2009年3月23日 下午9點47分07秒bits and pieces

i dunno why my fingers and wrists are so heavy now when i type.

i feel that my heart is so heavy either.

to be honest i am fairly disappointed. afterall u are just another one.

u know i hate it. i dun like guessing. i value communication and i treat it as a very important element of relationships.

why do u have to lie and pretend nth had happened. i'd rather u to tell me everything in your mind and tell us off.

now i feel complicated. i am disappointed, angry, guilty, worried, scared.

simply dunno how to react. i know i was wrong in the first place, but do u think u are doing the right thing keeping slience?

no.

definately not. well at least to a person like me i totally disagree.

tell me to carry on working? how could i? i value friendship so much and u know i can sit still and my heart is thobbing unstoppably.

stop being so stubborn. u are generally a nice person but just stop being so stubborn. it causes no harm listening to what others say.

it also causes no harm telling us what u think.

do not always being at a postition of 'deprived' or 'coward'.

step down. do not stand so firm on your ground.

i can be right too. as well as you.

that's why i think communication and being honest is the key of every relationships.

keep avoiding isnt gonna work.

it's not my style either.

it is just hurting me.

now i get to a point that i dun wanna stop typing. not that i have so much to say, but maybe i dunno what else to do. no mood in watching movie, no motivation at working, no mood at doing anything basically. i feel suffocated. maybe i  am killing time cus i am waiting for your butt to stick on your chair so that i can knock on your door for the third time.

u keep hiding and avoiding me when i entered your room. u said it's because of the movie. rubbish. i am not that dumb yet. do not treat me/think of me as an idiot.

i tresure u as my good friend. that's why i want to talk. otherwise i wouldnt bother just like how i treat her. not even got on my nevers or annoyed anymore.

i dunno when will it end but things have been werid lately.

god give me wisdom to handle my emotion.

i am running out of things to type. i guess i should stop.

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2008年4月18日 上午2點26分28秒??

what am i thinking?

what are u thinking?

oh well i dun even know. ...

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2008年2月29日 下午4點34分18秒friends!

wow god u are so good to me. u give me such a observant and small heart friend.

what else i can ask for?

in fact both of them are too good to me to an extent that i dunno how to react now. ...

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