網誌
2009年1月22日 下午10點11分55秒world of my own....
Every night i stare at the sky wishing on a star, i saw myself reminiscing the old days , the past life, and the bitter and sweet memories i had. Being like these is not easy, people might say i was a loner but im not, i hang out like normal girls, i laugh with friends all along the day, i know how to play ,but when im back on my senses again, a deep emotion is felt like nobody could ever been feeling this way. yes i pretend a lot of times im happy though im not, what else could i wish for? all kinds of things on earth were not given perfectly for me and for everyone on these planet. i have a good house, i have 2 kids which i love dearly and my life evolves with them,i have money , i have a good business, but what is wrong with me>,i glance at myself once again in the mirror and asked my self whats wrong with you? then i realized i missed something else in my life, i dont have a family with me, all through my life i thought i could live bymyself, all through these years, i have grown to be me and face my problems alone, but somehow,nobody could tell how i long to have emotional support from my mom i missed my mom, i cried atnight why i end up to be so stupid, pretending i am independent yet i need them in my life.and now i dont understand if this all what i need to be in life.