2007年1月17日 下午7點46分43秒insomniac

well, things have been rather quiet except these crazy ppl calling me all at once. one of them wants to be with me...i have no intrest in them. and on the verge of blocking her from calling me. Shes nice and all but doesnt strike my interest. and i swear she's more wired on i donno what and is hyper as shit. as well as slightly immature. i know i can be that way, but shes like this all the time. kinda annoying. Also very insecure. thats bad when i think someone is insecure cause im not all secure myself, but im actually doing better on that..

I've been getting alot of compliments lately, and i admit its making me a bit cocky, but i like it. just at the same time i cant let it interfere with my training.

The major thing with me now is that i think im becoming an insomniac because im having the hardest time trying to sleep. i cannot do it to save my life. and when i do sleep i have crazy dreams. i like my dreams but these are really out there. on dream i had was when i was in the far future, and i saw Mo grha shior. She wasnt mine, we were just friends. She was with some guy, who kept making short jokes towards me, and i almost bout beat him to a bloody pulp for it. but that wasnt my dream just part of it. Im not going to detail about it, cause thats not the subject. Anyways, its very weird..my body wants to sleep but my mind is wide awake and im just laying there. Hell i was wide awake at 5am, 6am, and 7am...some of you dont think thats wierd but when it comes to me, I SLEEP TILL 4PM, AND 12PM IS MY MORNING. sooo ya...i cannot sleep, its like my brain refuses to sleep. which is bullshit. and it makes me angry. cause when i dont get my sleep, i get rather pissy, and i dont want to deal with anyone or anything. grrrrr.

well, i didnt think i was going to do it, but the last weekend of this month im going to VA to see my friend Jaxx. Im staying with her for the weekend. no dont even think it cause its not what your thinking. me and her are only friends. plus i dont think should trust me after what i did a long time ago. im such an asshole. but im thinking i might see my friend Tylor too, cause after all he's my brother (metiphorically speaking). Though some of my dreams lately have been involving her, and other past accaintences. very odd. but ya..i think i'll let you know what happens when i get back. AND OMG GOD SHES NEVER SEEN THE MOUSE TRAP! oi! and im gonna kick her ass in Laser Tag! cause im a pretty high ranking player! muwahahhahahaha.

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2007年1月5日 上午3點12分20秒ah it is now 2007

well, its a new year....i had made many revolutions or whatever its called. one of them was part of my trainning thingy..another is for me to stop being so nice to everyone who graces my path, cause after awhile its kinda pointless...not that i'll be mean and cruel (err more then i normally am), but just a bit more assertive. which means im not going to be a door mat any more. also i decided to stop cowarding because (this goes along with the whole niceness thing) when i want to tell some one something, i should just bloody say it. but ya thats ...

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2006年12月2日 下午10點37分52秒new things new things?

ok...lets see...where could i begin...i donno. lets start with living conditions! im still living with one of my best friends, but not for to much longer cause i'll be moving back with another person. this time im not going to be dooped into something that just puts me back to square one. i have a few ideas on places but one of the ones i want is closer to society. a good thing moving with my other friends is that Mo Ghra Shior would be more confortable coming to see me and staying for a bit. which would make me really happy. been too long since i was ...

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