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2006年6月25日 下午7點31分09秒The Ten Ton False Legacy of Balance
The trend I am referring to in this following instance is a general shift in gender domination.
I will state here and now the most obvious truth that would otherwise remain static and occulted: Balance has been missrepresented. Balance is the central point on a linear range spanning outward. It is merely a mark on the line of everchanging, shifting and/or simultaneous events. Equilibrium cannot be maintained without totality (i.e the sum of all things). It is merely a mark in time. As balance requires the totally of everything. At this totality we would see the time/space illusion break down and we would find ourselves with an equilibrium quite akin to nothingness. Balance is brief, fleeting and overrated. It is a mark on a chaotic flow of events, like 2pm or the leaf is green. Moments from now it will not be 2pm and months from now the leaf will not be green. Striving to achieve balance is akin to attempts at making it always 2pm or the leaves always green. They are all ridiculously impossible scenarios as anything less then the total sum of existence is not balanced. If it appears as such we simple are looking at the situation from too close or too far away.
For what seems to be since time immemorable, Man has dominated (of course not in all cultures, these alternatives are abberations) over the female of our species. Out of nessecity, fear (ego), or logical flow of nature, I am not in this moment prepared to consider. Any that think they have a clear indication of the true trend is further away from it then they think. There exists a limited amount of pieces to extract a trend from, and to do so now would get you a sickly, weak design, so fuck off and shut up. Because I can sense someone, somewhere, trying to wrap their head around it, failing and then distorting the facts to meet their means. Corrupting others with their inability to consider that they cannot have all the answers locked within themselves. Naivity pushed us this far in poor directions, keep it up and we'll be digging the hole deeper for the purpose of escaping it. I am simply repackaging what we know thus far in a perspective possibly shifting and spinning out of the known thought disposition.
Things move in patterns. A pattern of fluidity, when peered at from the correct distance. Too close and you see no movement whatsoever. The idiot might stand up and say: "It's balanced!". But keep moving away from it. Step back. Time and space, you gather?. The further you step back, the more of the pattern you will eventually perceive. But what if we exist in an infinite universe? We cannot perceive a balance without totality, and we as human beings cannot manage to wrap our minds around the totality of the self - less be said of existence as we know it. So anything declared as balance is in error, as the trend or flow of what you observe has not yet been fully grasped.
Within the last century flow between genders has been quantifiable. The naturally order of things has been fermenting in the collective unconscious. Now that the dynamics and trends have been quantified the next step is an illogical rejection of that reality (why we do that I do not fully comprehend, I can make instinctual assessments, but not here, not now).
Dominance is moving to the female gender. The clear impetus is the ethics among animals mentallity of human beings. I'm not going to predict what things would be like if the male of the species operated outside of this ethics. Do not for a moment think that he does not resist his animal instinct. It is an insult to my intellect and a litmus test for male hatred to suggest he follows no moral code. I'm not suggesting any male wants to follow this alternative to the natural progression. I only claim that he does follow it. He definitely has the great subconscious need to circumnavigate the roundabout methods he must use to achieve propagation of the species. Naturally speaking, new trends will be inefficient, as it is not a natural progression of the species, it is a human progression, complex and abstract. That is why western culture will eventually be overtaken by another which does not play by the same set of rules. But that is another story altogether.
Do not recognize my thinking as valid? Well, consider quantifiable indications of stagnation of the former trends. Such as same sex relations. Once again I am aware that they have been in occurrence since time immemoreable. But the quantity, degree, and blatantly materialistic-based nature of this homosexual trend, presently indicates a defiance, a rejection of culture or the natural order of animals as it stands. Eventually all the nessecary elements will flow until resistence is minimal. This we can predict as one scenario of three:
-The male of the species will acknowledge and
accommodate the female gender. He will assume
her role as the submissive.
-The male will not relent and reclaim his famil-
iar state. The female gender will accomodate.
-Neither gender will relinquish what they assume
to be rightfully their position. Homosexual trends
will increase. Mating and propogation sacrificed to
those whom are not rejecting logical reality.
Propogation by those clearly not the superior
genes, as dissent brews first in those of higher
intellect; the species will progress regardless.
This gender power exchange will rise again and
again until it has enough steam to overtake the
current state.
This is why I refer to balance. We cannot obtain an equally sexual species. One dominates the other. That is the dynamics. We as a species have a rareity of consciousness of our own instinct and memory/history of the trend. The advent of technology and the stangancy of the norm clearly have compounded to give rise to change. Eventually we will see change. This change will be followed by reversion to the former state or to one wholey new and unfamiliar. No equilibrium, just breaths of brief equality whilst power changes hands.
Putting this onto page is not at all nessecary. If fact I may have done more harm than good (if one acknowledges any part of what I say, making attempts to wrestle conclusion from it). It may very well be inconsequential, too.
In essence it is my ego that has compulsed me to transcribe this thought (the ego is the impetus in every human action). I am simply indicating the state of things. I have no real fear of the trend. No deep need to amass the men of the universe to oppress the rising woman and her quest for a change in power. We all know the rules of the game. For now: I am man, I will release my seed into the great totality as I recognize my genes beneficial to the species. I chose with whom this will occur. I will take pride in it, in the act, in the healthy offspring. This new exchange in trend appears impossible to implement without grand movement and chaos. In order to confirm that this is the nessecary progression of the species I reccomend giving into instinct. Instinct will dance round the abstract human effort, which is to find a perfect world through imperfect individuals. Things will progress within the monotonous onslaught of existence and we will find ourselves nowhere other than where we are supposed to be. If that means a cease to all, then so be it.
Unfortunately, the progression of us as a species will not be swayed by a few knowledgeable individuals attempting to make waves. All that we are as a species can be represented as cogs and gears, ticking away. The unyeilding behemoth mechanism would reveal to us ends and progression if we only knew the nature of all the parts. Once we know these names and behaviours of the pieces we can move them to our will, abiding by only the measures of existence.
2006年6月20日 上午2點01分44秒The Last Word On Futilty Of My Intentions
Why do I do it? Just put it all out for the mass to absorb, distill, ignore. Never embrace. I consider myself lucky if an individual even makes an attempt to get to the last period of a minor paragraph.
I have no expectations, ideals or destiny in mind for anything I present. I am merely human. Thinking is what I do. Communication is what built our collective conscious. Without it we would not have progressed to this point (I am neither suggesting value or lack of value to our current position). So I embrace the communication of thought as it is natural. I am an artist, working in the medium of human trend. I will compose a life worth stepping back to view in all it's splendor. A glorious enigma with all the pieces there to assess in the end.
Maybe I ramble on about nothing. It's very possible I present nothing new. Maybe I am biased in some unforeseen way and all that I consider relevant to be in actuality trite and prosy dogma. Truly inconsequential to the rest of the universe, negating my purpose but validating what I have assumed from the beginning: Human thought is, from the human perspective, the most important thing she/he can do. But from outside the human perspective it is so neglibile that it cannot be placed into equation, i.e. meaningless.
I would like to note that this is in no way to be considered pessimism. It is reason/logic efficiently utilized, all barrels firing. It satiates me to know that what we are and what we do is all for and by us. The only meaning is from the human perspective. Pressures are exerted only from the inside, our own imaginination/ego.
I create because I have conditioned myself to think on a daily basis amid all the foam and clutter in which we all do navigate. I sort through all the information that I may see as relevant and find those fragrancing a way for us to understand ourselves a little better. I, then, trim away all the useless fat and residue. Soon after I aesthetically wrap it up for you. I package it in some tragically human or unfamiliar etheral beauty in order to entice you onwards and compensate an audience a missed oppurtunity for distraction.
But for what audience do I trudge onward amid the blind grinding chaotic flow? Does anyone hear me when I speak? Is it even of consequence? That depends on the perspective. . .
From the human stand point it is one of my greastest desires to communicate with learned individuals on relevant subjects (hence the new group I created, note its lack of members). I absolutely adore the chance to conduct an exchange on matters spanning the gamut of my knowledge. Or the ability to experience and gain new knowledge. However, if nothing amounts from all my existence I will remain satisfied that what I thought, cherished, loathed and experienced was metaphorically planted. The oppurtunity for it to take root was given and if nothing sprouts . . . then I feel comfort in knowing I did all that I could to prove what the natural order may or may not be. The pattern which may not integrate my collected perspectives on old questions can only give us new angles, where we may see things in new lights, brightening the dark and self imposed difficult road.
2006年6月19日 上午3點06分49秒Living in the Land of Grays and Neutralites
I think that we may be possibly stuck. Think of our brains as an air compressor, and all the pieces we need to assemble to understand are out there - floating in the ether. When we try and pull them all in and maintain posession of them a valve is triggered due to the great pressure exerted within. The valve opens and all the ideas spill out at the moment when we feel understanding was almost wrestled out of some previously endarkened corner.
I propose that there are no sides, there are no ways to categorize. I'm not suggesting complete non existence of the trait of categorization as the concepts appear from a human perspective. Truly, there is no difference betwixt good and evil, there is no good DNA, there is no bad DNA. We are not purposeless, nor are we with great unseen purpose. All things human are irrelevant from a non-human stand point. Take the human ego out of the situation and you are left with very little. I suggest that an abstract concept or a physical object/organism can not be revered, scorned or considered from anything but a human stand point as we attribute all our qualities to these concepts in order to wrestle with them.
We are arbitrarily here, without direction - save what we impose upon ourselves. Matter and empty space are of equal concern, the only thing that changes is our biased opinions that things come into place, or valued attributed according to benificence or impending threat upon the survival of the species, the race or one man.
2006年6月19日 上午2點34分07秒The Damaged Collective Conscious
I tend to dwell on the subject of ancient history from time to time. In a heated discourse on the subject, between breaths an individual most usually interjects, "Why do you know so much about it!?!" or "Of What interest is it to me?"
Well, I suppose neither question has a clear cut answer, but I will attempt nonetheless to portray a portion of my impetus, as best I can.
THINK. Think for a moment what you hold dear, what drives you. What do you want? What makes you get up in the morning? What gets you through the day? What actions do you take through the day?
Do you find they are disproportionate to human ideals? Are you finding a shallow and materialistic answer? I do in myself. I want to think otherwise, but there is a mountainess mass ontop of us all. A weight of remembered thoughts or ideas. We base our current ideas, beliefs, facts upon what was previously thought, confirmed, rejected. Those before us based them on others, and those on others and so the chain goes on. How can we not be lost in an abstraction by now? How can we not be spinning out of the human formation into something so malformed, streamlined or tethered.
Consider the metaphor of a plastic container, once used, then cleaned, melted, and finally reformed to a new plastic, possibly inferior in quality. Now take that recycled container and recycle it again. And again. And again. You would probably get no more than three ressurections from the same piece of plastic. Now imagine that the machine used to recycle this plastic is made out of fourth generation inferior plastic and metal components. Imagine the machine used to form the plastic containers is made of the same degenerated materials. These other elements compounding, inducing a flucuating environment. Given that an inferior machine produces depreciated/unstable materials. what we are left with is most likely an entirely different substance than where it began. Or at worse we end up with a chaotic mess that results in complete system failure of the process.
In other words, dogma will eventually cause our destruction, or bring us back to the starting point.
I propose that in the acknowledgement of our deepest roots we expose many of our truly human thoughts and instincts, which are now obscured. These thoughts, whether compatible with existence today, will represent us as a species better and more accurately. How we live now is a child of our past (all that we can remember or assume as facts) and finally so many assumptions amount to a malformed offspring that neither you nor I should feel obligated to accept as our own. Distaste for our current way of thinking has left us spinning out of control, making our lives feel out of harmony (please do not assume the word 'harmony' contains any relgious belief or connotations, just one of a myriad of distorted views).
Although I deeply desire to offer some all-encompassing solution, we all know that the only general answer to save us is to recall that there is no general answer. BHowever, for starters I would recommend thinking, evaluating and appreciating the massive tangle of useless tethers and chains we have managed to tangle ourselves into.
Then the rest is up to the individual. . .
2006年6月16日 上午12點37分30秒Manifestation of the Social Beast.
Lol, never tried to chat about anything I found interesting before, literature being a central focus - I believed it a good idea.
Entering a room I thought suitable, I was anticipating a way-station for the weary intellectual wanderer.
Unfortunately, there certainly was no wandering intellect within. I now find the whole prospect frustrating and producing only ornamentals. I regret neglecting my peers and the in-person debate/discussion.
You see, my previous preference was for the written word. Especially since the advancements in technology and instantaneous messages over vast distances. Possibly due to the fact that I can quickly place an individual in checkmate, if in debate. I can manipulate, create, inflict and when it's all over I feel on top of the universe. But in this method I do sacrifice the personal interaction. I am aware I lack proper social skills. I can be eccentric, esoteric, or down-right confusion. That should not be my sole impetus. A lacking, cannot be my reasoning. Fear of failure, lose or inability should not prevent me from attempting to develop these skills. I will produce my writings as I have done, only on a more personal/human level (continue to read and evaluate, for reference). But I will satiate my need for intellectual interaction circumnavigating technology as much as possible.
This is the perfect oppurtunity to profess my distrust in man's use of technology. What if, for example, devices used for communication were to become disabled in say half a century from now? Given the trend we may predict a population of socially retarded individuals. Without the means to operate as humans are genetically predisposed.
These fears are warranted. As they relate to the survival of a healthy, independant species versus the technological slave race, left inept and fragile. I give no true answers. Meagerly, I offer the oppurtunity to acknowledge, embrace, cherish, repair and move on.
I felt a horrible shadow hanging over me. The lacking, unfinished individual. I will not fix errors by walking round them. I cannot strengthen my weaknesses without acknowledging them.
So now I embrace the personal approach to my intellectual discussions. They have already become healthy and true. In turn I am more human then ever before. Although, I still prefer the method in which I release my mental seeds into the infinite binary ocean. No method will replace social interaction.