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2003年10月31日 下午4點16分00秒how should i start that fucking...
how should i start that fucking paper...? kinda crapped with the undescribable feelings for the whole afternoon.... geez..
2003年10月30日 下午5點00分00秒hafn't been so relaxed for long... though...
hafn't been so relaxed for long... though tons of work is still awaiting, i watched kill bill tonite with stevie and edith in causeway.. i like it pretty much.. reckon it as the best movie of the year so far... not that i love blood and vioence, i'm kinda scared actually, but i think quentin tarantino's just a very smart director... u can't simply find any desolate scenes in the whole 2 hours... damn sure i'm gonna watch episode2 later on.. (though i still don't haf any idea when it'll be showing...) haggen-daz and lunch with alva ,jeff and matthew apart from the movie.. jealous of such a wonderful day..?? hehe 
yeaah... i'm reallie at ease...
it's funny when i heard that my friends are actually wondering if i'm that eager to get myself a boyfriend... well... nope i can tell yall. i mean, i'm kinda lonely sometimes, feeling like i'm only working on my own while work's real tough. but i'm still doing fine... i'm trying hard to pull myself together for the coming half a year. i like somebody at the moment though cuz i enjoy being with that somebody, but then nothing's gonna happen cuz neither of us is gonna take any action. sometimes it's kinda sad to realise initiative is so damn difficult to take, but perhaps it's already our optimal. who knows..? and which of us dare to start working on it....?
2003年10月25日 上午6點12分00秒feeling a bit depressed when i realise the...
feeling a bit depressed when i realise the fact that someone used to adore me doesn't love me as much as before.. seems like the once superior position diminishes eventually. well.. everyone, or every girl, likes to be loved, we enjoy the feeling of being surrounded by followers...not only showing the value of our attrictiveness, but it makes us less lonely.. cuz we know, out there, a pair of hands is always opening and waiting to give us a big cuddle.. no matter we get hurt by somebody else or what.
but should we know in this fucking entire world, there's no eternity? nobody's gonna stand there giving out his love forever, without gaining anything back. everyone has his own calculator and his own equations, we haf our limits and we'll protect ourselves when they're over.
should i actually be happy cuz in this moment, i finally set someone free.
2003年10月23日 下午4點03分00秒Somedays you and i love each other Other...
Somedays you and i love each other
Other days we have to work at it
You never see the hard days in the photo album
But those will bring us the next happy snap shots
and those will bring us our future
so true..
2003年10月22日 上午8點52分00秒how often do you call for a break up..? in a...
how often do you call for a break up..? in a relationship, what would he actually do to trigger you to say "break up"....?
when the passion's gone, people soon become so picky. we discover more and more of our boyfriends' bad things... we might know about them since the day we met, yet, they weren't bad at all at that time. we felt in love with their bad habits too. day by day, we started to feel they're unbearable, moreover, we demanded that if they love us enough, they should change for us, for me especially. everytime these bad things come out, we get so furious, threathening we're gonna break up. until the time they buy a little gift, make a tiny phone call, the break up suddenly disappears, and everything's resolved.
why do girls like to murmur into our boyfriends' ears so much? most of the times when the murmur goes on, it will end with the girl's call for break up.
but i believe break up has a quota. it's reallie something serious. when you call it for too many times, boyfriends won't bother about it anymore, just like tear. when it turns into a routine thing, do girls reallie mean it when they say "break up"? however, sometimes, it reallie turns true in the moment we aren't mean to break.