2009年6月7日 上午8點40分25秒Saturday night

Went to Carribean Bar yesterday. It was pretty fun and quite a few fascinating 'sights'. A girl had her arms draped over two guys and was openly flirting with them; hands over their chests and etc. I saw one of the guy openly peeked down her low cut tee to where her black bra was hiding her treasures.(I guess she's at most a B?) I was sitted opposite them while they were oblivious to their surroundings. They might as well do a porn show there for all they care. My friends and I sniggered at such an open display of passion. There were a lot of South Africans who came out to play and a few of the female Filipinos were winking at them, daring them to take the bait. I wondered how did they manage to sneak pass their employers with scanty clothing? Lol. The dance floor had quite a few female Africans occupying it and they were really enjoying themselves.

I had 2 cocktails and 1 tequila shot but my mind was perfectly sane. It was one of those days I really wanted myself to be lost in the music and focused on the throbbing beat on the dancefloor but I can't. Drat. My friends got really high though. One of them had a flaming lambroghini which burned a wild sensation down her throat. I quite like the drink after the addition of the milk. Sweet.

My newest favourite drink is tequila sunrise. It's a yummy concoction of tequila and orange juice and taste like the most delicious cough mixture that I ever drank. It was about 2pm when we were out of the bar and sitting outside it. My friend was red from the flaming lambroghini and it was up to her throat. We got her a glass of water and the waiter was smirking wickedly at her. She cussed. Looks like she still has the fight in her. :) 15 mins later, she headed for the toilet to throw out the ramnants of her chicken wings which had already became popcorn chicken. :)

Life is not about getting on a ship and to your end desination. Sometimes you may need to put up a sail, in time to adjust to the wind. Or in times of thunderstorm, roll down the sail and anchor the ship. It is about how fast you can adjust to the situation to get to your island. I hope my friend will understand this instead of going to pubs as a frustration-release outlet. Letting go is not an act of cowardice but rather, to release from the pain inflicted by others so that one can move on with life. As she had always preached to us, if the guy does not like you, it doesn't mean you are not good. It just means that he is not the one for you and unable to see the good in you. In her case, I would prefer her to let go completely rather than partially.

I just recently discovered that my ex-colleague is in a relationship with the IT guy. Last year when the whole office is abuzzed with excitement over the IT guys, esp the one I like, she seemed to be unbothered by it. "He handsome meh? He cute meh?" - disparaging remarks that came from her mouth. A few weeks ago, I discovered he "owned" (under own application) her in FB and called her "sweet gal". And she "owned" him back. My 'red alert' signal had never been stronger. I piled on false hopes. Maybe they were having fun only. Couldn't be that they were in a relationship; otherwise why none of my ex-colleagues mentioned?

Just 2 days ago, I saw his sister addressing him in FB. I clicked on her picture, curious how she will look like. Will she look like him? My eyes skimmed her profile and stopped dead at one and only familiar face (mutual friends). It was my ex-colleague staring and smiling back at me. Apparently, he had already brought her home for house visit. I can't heap on any denials anymore. They ARE together. Confusion sets in. She "broke up" with her going-to-be boyfriend and ended up with him? No wonder she indicated her relationship was complicated in FB. Lol. They really kept this discreet. The whole office did not even know about this and I, a 'stranger' stumbled this by accident.

It was really lucky I was no longer working there. I can think of 1001 reasons how God had been very kind to me. I don't think I will be strong enough in that kind of environment. Especially every thursdays. By showing me this 'incident' subtlely, I guess it's time to get back to reality. My focus should not be there anymore and my energies should be channelled into other areas worth my time. I should think of ways I can be happy and take things in my stride positively instead of brooding over them. I hope my friend will understand and overcome her problems soon.

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2009年6月7日 上午7點33分06秒A paragraph from 張小嫻 blog

我不愛管男人，我也從來沒管過。聽話的男人不用管，不聽話的男人，要管也管不到。 對你好的男人不用管，對你不好的男人，不會讓你管。愛你的男人不用管，不愛你的，你管不來。

人又為什麼要管另一個人呢？ 當你把鎖鏈繫在那個人腳上，你不是也要抓緊那條鎖鏈的另一端，牢牢地盯著對方嗎？人在束縛別人的同時，也是在束縛自己。

假使你愛的男人是你仰慕的，你哪裡需要去管他？他那麼棒，你巴不得他來管� ...

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2009年4月15日 下午3點30分28秒Wasting Money

I'm not one of those extremely pro-government that you see in Singapore but neither am I an anti-government person. I would describe myself as a neutral party and not keen to get involve with the politics. I'm a very normal person that you will barely notice when I walked on the streets - a typical girl-next-door with average looks but quite opinionated. =__="

I'm an administrator who is dedicated to her job. When I was young, I never thought about school fees and how expensive they were till I became an administrator in schools. Recently, I was pretty ...

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