網誌
2007年10月26日 下午10點06分17秒Where will you find me?
www.cinefactus22.deviantart.com
www.myspace.com/blackashtwilight
2007年5月19日 下午12點11分26秒Lethargy
I never forget
even though I try
but we're not alive
though we are here
Even though we try
few get beyond
our minor frame
whilst sleepers dream and traverse old paths
I hunt and move my head outside of the rest
they may be kings today but the warm light will not last forever
When old kings die, I will become the path and the door
The time we waste today is made of lethargy
Close your eyes
When we progress
we will see the beginnings
and know: darker days began in brighter light
We will recognize
what we see today is what we hold within
If you feel it you can move your emptiness onward
From the new hate propel those bound limbs beyond the tethers we maintain
The time we waste today
is built of lethargies weaved in the beginnings
there is no permanence
If we progress
we can see the brighter lights of darker days
If we progress
we can recognize
and release our long dead limbs from stagnancy
For your sake
the assault is with sledge.
With my own hands
I dig deep the day
Shifting and stirring the stagnant earth back awake
May you come to find release,
for your own good grasp
and pull away your own bindings
2007年5月10日 上午1點58分59秒The Flaming Ore
The flaming ore lives inside you
Familiar comforts signal stagnancy
So move on
The destination will always be what is unknown
Or you can circle round
What we've always called the Idiot
The Ignorant
And the Fool
All our days we've been waiting
Waiting for someone to come and lead us
But the flaming ore lives inside you
Iron bones have made you strong enough
We've been here, suffering and searching
Gaining and growing, seeing and knowing
Just when we think there's no space left
We take a step
And a thousand more
Gaining and growing
We can't leave it alone
Because we know
There is a space to fill
All our days we've been waiting
For someone, or something
To make the change, or push us on
But we're the ones taking the steps
So we're the ones to take the reins
When no one comes.
So move on
Gain and grow
Through it you will know
You're not filling occupied space
Why we all wait
Is why we're all here
Fill us up, before we run out of time.
2006年12月5日 下午6點19分51秒What has become of me . . .
I write constantly with depressed or ecstatic bends. Words flit and flutter from me in some aesthetic order and I maintain my ignorance that they all truly mean something.
Unfortunately they do not. I expect them to instill in another some emotion, when in me I find nothing stirring. I desire a mass moving in a simultaneous direction and am solitary. Struggling to stay on a surface that is no longer my survival but my terror. Where I stopped was where I found futility, I found myself straining to get back where I used to be. The massive plain ahead of me, pre-requisite to continuity of my once former splendor, is over-shadowing anything I ever did come to be thus far.
However much I try the result is still the same, lofty goals without the means to execute. Oh, well. . .not like it matters, no one expected great things from my minor frame. I am just a man, without home, without culture, without future, only the putred stench of the carcass of pride left to me.
I have broken momentum and lost it all to some latent void. Reclaiming this once glorious crown would be a pathetic attempt at ressurection. I slip into what made me. . .
I was forged in hate and I will die with it on my breath.
2006年11月6日 上午3點04分58秒The Light
In golden halls do we rarely see (and take) the tunnel of light. It is in our darkest hour, when all seductive paths remain hidden , terrifying, or alienated from us, that we see and walk towards the longer, harder path which was always self-evident.