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2009年1月24日 下午6點35分49秒Together Forever
I want you in my life so much more than anyone else I want us to be together, together forever I want to be loved for the one who I am not for who you want me to be I want your love and no one else's I want to feel your touch, soft and gentle like no other I want to hear your voice so calming and fear free I want to hear you say you love me more than anything I want your lips to touch mine for the very first time I want to walk with you hand in hand I want your arms around me so I feel safe and protected I want you to hold me just cause you can I want you to hold me even when I cry I want your arms around my waist so they know that im yours I want you to be there when I need you most I want to be able to trust you, so keep my secrets deep inside I want you to love me for whats on the inside, not the out I want you to tell the truth no matter how much it hurts I want you to say your sorry when you do something wrong I want to be with you just you and me I want your hand to touch my face to dry up my tears I want you to hold me just cause you love me I dont want this relationship to end cause I LOVE YOU
2009年1月9日 上午10點45分48秒Missing piece of my heart
Missing piece of my heart As a tear rolls down on my cheek, I realize that I am at a crossroad within my heart. As I look upon memories and the shattering dreams that lay on my hearts floor another tear drop falls. I thought at one time that I had it all. I thought I had found the one person who could bear my soul with peace of knowing they would love me for tomorrows to come. That they held the qualities that would truly become the missing piece of my heart, making me feel better or worse..we could see anything through. My world was turned upside down back and if only in blindness did I feel I had found the new love of my life but slowly, something chipped away at my heart and my self-confidence. I began to realized that he didn't love me. I could tell by reading the messages, the hesitation, and the lack of warmth in talking.Then distance became greater until we were just friends and not good friends at all. Lost was the sense that he appreciated me, that he valued my feelings...and that he will take care of me... I pretend that It was just a phase he was going through...but I was wrong soon...I was anger of myself for being so eager to please, to spoil and make him feel that he was the most important thing in my life. I wished in my stained pillow that it was just a bad dream but each time I awakened I knew it was not a dream. Love is never perfect..I wasn't naive...On the road of life there are detours, dead-ends, u turns and road closed signs where two people are supposed to rely on each other to still reach where we were heading. I came to a crossroads where I had to make a decision. Is this the type of relationship that I wanted? Is this how I wanted my final years to end? Did I want my last breath to shout? ...I hate you or I love u? Love is not love when only one person is loving or It can't be a one-way street. So I made a hard decision and ended the love with a shattered heart. The darkness of aloneness wrapped around me like a warmth blanket and I vowed in anger...I will never trust another...I will never allow another to hurt me and to crush my dreams. It was a time of self-realization of who I was as a person. A time to focus on who I was, what my needs were and I was determined to re-build my life for myself, not for someone else. In due time that power of anger weakened and I knew that other's were out there with the same fears that I felt. I knew they too had scars imprinted upon their heart. But like me they too had survived...Now always on guard though for the first sign of a user or player. I was determined to let sunlight chase away the darkness around me... to continue...
2009年1月1日 下午6點27分42秒HOW RICH ARE YOU ?
HOW RICH ARE YOU ?
One day a father and his rich family took his young son on a trip to the country with the firm purpose to show him how poor people can be. They spent a day and a night in the farm of very poor family,When they got back from they trip the father asked to his son ," How was the trip ?"
" Very good dad !"
" Did you see how poor people can be ?" The father asked
" Yeah !"
" And what did you learn ?"
The son answered ," I saw that we have a dog at home ,and they have four. We have a pool that reaches to the middle of the garden , they have a creek that has no end. We have imported lamps in the garden , they have a stars. Our patio reaches to the front yard , they have the whole horizon."
When the little boy was finishing, his father was speechless, His son added," Thanks Dad for showing me how poor we are !''
Isn't it true that it all depends on the way you look at things " If you have love , friends , family , health . good humor , and a positive attitude towards life - you've got everything ! You can't buy any of this things. You can have all the materials possessions you can imagine, provision for the future, etc. But if you poor in spirit you have nothing!!!