When words spoken softly are insults
When questioned mistakes become lies
When anything said is the wrong answer
And you've had more than the standard three tries

When words can cut deeper than the sharpest knife
And you've cried more than a river of tears
When looks could kill a thousand times over
Maybe it's time to look back through the years

When you search once again for an answer
When there is no answer to be found
When you've said all that you could possibly say
And you're afraid to make another sound

When nothing is right and everything's wrong
When love's full of hatred and fear
Maybe its time to look in the mirror and wonder
What in the hell am I doing here?

Today Tuesday January 29th. 2008 Mody and Joanna are no more

For some unexplainable reason Mody seems to believe i am betraying him with a 24 year old young man from Bangladesh. This kid came to my page leaving some funny quotes on the 13th. I went to his page to thank him for his visit with a very normal comment. He sent me a friends request and i accepted. We exchanged Maybe 6 comments in the past 2 weeks. After asking me a few times, I added him to my yahoo account on Sunday morning but did not Talk to him there until first time 30 minutes ago. I don't know why Mody is so convinced that there is more between this young man and me. I tried to talk to him but he will not listen. This evening He told me that he hates me and sent me to hell.

The greatest love is over for him

Amendment to Journal February 1st. 2008
Thank God I did not give up and pushed Mody to talk it out and we did. We spend all last night on the phone and are now ready for compromises. He will try to control his Jealousy and I promise not to be too sweet to other men. MODY AND JOANNA ARE BACK AGAIN