網誌
2006年10月14日 上午12點42分34秒...
its 1:36am...feel like i just been stabbed in the heart...at this moment i feel so insecure...nothing is going good...i really hate this feeling...wot can i do to make myself feel better?
feels like to date i aint really sure who my frenz are...its for me to decide...but who? i dunno...cant even answer my own questions...i guess it is true to say that true frenz are hard to find...to me its extremely...mayb my past best fren was my sister...since she was the one i can turn to when i am unhappi n when i am confused about my emotions...i can talk to her n she will understand me whether or not i can give her an explanation of why i am sad...but since she now in HK to work...i have lost my best fren...i dunno who to turn to...as a result...i feel like my character is changing dramatically...i dont like the new me...i really wanna change myself...not physically...just the beki inside...the way she thinks...mayb if she didnt make things so complicated then life wud be so much more easier n smooth...why can i not enjoy life to the full...since u only live once...
2006年10月4日 下午10點39分05秒...
2day...2day...2day...just another ordinary day...wish it cud be filled wiv more life...am i a gud actress or summin...tend to look happi when deep inside she is unsure...the usually very organised...or at least the beki who LIKES to be organised isnt so very organised these days...seems like her shell is in reality but her spirit has floated off to god knows where...mind is constantly finding summin to fink of otherwise it will only automatically drift to the same person... >_< only 79 days till i see u...am counting down the days...