' -so the other someone wants to get back at me -so then i'm hurtin both the 1 i luv & sum 1 that fell in2 this trap of luv -eventually my business goes down to a pit -i meet my dad on father's day, & yet he brings his new wife with him..Why? Dad goes finds happiness elsewhere yet mom is sick n dying. Its so sad for me.   wtf!? & now my mind's not straight. I don't have attention in anything i do. I feel like a slug clinging on a leaf & flowing thru a river that takes me somewhere i dun even know. My goal in life is becoming faint. I have no direction. 'i'm livin life everyday with despair & confusion. I don't know what i am anymore. i'm the devil. THIS IS WHAT I AM <a href="http://s145.photobucket.com/albums/r221/zadisma/?action=view&current=Intotheflames.gif" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i145.photobucket.com/albums/r221/zadisma/Intotheflames.gif" border="0" /></a> <a href="http://s73.photobucket.com/albums/i214/hynne/?action=view&current=Hate.gif" target="_blank"><img alt="Hate" src="http://i73.photobucket.com/albums/i214/hynne/Hate.gif" border="0" /></a> i can b a preacher yet i can be a sinner If i luv someone, i give them all my luv yet when  they can't c my effort I lose strength 2 give them I alwayz meet the things i hate The more i meet those things the more i become like them I don't wanna be like this, someone help me I wanna become a good person once again i can alwayz forgive people for what they do to me yet i can never forget bout the things they do to me sometimes i'm self-confident & over-confident sometimes i'm so uncertain bout myself usually i'm eager to listen to everything & mite belive things ezily & usually i'm stubborn n don't believe things at all i may look like someone who is self-dependent but somtimes i need someone to depend on as well sometimes i may look like a solo, a loner, a hermit but i just hate to be alone but no one knows that i hate playerz yet i've become a player myself i hate fakers i have no chance but to fake as well i'm too good (to much guilt) to be bad yet i'm too bad (to much lust) to be good <a href="http://s145.photobucket.com/albums/r221/zadisma/?action=view&current=capricorn2sides.jpg" target="_blank"><img src="http://i145.photobucket.com/albums/r221/zadisma/capricorn2sides.jpg" border="0" alt="Photobucket"></a> THE DARK SIDE, REVENGE, AND VENGEANCE<center><a href="http://s145.photobucket.com/albums/r221/zadisma/?action=view&current=Spiderman_-_3.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i145.photobucket.com/albums/r221/zadisma/Spiderman_-_3.jpg" border="0" /></a> <a href="http://s176.photobucket.com/albums/w192/dadrew117/?action=view&current=1.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Star Wars Episode 3" src="http://i176.photobucket.com/albums/w192/dadrew117/1.jpg" border="0" /></a></center> Its best to forgive what people have done 2 you.  I know that its hard.  I know that its painful. -But getting back at them makes u a lowlife. It Cuts them like a knife, but slices u like a sword.As well as makes them get back at u more & more.  It makes them painful. When u see them painful. Ur the one thats to blame so Ur the one datz full of pain which u can't show.. Hands r stained by sin. Darkness absorbs u from within. U can't remember who u r when u stare at da mirror. U've gone so far just to become zero. When i watch episode 2 & 3 of star wars Anakin Skywalker changing to darth vader lord or even Venom in Spiderman it reflects what kinda man i am. Revenge is neverending. It twists turns and is always bending. It cannot be killed so ezily cuz there is alwayz more than 1 involved. If that is so, then the problem can never be solved. I hope whoever reads this to hear me out. I've been a guy stuck to revenge with no way out. I used to be such an innocent guy thats been tainted in blood. A guy that used to have love, but now has hate. Hate only changes ur fate & the destiny 4 u & ur mate. Theres more 2 life than 2 hate, there's so much dat u & i can create. Plz darkside leave me begone. I do not want everyone 2 c me as a king kong. I want pple 2 admire me just like a fan dat admires singers with songs. I hope i can do right instead of do wrong. I wish i can b a good man pure & strong with my will Stopping the kill & putting my mind still. If ne one feels da way i feel, feel free 2 comment Maybe i'm just complaining this lament Heaven break my black cement & reveal my feathers. Whatever happens from now on. I wish that only good things come my way. This is all i have to say to everyone so they can 4 give me & 4get their sorrow. This is all i have to say for today & tomorrow, & the day after tomorrow until forever.   Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/Zadisma/journal/1764063 Thu, 10 Jan 2008 07:04 EST V:: Sometimez i feel like this guy ::V http://hk.zorpia.com/Zadisma/journal/1744440   <center><img hspace="0" src="http://i45.photobucket.com/albums/f88/chuchad/nobita.jpg" align="baseline" border="0" /></center>Sometimes i just feel like this guy.... Yes, Nobita..from the cartoon Doraemon.  Doesn't ne1 out there feel like this guy like i do??? Plz put down ur comment & let me know dat i'm not d only 1.  Nobita is a crybaby, he'z an undecisive guy, he'z a follower n not  a leader, he'z a weak character, he can't overcome problemz on his own, & alwayz endz up in problemz dat he can't solve.  He will alwayz call out 4 his problem solver who is Doraemon. Sometimez when problemz get heavy 4 me, i am quite stubborn 2 admit dat itz smthng serious in front of other pple.  But when i get back home i kinda think a lot & realize dat i don't wanna face it at all.  I just wanna crawl in2 a cave n stay there 4 a year.  I'm not brave @ all, sometimez, but other timez i'm so à¸«à¸™à¹‰à¸²à¸”à¹‰à¸²à¸™ (thick face) more than other pple.  Many timez i c myself in circumstances where i'm all alone n wishing dat some1 like Doraemon would help me.  Many timez i'm so confused with life, i dun know what 2 do.  Sometimez i waste time thinking bout this shit instead of putting thingz in action.  I know dat a lot of pple think i'm helpless, useless, pathetic, coward, sissy, whining & complaining.  However, i'm too stubborn 2 ask 4 ne help.  I know i can do it on my own. I know i can overcome my fearz.  Itz just funny dat i feel like this guy time 2 time... Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/Zadisma/journal/1744440 Mon, 05 Nov 2007 14:37 EST I love you, Mommy.... http://hk.zorpia.com/Zadisma/journal/1701637 Aug 27, 1942-June 17,2007 You always told me and everyone else that you are so proud of me.  I know you love me so much.  I am your only child. If anything were to happen to me, I know you would take my place in any minute.  You are truly the best mother I could ever have. I hope and I wish that every life I could be your son.  You always tell other people that you are proud of your son, because I am always taking care of you, listening to you, obeying you, and that I am never a naughty boy, I never argue against you, I say sweet things to you, I never bring in problems into the house, I was so easy to take care when I was a baby, and other things I canâ€™t think of now.  However, iâ€™m not such a good boy as you think.  Sometimes I do lie, sometimes I donâ€™t obey but I never yell back at you.  I feel so bad about the things I have done.  I wish I had the knowledge to tell you back then to take care of yourself, and donâ€™t overwork.  I was so immature back then.  When you first time that you knew you had cancer, I didnâ€™t even know what to do.  All I did was look for vitamins to you to take.  Sometimes you did not take them and yet I lack the responsibility to make you take them.  If I knew you were to leave me so soon, I wish I have spent more time with you and take you traveling to see the rest of the world.  That was my wish.  I wanted to see the smile on your face when we are on vacation with all the costs paid by me and not you.  I wanted the chance to return what you gave me.  I wanted to make you happy.  I just donâ€™t want to be a good boy, I want to be a special boy that can do what others canâ€™t do.  But yet, you have left me so soon.  I know that all you expected in me was for me to graduate and ordain as a monk. I am very happy that I did do those things for you.  Many things I am glad that I have done when you were with me.  I am glad for many things i did for you.  I'm glad that i told you i'm sorry.  I'm glad i told you i loved you.  I'm glad i called you at night to ask if you were all rite.  I'm glad you didn't have a sudden death from accidents.  I'm glad i knew that this was coming. There are only a few things that I regret.  Yet I feel so sorry that you couldnâ€™t watch me grow older anymore.  I feel so sorry that I didnâ€™t not have grandchild for you in time.  I feel so sorry that for just sitting around and not doing anything when I should have done something. I feel so sorry for acting on my own impulse and thinking about only myself when I should have thought about you and the whole family.   I know that I have the urge and the desire to dream big and to buy a huge house, with a nice garden for you(yes, the ones that you like).  I had the desire to take you traveling around the world like in China, Europe and all over.  I wanted to work my ass off for some good money to take you wherever you want to yet, I realize that the most important thing is that you do not need those things.  It is my dream but it might not be yours.  What you wanted most was to be with me as much as you want.  I am so foolish.  I really wish that I could multiply myself so that one of me can take care of you and the other will be the person who draws in the income for the family. Why did I let myself succumb to my lusts?  Why couldnâ€™t I have more control over my lustful feelings?  Why did I have to give out my love to others? When I should have given it to you, the one that truly loves me till the end.  I am so ashamed sometimes.  When those girls hurt me when they deceive me, when they betrayed me, I always think of you.  I regret, yet I do it again.  I canâ€™t help myself.  You give me money yet I spend it on others.  I earn money and yet i spend them on others instead of you. ..Please forgive me, mommy.. <h3></h3> You have always been the fighter.  You were the eldest sister among 5 other sisters.  Youâ€™ve crossed the way to the US.  You got straight Aâ€™s in your Bachelorâ€™s and even finished your Masterâ€™s in short period of 8 months.  Even your English subjects grades were on the top winning over native speakers. You had to study in the day, work in the evening, and do projects in the night.  That was probably the start of your illness with the lack of sleep and proper eating habit.  Sometimes, good people deserve so much better but all they get in return is just this and yet the bad people donâ€™t do a shit n always creating problems, and yet they get all the glory.  I do not understand this world.  Why is the world so unfair? You were a perfectionist in everything.  You had the mind, the beauty, the aura of happiness.  Everyone enjoyed being around you.  There was always someone that would call you.  You gave out but you never wanted anything back.  Many people took advantage of that, yet some became so grateful for your kindness.  Thatâ€™s why there are always sincere friends and true friends. The way you disciplined me is the best that any mom can teach.  Everything was taught to me by cause and effect.  You gave me reasons for each and every request, for every command, for every halting of me doing something.  How can i not listen to you, since you have so much reason for me to have faith in you?  Every spanking that you gave me when i was toddler, you gave me reason for that spanking afterwards.  How could i ever forget? You never thought of marriage, and you are almost never interested in the men that fall for you.  You even maintained virginity until your wedding day.  Something every girl should look up to. You were almost 40 when you had me.  It seems like the biggest gift for you, I can tell.  Even your husband was not such a good person.  But I will be the one for you and take care of you.  Just the 2 of us, me and you. I know that you are always nearby even when I canâ€™t see you.  I really wish there was a telephone for the dead to communicate with the living.  At least, I will know that you are doing well. I know that we will meet again.  Every time I give out alms to monks, I always pray for us to be together every life.  I also know that weâ€™ve been together so many lives ago as well.  Please wait for me.  I will join you when my time on earth is done. Personal http://hk.zorpia.com/Zadisma/journal/1701637 Fri, 06 Jul 2007 03:04 EST My Favorite Quotes on Life http://hk.zorpia.com/Zadisma/journal/1569729 "à¸¡à¸±à¸™à¹„à¸¡à¹ˆà¸ªà¹à¸²à¸„à¸±à¸à¸«à¸£à¸à¸à¸§à¹ˆà¸²à¸„à¸¸à¸“à¸ˆà¸°à¸¡à¸µà¸Šà¸µà¸§à¸´à¸•à¸¡à¸²à¸à¸µà¸›à¸µ à¹à¸•à¹ˆà¸§à¹ˆà¸²à¹à¸•à¹ˆà¸¥à¸°à¸›à¸µà¸„à¸¸à¸à¹€à¸à¹‡à¸šà¹€à¸à¸µà¹ˆà¸¢à¸§à¸ªà¸´à¹ˆà¸‡à¸—à¸µà¹ˆà¸¡à¸µà¸„à¸¸à¸“à¸„à¹ˆà¸²à¸à¸°à¹„à¸£à¹„à¸”à¹‰à¸šà¹‰à¸²à¸‡" "It's not the years in your life that count...what counts is the life in your years." "à¹€à¸‡à¸´à¸™à¸¡à¸²à¸à¸¡à¸²à¸¢à¹„à¸¡à¹ˆà¸ªà¸²à¸¡à¸²à¸£à¸–à¸—à¸µà¹ˆà¸ˆà¸°à¸‹à¸·à¹ˆà¸à¸„à¸§à¸²à¸¡à¸„à¸´à¸”à¸”à¸µà¹†à¹„à¸”à¹‰ à¹à¸•à¹ˆà¸„à¸§à¸²à¸¡à¸„à¸´à¸”à¸”à¸µà¹†à¸™à¸±à¹‰à¸™à¸ªà¸²à¸¡à¸²à¸£à¸–à¸‹à¸·à¹ˆà¸à¸à¸°à¹„à¸£à¹„à¸”à¹‰à¹ƒà¸™à¹‚à¸¥à¸à¸™à¸µà¹‰..." "All the money in this world can't even buy a single good idea, however a single good idea can buy anything in this world." "à¹à¸¡à¹ˆà¹€à¸¥à¸µà¹‰à¸¢à¸‡à¸¥à¸¹à¸ 10à¸„à¸™à¹„à¸”à¹‰ à¹à¸•à¹ˆà¸¥à¸¹à¸ 10à¸„à¸™à¸ªà¸²à¸¡à¸²à¸£à¸–à¹€à¸¥à¸µà¹‰à¸¢à¸‡à¹à¸¡à¹ˆà¹€à¸žà¸µà¸¢à¸‡à¸„à¸™à¹€à¸”à¸µà¸¢à¸§à¹„à¸”à¹‰à¸¡à¸±à¹‰à¸¢?" "A mother can care and raise 10 children...but will these 10 children be able to take care of their only mother?" "à¸–à¹‰à¸²à¸§à¸±à¸™à¸™à¸µà¹‰à¹€à¸£à¸²à¸¢à¸±à¸‡à¸ªà¸šà¸²à¸¢à¹à¸ªà¸”à¸‡à¸§à¹ˆà¸²à¸¡à¸µà¸„à¸™à¸¥à¹à¸²à¸šà¸²à¸à¹€à¸žà¸·à¹ˆà¸à¹€à¸£à¸² à¸–à¹‰à¸²à¸§à¸±à¸™à¸™à¸µà¹‰à¹€à¸£à¸²à¸¢à¸à¸¡à¸¥à¹à¸²à¸šà¸²à¸à¸à¹‡à¸ˆà¸°à¸—à¹à¸²à¹ƒà¸«à¹‰à¸„à¸™à¸—à¸µà¹ˆà¹€à¸£à¸²à¸£à¸±à¸à¸ªà¸šà¸²à¸¢" "If we still have an easy life today means that someone is working hard for us...yet if we work hard today for the ones we love, they will be the ones with an easier life." "à¹ƒà¸Šà¹‰à¸§à¹ˆà¸²à¸žà¹ˆà¸-à¹à¸¡à¹ˆà¸£à¸±à¸à¸¥à¸¹à¸à¹à¸¥à¹‰à¸§à¸¥à¸¹à¸à¸ˆà¸°à¸ªà¹à¸²à¹€à¸£à¹‡à¸ˆà¹ƒà¸™à¸Šà¸µà¸§à¸´à¸• à¹à¸•à¹ˆà¸¥à¸¹à¸à¸—à¸µà¹ˆà¸£à¸±à¸à¸žà¹ˆà¸-à¹à¸¡à¹ˆà¸¢à¸±à¸‡à¹ƒà¸‡à¸à¹‡à¸•à¹‰à¸à¸‡à¸ªà¹à¸²à¹€à¸£à¹‡à¸ˆà¹ƒà¸™à¸Šà¸µà¸§à¸´à¸•" "Parents loving their children doesn't mean that their children will become successful in life...but if those children loves their parents they will surely be successful in life." "à¸à¸²à¸£à¹€à¸›à¸¥à¸µà¸¢à¸™à¹à¸›à¸¥à¸‡à¸„à¸·à¸à¸˜à¸£à¸£à¸¡à¸Šà¸²à¸•à¸´ à¹à¸•à¹ˆà¸˜à¸£à¸£à¸¡à¸Šà¸²à¸•à¸´à¸‚à¸à¸‡à¸„à¸™à¹„à¸¡à¹ˆà¸Šà¸à¸šà¹€à¸›à¸¥à¸µà¸¢à¸™à¹à¸›à¸¥à¸‡" "Change happens all the time in nature, yet human nature is hard to change." "à¸ªà¸´à¹ˆà¸‡à¸—à¸µà¹ˆà¸Šà¸à¸šà¸—à¹à¸² à¸ªà¸´à¹ˆà¸‡à¸—à¸µà¹ˆà¸„à¸§à¸£à¸—à¹à¸² à¸ªà¸´à¹ˆà¸‡à¸—à¸µà¹ˆà¸•à¹‰à¸à¸‡à¸—à¹à¸²...à¸–à¹‰à¸²à¸§à¸±à¸™à¸™à¸µà¹‰à¹€à¸£à¸²à¹€à¸£à¸µà¸¢à¸‡à¸œà¸´à¸”à¸¡à¸µà¸„à¹‰à¸²à¹€à¸—à¹ˆà¸²à¸à¸±à¸š 0" "What we like to do, what we should do, what we have to do... if put it in the wrong order, that will mean you have 0." "à¸—à¸¸à¸à¸„à¸™à¸¡à¸µ 24à¸Š.à¸¡. à¹€à¸«à¸¡à¸·à¸à¸™à¸à¸±à¸™ à¸à¸¢à¸¹à¹ˆà¸—à¸µà¹ˆà¸§à¹ˆà¸²à¹€à¸£à¸²à¸ˆà¸°à¹ƒà¸Šà¹‰à¹€à¸§à¸¥à¸²à¸™à¸±à¹‰à¸™à¹„à¸›à¸—à¹à¸²à¸à¸°à¹„à¸£" "Everyone has the same 24 hours..What will you do with that time?" à¸–à¹‰à¸²à¸à¸¢à¸²à¸à¸œà¹ˆà¸²à¸™à¸‚à¹‰à¸à¸ªà¸à¸šà¸„à¸¸à¸à¸ˆà¸°à¹€à¸¥à¸·à¸à¸à¸›à¸£à¸¶à¸à¸©à¸²à¹ƒà¸„à¸£? à¸„à¸™à¸—à¸µà¹ˆà¸ªà¸à¸šà¸•à¸à¸«à¸£à¸·à¸à¸„à¸™à¸—à¸µà¹ˆà¹„à¸”à¹‰à¹€à¸à¸£à¸” A?" "If you want to pass a test..who would you talk to? A person with who just flunked or the person who scored an A+?" "à¸ªà¸´à¹ˆà¸‡à¸—à¸µà¹ˆà¸«à¸™à¹‰à¸²à¹€à¸¨à¸£à¹‰à¸²à¸—à¸µà¹ˆà¸ªà¸¸à¸”à¸„à¸·à¸à¹„à¸”à¹‰à¸žà¸šà¹€à¸žà¸·à¹ˆà¸à¸™à¸”à¸µà¹à¸¥à¹‰à¸§à¹„à¸¡à¹ˆà¸„à¸š à¹€à¸ˆà¸à¸„à¸£à¸¹à¸—à¸µà¹ˆà¸”à¸µà¹„à¸¡à¹ˆà¹€à¸£à¸µà¸¢à¸™ à¸£à¸¹à¹‰à¸ˆà¸±à¸à¸„à¸™à¸ªà¹à¸²à¹€à¸£à¹‡à¸ˆà¹à¸•à¹ˆà¹„à¸¡à¹ˆà¸ªà¸™" "The most sad thing is getting the chance to meet a good friend, yet you've neglected him. Getting to meet a good teacher, yet you won't learn from him. Getting to meet a successful person but you ignored him." "à¹€à¸£à¸²à¹„à¸¡à¹ˆà¸ªà¸²à¸¡à¸²à¸£à¸–à¹€à¸¥à¸·à¸à¸à¹€à¸à¸´à¸”à¹„à¸”à¹‰ à¹à¸•à¹ˆà¹€à¸£à¸²à¸ªà¸²à¸¡à¸²à¸£à¸–à¸à¹à¸²à¸«à¸™à¸”à¸Šà¸µà¸§à¸´à¸•à¸‚à¸à¸‡à¹€à¸£à¸²à¹„à¸”à¹‰" "We cannot choose on how we want to start our life...but we are able to choose on how to live our life." "à¹„à¸¡à¹ˆà¸¡à¸µà¹ƒà¸„à¸£à¸¥à¹‰à¸¡à¹€à¸«à¸¥à¸§à¸–à¹‰à¸²à¹€à¸à¸´à¸”à¹€à¸‚à¹‰à¸²à¹„à¸¡à¹ˆà¸¥à¹‰à¸¡à¹€à¸¥à¸´à¸à¸‹à¸°à¸à¹ˆà¸à¸™" "No one ever fails unless they stop trying." "à¸–à¹‰à¸²à¹€à¸£à¸²à¹€à¸à¸²à¸Šà¸™à¸°à¸•à¸±à¸§à¹€à¸£à¸²à¹€à¸à¸‡à¹„à¸”à¹‰ à¹à¸›à¸¥à¸§à¹ˆà¸²à¹€à¸£à¸²à¸ªà¸²à¸¡à¸²à¸£à¸–à¸—à¸µà¹ˆà¸ˆà¸°à¹€à¸à¸²à¸Šà¸™à¸°à¹ƒà¸„à¸£à¸à¹‡à¹„à¸”à¹‰à¸šà¸™à¹‚à¸¥à¸à¸™à¸µà¹‰" "If we can win over ourselves, we can win over anyone in this world."   Religion & Ethics http://hk.zorpia.com/Zadisma/journal/1569729 Sun, 30 Jul 2006 13:54 EST Nitade Wrestling @ RubNong ABAC 2006 http://hk.zorpia.com/Zadisma/journal/1555434 <center><embed name="rockyou" pluginspage="http://www.macromedia.com/go/getflashplayer" src="http://apps.rockyou.com/text-viewer.swf?instanceid=4616229&givenText=Wrestling%20Show%20%40%20ABAC%0DRubnong&givenFont=text-font_kings&style=Spinner2&bStyle=Dots&bSize=0&tRot=0&sAlpha=100&sSize=8&tSize=29&tSpace=0&tBlur=0&tBevel=0&tGlow=30&c1=855822&c2=15724527&c3=131586&c4=13647662&c5=197892&c6=14561054&ver=102&textH=159&textW=664" width="664" height="159" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" quality="high" scale="noscale" salign="lt" wmode="transparent" /> <a href="http://www.rockyou.com/?type=fxtext&refid=4616229" target="_BLANK"><border="0" /></a>- <a href="http://www.rockyou.com/fxtext-create.php?type=fxtext&refid=4616229" target="_BLANK"></a> <table style="BORDER-COLLAPSE: collapse"> <tbody> <tr> <td colspan="2"><embed name="rockyou" pluginspage="http://www.macromedia.com/go/getflashplayer" src="http://apps.rockyou.com/rockyou.swf?instanceid=73106134&ver=102906" width="500" height="375" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" salign="lt" quality="high" /></td> </tr> <tr> <td style="PADDING-RIGHT: 1px; PADDING-LEFT: 1px; FONT-SIZE: 0px; FILTER: alpha(opacity=60); PADDING-BOTTOM: 1px; PADDING-TOP: 1px; BACKGROUND-COLOR: #fff; moz-opacity: .60; opacity: .60" align="left"><img src="http://apps.rockyou.com/dot.gif?w=SS&d=EF7B&c=1&id=73106134&=.gif" /><a href="http://www.rockyou.com/?type=slideshow&refid=73106134" target="_BLANK"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT: 0px; BORDER-TOP: 0px; BORDER-LEFT: 0px; BORDER-BOTTOM: 0px" src="http://apps.rockyou.com/images/tail_logo.gif" /></a></td> <td style="PADDING-RIGHT: 1px; PADDING-LEFT: 1px; FONT-SIZE: 0px; FILTER: alpha(opacity=60); PADDING-BOTTOM: 1px; PADDING-TOP: 1px; BACKGROUND-COLOR: #fff; moz-opacity: .60; opacity: .60" align="right"><a style="PADDING-RIGHT: 0px" href="http://www.rockyou.com/slideshow_create.php?refid=73106134&source=cyo" target="_BLANK"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT: 0px; BORDER-TOP: 0px; BORDER-LEFT: 0px; BORDER-BOTTOM: 0px" src="http://apps.rockyou.com/images/tail_create.gif" /></a><a style="PADDING-RIGHT: 0px" href="http://www.rockyou.com/show_my_gallery.php?instanceid=73106134" target="_BLANK"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT: 0px; BORDER-TOP: 0px; BORDER-LEFT: 0px; BORDER-BOTTOM: 0px" src="http://apps.rockyou.com/images/tail_view.gif" /></a></td> </tr> </tbody> </table></center><center>This was in 2004</center><center><embed pluginspage="http://www.macromedia.com/go/getflashplayer" src="http://www.veoh.com/videodetails2.swf?permalinkId=&id=1240064&player=videodetailsembedded&videoAutoPlay=0" width="540" height="438" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" bgcolor="#000000" /></embed /> <a href="http://www.veoh.com/">Online Videos by Veoh.com</a></center> Hobbies & Interests http://hk.zorpia.com/Zadisma/journal/1555434 Fri, 30 Jun 2006 01:40 EST Buddhism : The Teachings of Dhammakaya http://hk.zorpia.com/Zadisma/journal/1234884 Y r we born? "For creating Merits, and reaching Nirvana."In my life, ever since i moved to Thailand, I went to a Christian School. Ever since 4th Grade till 12th Grade, I've learned about Prostestant Chrisitianity.  Every single day there is a Bible Class, therefore, i knew almost all of what's in the Bible.  It teaches about having faith in God and asking for forgiveness, and selling all your possessions and giving em to the poor. It teaches u that u should kill a lamb to give thanks to God, even tho the 1st commandment says don't kill.. (I mean what the f**k?) "Ask for forgiveness, and you shall all go to heaven". (Aha, yeh...rite) What if someone kills, kills, & kills and asks 4 forgiveness, and the next day he decides to kill someone again? He doesn't worry, cuz he can always ask 4 forgiveness again, rite?  At the same time, my family still brings me to temples in Thailand to worship Buddhism and monks. To tell ya the truth, i didn't wanna praise ne thing. I didn't worship ne thing. Becuz i think that Christianity doesn't make you a better person, and Buddhism...i think its too annoying, wat with all the chantings morning n evening, and sitting down with cramps n all. The Bible isn't really convincing either. Especially, the Noah's Ark. Fit all animals in 1 ship!? Also in Adam n Eve, whatever happened to the ice age? Where'd all the dinosaurs go? Did they go in Noah's ark also? Also the Prince of Egypt, i mean..i've seen it and i don't believe that could ever happen.The Rules while in Monkhood     Ok, what i wanna tell you is...how did i turn to Buddhism finally? March 2005, my friend said he was gonna become a monk. A monk means that u must shave ur head and follow the 227 rules. However, the 1st 8 rules are most important. 1. No killing animals or human 2. No stealing 3. No sex, no masturbating, no touching females at watsoever age(including babies, mom, and even female animals) Reason: Stop ourselves from all kinds of Lust 4. No lying, No cursing, No kidding, No saying stuff that are impossible to happen, 5. No drinking alchohol, no smoking. 6. No eating dinner or anything solid, no fruits, nothing that involves chewing after 12.00noon ( eating only what is necessary)Reason: Stop ourselves from all gluttony and greed. 7. No playing of anything that gives pleasure or entertainment, or watching any kind of plays,movies, No singing eithe Reason: Stop ourselves from pleasure, becuz it leads to many other things that makes us sin. 8. No sleeping on soft beds  Reason: To prevent Sloth which is laziness, which leads us to failure of success.   What I do everyday while in Monkhood     Now, i followed my friend to become a monk. We stayed at the temple all day and  nite. Each day we would wake up at 4 am, there will be a morning prayer, after that would be cleaning the monastary. After that would be breakfast at around 7am. Meditation till 10.30. 11am, we would eat lunch. at 1pm would be either meditation or listening to the teachings of Buddha. Take a break around 4pm and take a shower. Evening Prayer at 6pm. After that would be either meditation or listening to Buddha's teachings. around 10pm we would go to bed.   What are Merits?     Now..what does Buddhism teach. Unlike Christianity which is all about believing, having faith, n asking 4 forgiveness, and giving thanks. Buddhism is all about  reason, cause and effect, doing merits and stopping karma. Merits are the good deeds we do in life. The 10 deeds are.1. Give what should be give.(Food, money, for monks and creating temples..alms for the poor) 2. Keeping the 1st 5 rules above as clean as possible 3. Praying and Meditation 4. Have respect for others and being humble 5. Volunteer to do jobs & choirs for others (such as cleaning the temple) 6. Giving away ur merits to others that have both good & bad intentions to u by praying & meditating. 7. Listen to the teachings of Buddha 8.Doing what Buddha teaches u as well as sharing ur knowledge of Buddhism 2others. 9. Being happy and grateful to others that do good deeds. 10. and Believing in Buddhism.In only 2 months of monkhoood..i truely believed in Buddhism more than i ever believed in Christianity for 12 years. Becuz? Its all about cause n effect. U do this..u will receive this..Even if u don't believe in Buddhism, whatever sin u did, u'll get what u deserve later on. Buddhism doesn't have to be told 2 ne one, everyone's fate will b come according 2 their merits and karma. But knowing is still better than not knowing. Becuz u will be able 2 correct ur mistakes. IF everyone believes in Buddhism, i believe everyone will become a better person. The world would b a better place. As 4 Christianity, "BELIEVE IN GOD!!" whatever i do next, whatever i sin tomorrow, i dont' care! Cuz i believe in GODDD! HE'LL SAVE MEEEE...!! Everyone can go 2 heaven by this way then? Isn't it a little 2 ez? No no no no...the world doesn't work that way at all. After i learned about Buddhism, i felt like...Humans created God..God didn't created Humans..Kill a lamb 2 praise God..So GOd? Y did u even make up the 1st commandment then? The Cycle of Pity     Now, Buddhism isn't only 1 life. The life u have in the is life is probably ur 1000th life. Becuz people die and are reborn again and again and again. Everyone has already been somekind of animal, insect, reptile, human. Everyone has been to hell and heaven. Its called the "The Cycle of Pity" Chritianity says this world lasts around 6000 years. Science says this world lives around 6 billion years , rite? But Buddhism says that the world is a lot longer than that. Millions , Billions, and Trillions of years..almost close to infinity. This world has already perished and is reborn for so many times as well. Did u know that even b4 the stone age, there is yet a well advanced civilized world that has been perished b4 that!? The reason the world starts again is because the sinning of people is great. Sin(Kharma) is everywhere, until all humans die and become animals. ANimals still sin and become even bigger and more terrible animals such as dinosaurs. So much sin, until it finally ends, and starts over again. Do you wonder why 20-30 years b4 people live till the age of 100something? But nowadays, people live till only 70something.  That is because the power of sin(karma).  Also, not only do we have this universe, there are also other universes as well.Merits and Karma      Everything is balanced between good and evil. Karma is like the salt in the bottom half of the cup. Water is the merit. NOw, if u wanna go to heaven, u must increase the water until the salt flows out. Creating good deeds until it overcomes karma, will lead u 2 a better life next life. In the next life, u might realize urself, and doing merits is 2nd nature, this will lead u to an even better life, a richer life, an easy relazing life with even less problems. When u do a lot of merit, the next life u will decied to become a monk. Becoming gains a lot a lot a lot a lot of merit.  If ur a regular person, whenever u do good deeds, u get x1. But when ur a monk, whenever u do good deeds, u will get x227(the rules u follow in monkhood) Even if ur a big sinner who kills,cheats, steals, lies...once u become a monk, the merits overcome the karma. Its like a law of addition and subtraction. Becoming a monk, u will b able 2 close the doors of hell 4 both ur mom and dad and urself as well and u will be born a human throughout the 64 times the earth dies and rebirths. UR dad and mom will get 32 times. What u must overcome b4 u can achieve 2 b a Monk     Being a monk is very hard. Even an 80,000 year old king must still give respect to a monk. Even the the angels in the sky must give respect to a monk. Anyone who has become a monk is considered very lucky and is full of merits that has been done in the past lives. Whoever is a monk this life isn't a coincidence. Only those who has become a monk from the previous lives b4 can b a monk this life. Now think..how many countries in this world are there? Those who live in other parts of the world that dont even know aboutl about Buddhism r considered still full of karma n r not ready 2 have enough merits 2 become a monk.  After that, only men can become a monk. Becuz the Perfect Body of God is a male. Women cannot become monks, they must die & birth , die & birth & do continuous merits just to become a male to be able to fulfill the monkhood. Those who are meritful enough 2 b born male mite not have enough merits 2 bcome a monk either, becuz of retardness, crippledness, deformity, missing a body part or so. Animals surely can't become a monk either. Those who are born ready with everything, but have died b4 becoming a monk r also considered lacking enough merits. Those who do live in Asia, but do not believe in Buddhism r also considered not meritful enough. Those who're born a male in the rite country and has the urge 2 become a monk, but is stopped by his parents or influenced by girlfriend not to become a monk still has karma that is winning over merits.., evenEven those who do become Monks, but do not act according to monks and do not obey the rules do have enough merits, but their karma r still heavy enough 2 make them sin while they r monks. Sinning while in Monkhood pulls u even lower then those who r not monks in2 the deepets pits of Hell.  Comparisons between Buddhism and the Movies.Now, has ne one seen 'the Matrix'? The directors of the Matrix fully understand Buddhism. The matrix is like our lives. It runs in this circle..birth and death...a cycle that goes on forever."The Cycle of Pity" Whoever does merits go to a better life next life, such as a millionaire, a monk, a someone with good health, a clever mind, or with good looks, and finally become closer 2 going 2 heaven. Those who sin a lot go 2 hell 1st and stay there 4 many million years b4 being born an animal for many many lives b4 being born as a poor, a flirty, a prostitute, an alchoholic, or a thief the next life. Problems in life will increase, diseases are likely to happen to them as well. Or perhaps will b born deformed or retarded.   The ones that are free from the matrix are like monks that reach Nirvana thru meditation (i'll explain this light later on...) that sees everything, and why we are born. Those who are free from the matrix want to free others as well from the matrix (telling about doing merits, inviting them to temples, inviting them to become monks) Those that are still in the matix are like people that don't know ne thing about life after death. Those who are obssessed with lust, greed, anger, sloth, gluttony, envy, & pride. Living out the days, without having a clue as 2 why they were born, or wherey they will go when they die. The matrix is created by the architect...which is the devil. The devil creates illusions in our lives of being human by sending us lust for sex, greed for money, anger 2 neone that doesn't has his/her way.  In Buddhism, God (probably Neo) is only a man that does continuous merits for many many millions n millions of lives until he is born in heaven and still does merits in heaven and is pure enough 2 become God. The goal of Buddhism & meditation is to let go...let go of everything. Sound familiar? Star Wars fans? To become a Jedi, u must let go of love and hate...those who have died, (such as ur parents) u musn't mourn 4 their loss, but when they are alive u must do as much as u can 2 repay what they have done 4 u. If ne Jedi that still has love or hate, will eventually go to the dark side of the force.Why Do People Forget who they were in the Previous Life?Its all done because of Karma and the Cycle of Pity created by Devil. Now think, u've stayed in ur mother's womb 4 how long? 9 months. In ur mommy's stomache, ur head is squished, ur body can't move a muscle. By the time, u've been squeezed out of the vagina. Ur head has been in a lot of pressure.That's y all babies cry when they r born, other than crying 4 oxygen.What is Hell Like?         1. Killing animals: Leads to going 2 hell level 1. Where they torture u. Those who r in the meat industry will surely go. Becuz the killing of cows, pigs, chickens 4 sale. In hell, the guardians of hell will kill u the same way u killed those animals. If u pluck feathers from a duck, lets say. U will b plucked of ur arm and legs in hell. Everything in hell is black. Only the guardians can c u. Everything is hot, 10000000 times the heat of the sun. After ur let of out of hell, u will still b born an animal. If u kill 1 duck lets say..u'll b born a duck for another 100 lives. Once ur free from being born an animal, u'll b born a human, who will eventually die a young age, or be killed by the ducks that r born a human in the same life as u are. When this karma as faded, u will still have diseases such as heart attacks, cancer, n so on.         2.Stealing n Cheating:Off u go 2 Hell level 2. Maybe the guardians of Hell will tear u apart, steal ur eyeballs, ur teeth, ur tongues, ur legs, fingers, ears..n so on. Once torn out, the blood that splashes out as acid that will melt away ur body. Once born a human, u become a poor person. Or people will steal from ur house, burn ur house, u will lose all posessions. Even if ur karma has faded, u will still 4get ur possessions somewhere or lose them by coincidence. Every wonder y some people never lose their things, n that u always lose ur pens, ur bagpack, or y u can't keep money when ur always saving. Or y ur always cheated by money loans n stuff like that? That is karma my dear friend. Not coincidence or bad luck.         3.Sex, Flirting, Not being true 2 ur partnerOne of the deadliest. Becuz Devil designed this sin to become something that people enjoy. It differs from the other sins. Everyone luvs sex. Now, do u every wonder y girls don't really care about sex, n that guys think about sex every 10 mins? Even when men r considered the gendre that can become monks? i'll tell u why. Males r considered lucky 2 b born males...Devil will become even more aggressive to this gendre. Males r born 2 sin n do karma. Females r born 2 do merits. Males sin by having sex with many girls, swinging partners sometimes, making girls pregnant n becoming irresponsible sometimes, being playboy sometimes, raping, adultery, insest, having secret affairs, n many wives. Once men sin, they will become women, sometimes when its heavy karma like being a pimp 4 a whore house..he'll b born a prostitute, a victim of a rapist, a child that's been harassed since early age. When its really heavy karma, they'll become transvestites, fags, lesbians, or even dogs..Do u ever notice dogs? Dogs breathe heavily just like those who r pervertic. Dogs have sex ne where they want with no shyness watsoever unlike other animals. Dogs like 2 sniff out other dogs's sex organs. Humans that like swinging n switching partners in the same room will become dogs, cuz dogs do it in groups rite in the middle of the street. Dogs don't even know who they're moms and dads r. The dog child eventually goes on 2 mate with the dog mother! Sound familiar? Like the habits of incest. Females, tend 2 become the victim of men becuz of their karma, yet a lot of women stay home take care of children n r not really sex crazed. That is y women like 2 keep their virginity as long as possible while men like 2 lose thier virginity as soon as possible. Woman have 2 bare children, menstruation, sometimes have abortion, become the punching bags of drunk men, all becuz of Karma. Once men do a lot of Karma. The r born as women. That is y only 1 out of 7 people r men...the rest r women..Becuz of Karma...Even with the technology these days, internet makes porn available 2 even children, creating Karma at a very young age. The more advanced the world becomes, the more karma will occur. Making humans become animals, animals becoming weirder animals such as dinosaurs. Humans will disappear, eaten by dinosaurs..Technology becomes out of hand...wars start ...blah blah blah...     When in hell, the Guardians will put in their huge, burning, spiked dicks in the females. The females organs will tear apart. Once the Guardians of Hell r finish n reach orgasm, their sperms will come out as burning acid. There r also Female Guardians dat torture the men. he Female Guardians have sharp vaginas that open n close like a Venus Fly Trap! or like Trapjaw!They chomp away at the mens' sex organs. Once the sex organs r chomped away..the organs grow again, n r chomped again, grow again n chomped again. There will b no time 2 even think, "WHY THE HELL I'M BORN IN HELL" cuz the pain and suffering goes on n on n on.       Lets go 2 no. 5: Drinking Alchohol n SmokingI really don't understand drinkers. Whenever there is a party, a wedding, birthdayparty, a celebration, alchohol is always there. The problem these days is that sinning has become so common, it becomes something normal. The 1st time u kill a mosquito, some people mite feel bad about it. But its been done again n again until its natural, its common. Drinking as well. Remember ur 1st drink or 1st smoke? u've been taught in school n at home...not 2 drink n not 2 smoke..n there goes a friend offering u a drink or a smoke.. He tells u..the whole town's doin it..U feel different ..u feel abnormal becuz u dont' drink . u dont' smoke..so there u go..u drink. u take a smoke..just 2 fit in.and become normal just like others.   Do u think its hard 2 sin? Everyone who hears this question would b like...no way!! Its ez 2 become bad, but hard 2 become a good person. Well , i'll tell ya..There r 4 factors 2 make a Karma work..Lets say alchohol a. The water must have alchohol. if it doesn't ur fine.. b. U must have the intention 2 drink...if u've accidently drank it without knowing, it is not a karma. c. If u drank it already, but didnt know, its still not a karma. d.Did or did not the drink go thru the throat. In order 4 a karma 2 work is 2 break all factors. If 1 is left out, it means u didn't commit karma. So its really not that ez 4 someone 2 commit karma or 'sin'.Those who drink alchohol, will go 2 hell level 5. U will b forced 2 drink acid by the guardians of hell. U will then throw up as acid, melting away at ur stomaches. The sellers of alchohol such as owners of pubs, or owners of liquor stores, b born as a giant in hell that lives in the volcano of acid alchohol lava. He barf as acid, melting himself 4 millions of years until he shrinks n is free of the volcano, but must still suffer like the other alchoholics at the base of the volcano of liquor acid lava.Wat is Heaven like?It is so clear how painful Hell is like..Heaven on the other hand is not as clear, becuz we've never experienced that kind of happiness b4. All happiness on earth has an end some day. But in Nirvana n Heaven, happiness is infinite. There are 6 floors of Heaven. Humans can only attain the 1st 4 floors.First of all, no pain. No diseases. Whichever way u sit, u won't get cramps. No need to feel sleepy. No need for eating. Everyone will look good. The dressings will be elegant. No body odors. Whatever u think will happen automatically. Whatever u want, u will get it just by the slightest thought, except 4 bad thinkings. Do Miracles happen in Buddhism?Miracles really do happen. A case study i heard was about a mom dying of cancer in its last stage. B4 she was gonna die, she told her daughter 2 make a golden buddha statue at the Dhammakaya Cetiya 4 her. A cetiya is kinda like a shrine 2 worship. After her daughter donated the money 2 build the statue,. imprinted with her mom's name, her mom soon afterwards felt better. After a few days she was able 2 leave the hospital in good condition. The doctor couldn't believe his eyes, becuz he definitly couldn't do a thing 2 make her mom better.I experienced the same thing with my mom. My mom also has cancer at her large intestines. However, she doesn't have ne symptoms except pooing along with blood. When the time came that i was to become a monk, she couldn't sleep 4 the 1st nite that i was about 2 leave my house n stay at the temple, becuz of happiness and glee. Whatever a monk does, he gets a lot more merit than a normal human being. So when i was a monk i created my own golden buddha statue both imprinted with my name and Luang Por Tamachaiyo's name. Creating 4 someone else gets even more merits than urself. After that, my mom got a decent amount of money from the bank all of a sudden. I told her, that 'wow, this really does work! This mean that God wants u 2 save that money n create another statue 4 urself , u know!" Creating statue images also involves how much ur proud n happy  u are. If u create 10 images but u still feel that u shouldn't have wasted so much money, u will still get less merit than a person that has created only 1 image but feels filled with tears of joy for making that statue.ANother miracles happend back when i was a 11th grader i think. That time the Cetiya was being built. And the temple had many people who opposed it. That time also, i didn't worship ne thing at all. Yet, i saw something miraculous, which was the sun. At around 4pm everyone was able to look directly at the sun, when usually the sun was sooo brite dat no one could look at it directly without squinting. This time i looked at it with my naked eyes. It was soft on the eyes, and i could c that it changed color. From white 2 blue 2 pink, 2 green and so on..and felt that the sun bounced a litttle bit too...Other people were like filled with tears of joy also. Everyone there saw it. Some even said that they c it as a clear crystal ball like when u reach ur Inner Nirvana. N some even said that they saw the Monk who discovered the way of Dhammakaya which is Luang Poo Soj Jarntasaro floating in2 the sun.Do Ghosts exist?Ghosts are real and are everywhere. Remember the Tsunami? Well, in Phuket, Thailand. Everything was wiped out, except this hotel owner that was a follower of Buddhism. Other than that were pubs, casinos, and hookerhouses. All of those who have died a sudden death, eventually become ghosts. Some already know that they died, some don't even know. Those who don't even know keep on running up 2 the mountains where its safe. Some just keep on talkin with the living, and r still confused y the livin don't talk back. WHen actually they don't hear the voices of the dead. Some become tall skinny creatures with mouths the size of pin holes along with rotting skin and wander around the house for food. This is y in some places or houses u get foul smells 4 a period of time without knowing the reason of it. Some that do good deeds in this life but have died becuz of previous life's karma become sky angels or land angels. Land angels r those that walk on top of trees. Sky angels live in the sky and can go ne where they wish to go.What happens when u die?When u die a natural death or death from disease. U will c a series of images of ur life. What u did good and what u did bad. Its kinda like a judgement day whether u will go up 2 heaven or go down 2 hell. These images run thru the brain like a movie that's bein fast forwarded. If u remember the good deeds, u will go on to become a human or up 2 heaven u go. But if u think only about the bad things u did(even if u did a lot of good things) hell will b dragging u down instead of heaven. What is Nirvana? How 2 meditate...Did u know that just by meditating and seeing the light within urself, u will have more merits than a person will ever have by building a temple? The light within urself is called Nirvana. By reaching Nirvana, u will automatically go to Heaven. Why look 4 happiness else where when it is found in urself? Nirvana, is the state that u have reached internal ultimate peace, infinite harmony n supreme happiness. All u have to do when meditating is sit straight, in indian style sitting, with ur right leg on ur left. Ur rite hand on ur left, with ur rite thumb touching ur left index finger on ur lap. Stop everything. No thinking, no moving, no speaking, no opening of eyes. Everything stops. Relax...don't stress ur muscles or nething. No need 2 focus on ur breathing either. Think of nothing...IF u think its hard, u can picture an image of Buddha inside. IF u speak in ur thoughts, u can stop it by saying "SAMA..ARAHANG" silently n continuously. DON'T EVER...have the 'want' 2 c the light. Don't feel nething. Ur job is 2 c whatever is shown behind ur eyelids. Its like watching a movie. But this is like watching a blank screen. Stop by relaxing. Be ok with what is shown. Look w/o looking. We're just the audience. Put ur mind in the center of ur body. It mite b hard at 1st becuz we're so used 2 using our brains n looking and thinking about complicating things. So when it comes to stopping everything, we mite not b used 2 it.Meditation also gives a whole lot of things other than Nirvana. It helps ur forgetfulness, it helps calms u down, it helps ur brain and thinking, it helps u have focus.Being neutral helps u 2bcome tolerant, it helps u become polite, it helps u become smart,people won't know what ur thinking, n makes others think ur confident.  Start by meditating 2 times a day: Rite when u wake up. & B4 going 2 bed. Even tho i've meditated 4 hours until my knees n butt feel like exploding. But i recommend u start at around 5 mins should b enough. Those who have the time and have the willingness can sit for hours if u like. If u feel pain, u can move a little bit. After all, u must feel relaxed when ur meditating..<img title="When Meditating.." alt="When Meditating.." src="file:///C:/Documents%20and%20Settings/Administrator/Desktop/à¸˜à¸—à¸¢1/DSC01922.1" align="middle" border="0" />The way to MeditateThe world has only 3 problems: 1.Pain n diseases. 2.Poorness 3. Lacking of KnowledgeThese 3 can all b fulfilled by Buddhism. If u think carefully. If u stop ur karma, u won't have ne pain n diseases. If u offer meals to monks, or donate money 4 creating monasteries, u'll have more fortune. By listening 2 Lord Buddha, u will gain so much more knowledge than by going 2 schools. By keeping urself clean of sinning, n giving away ur possessions 4 others, and by praying 4 watever u want, u'll eventually become a more wise person as well.Once in a Life Time:I'm sure everyone loves either their mom or dad or both. In one lifetime, all that ur mom and dad has given u, either it be money for u 2 spend, or love for u 2 feel secure, or all the caretaking that they have been thru, or the whenever u have a problem their the only ones that can help u. If u are a male, with a complete body, i really want u, i really suggest to u, and i plead that u should become a monk at least once in ur life just for them. It could be just ur mom, or it could be just ur dad also. No matter what religion ur in, u r always welcome 2 monkhood in Buddhism. Becuz Buddhism doesn't want u 2 believe or have faith in Buddhism, but Buddhism wants u 2 overcome ur sins, do good deeds to subtract all ur sins away, and to teach others to become good people like ur are. What better way to do good deeds then to become a monk. Y must u become a monk u ask? Becuz all ur good deeds that u do during monkhood will be able to subtract more than half of the sins u have done in this life.  When ur in a normal person, ur deeds will only add by one at a time,  but in monkhood ur good deeds will multiply by hundreds. All i ask is that in 1 lifetime, do it 4 the ones u love. U can b in Monk state as long as u want. The least numbers u can stay is 9 days. However, Monkhood is all about addition n subtraction of merits and karma. So that means the longer u stay, the more chance u will get 2 go 2 heaven. If u do find ur inner peace during monkhood, no doubt about it..u will go 2 heaven 4 sure. Ask ur local Buddhism centers or enter <a href="http://www.dmc.tv/">www.dmc.tv</a> . And select the language u desire.Interested Yet?If ne one who's interested...i recommend u going 2 this website. Its called DMC: The only one channel. It teaches about Buddhism. Its a satellite channel that is the latest trend thats goin world wide. It has morning n evening prayers. Has meditation techniques.. music videos with 3d animation...3d animation of what hell looks like...3d animation of wat heaven looks like.. The best thing about it , is that it has case studies..People write letters to Luang Por Tamachaiyo. The co-founder of Wat Dhammakaya. He can answer all ur questions, such as ' why am i born a transvestite, why do i have cancer n must have 5 operations, y am i born a prostitute, did my dead father receive my merits in time? y did my brother hang himself, was i born with my mom in the previous life, becuz i feel that r really close, what merits did i do 2 become a bill gates?..n other interesting questions etc. Whoever decides to become a Monk, i will b very proud n happy 4 u. And its not strange, i've seen a lot of foreigners as monks in Thailand. Those whe even don't know how 2 speak Thai.<a href="http://www.dmc.tv/">www.dmc.tv</a>Contact dmc.tv and u can own ur own satellite channel called DMC to watch at home. Its 24-7<img title="When i was a Monk" alt="When i was a Monk" src="file:///C:/Documents%20and%20Settings/Administrator/Desktop/à¸˜à¸—à¸¢1/DSC01768.1" align="middle" border="0" />When I was a Monk<img title="In the Ocean of Merit" alt="In the Ocean of Merit" src="file:///F:/Personal%20Files/My%20Pictures/PhraChow3.1" align="middle" border="0" />In the Ocean of Merit Religion & Ethics http://hk.zorpia.com/Zadisma/journal/1234884 Mon, 27 Jun 2005 08:35 EST